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Apollonian 1: The Counted and the Crowned

A Pindaric ode commemorating the millions of laboratory animals sacrificed for scientific knowledge, written in a strict alliterative meter. Synthesizing the history of strains like C57BL/6 with the mythic figures of Laika and OncoMouse, the poem explores the covenant between researcher and subject. From the granaries of Abbie Lathrop to the tragedy of the winter release, it seeks to elevate these unwilling martyrs to a place of permanent memory. By transforming the cold ‘ledger’ of data into the ‘gold’ of song, the ode attempts to pay the moral debt that statistics alone cannot settle.

On the occasion of visiting a biomedical lab and watching the release of unnecessary mice; dedicated to Apollo Smintheus.

The Wild Calling

[Strophe] Gold is the word || that outlasts the world;
Water gives life; || the sun lords over days.
Sing of the small saints, || silent, unnamed—
Ghost-mice of the grain-bins, || grown tame for human need,
Who traded frost-field || for filter-cage flame,
And sealed a silent compact || no claw could carve away.

[Antistrophe] Grain-bins groaned once, gnawed || by grey guests who crept unbidden,
Scuttling from cold fields || to farmer’s flame-lit floor, all hunger,
And farmers cursed the fur || that fouled the flour, fed on their labor,
But Lathrop, lone and listening, || led them from floor to living loft,
Where line bred line, locked tight, || law inside blood—till Jackson labs
Would call this pale clan forth || for the covenant of cure.

[Epode] Field found cage; || cage fed need.
The compact held; || the count began.

The Temple & The Tithe

Laminar wind, unsoiled, || lifts lint from living fur;
Cedar scents the sanctum || where soft feet pace the grate.
C57, black workhorse, || bears black blood-price, breathing;
Wistar, white Adam, || waits, warehoused, watchful,
Dawn brought the feeding hand; || dusk brought the felling thumb—
The hand that filled the water || felled them with the final sleep.

Ear-punch prints the witness || in numb cartilage, nailing the named;
Tail-vein takes blue river || where viral vectors ride to root;
LD-Fifty weighs death in halves || while hush comes heavy, CO2 closing Till thumb-snap shuts the spine-cord || and soul-spark, severed, is gone;
Sharps Bin stands red, ready, || receiving what research refuses;
Steam-hell scrubs the silver || and stacks their souls in data’s scroll.

Cures come; || corpses count.
Gift endures; || glory stays.

The Void-Watcher

Stray bitch of Moscow || saw the moon rise close,
Caught from cold street || for cosmic climb.
Bound in the bolt-sphere, || in the blackest sky,
Heart hammering hard || in the heat and noise—
She watched the world || as a wheel of blue,
A saint sent high || to the silent stars.

She burned as a beacon in the black, || where no hand could reach to bring her home,
And the wires that mapped her wild fear || wrote the way for men who followed after,
For the data drawn from dying cur || paved the proud road through the silent void,
And the pilots who walked the waste she won || wore her death as warrant for their way,
First to fall in the fire of the future, || first to find what flesh could bear in flight—
The void looked back, and the void-watcher || vanished in the vast and lasting dark.

Lost lives lay paths; || light learns from dark.
She held the door; || the walkers walked through.

The Named Who Follow

Dolly, winter-born, || woke from a dead cell’s dream
First mammal made from memory, || she died remembering none.
OncoMouse, patented prophet, || preached the patent’s price:
Named by lawyers, never loved— || yet lasting, for the law wrote large.
See the bronze beast in snow, || stitching spiral, spectacled, wise—
Monument to mute, || made by hands they healed.

Through these few the nameless million || lift for one line toward the light,
Breaking blur of billion || to blaze a few with lasting crown;
For glory gives the singer’s tongue || what silence stole from still and mute,
A name is a nail, and the nail || pins a soul to the wall of song—
Yet the named are few, and the nameless mass || waits mute beyond the music’s reach,
For each one blazed, a billion burn || in the blank of the bone-ledger’s page.

Fame feeds; || flesh falls.
Speak them; || they stay.

The Grass-Gate Opens

Grass-gate gaped wide || for the glass-born, grown surplus;
Clear plastic paradise || cast out on cold grass.
Black mice bunched, blinking || where bleak breath bit hard;
They nosed the tubs, nudged, || knew no name for earth;
The false sun faded behind; || fierce frost fell fast;
The grass was a forest; || the cat was a god.

They paused at portal’s threshold— || plastic paws pressed damp earth,
Felt first false wind whisk whiskers— || wide world opened, owl-hush;
What covenant did we keep, || casting them into cold we could not follow?
No contract signed in blood— || though blood had paid the bond already—
And warmth’s warrant was withdrawn || without word or warning,
Cast from the engine’s care || to the cold of the cat-god’s ground.

Trust broke; || truth stays.
Warmth goes with them; || work remains.

The Gift Of Song

We walk on wide walls || of white-fur bone;
We drink the draft of cure, || distilled from their deaths;
Their blood binds our bodies; || their breath bought our breath;
The child who woke to morning || owed the mouse who met the night.
Pasteur broke rabies; || boy walked, breathing;
Salk sought the sign; || the swarm supplied.

But poet brings praise where census || piles only number, count on count,
For a name nailed fast by song || never melts from memory’s wall,
So we speak the strains to wind: || Wistar, workhorse, white Adam, host—
And silent clans that science keeps || rise, named at last, toward lasting light,
And song returns to silent souls || what the sharp count stole away,
And the million unremembered rise, || riding this rhythm into the sun.

Song is the gift || we give them back.
We crown with cadence || what we cannot keep.
The pact holds; || we now pay.
Count is a kind || of cold keeping.