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Market => Product offers => Topic started by: eindhoven on September 02, 2013, 12:49 pm
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Members write your best experience with DMT and win 2 x 200 mg pure DMT for free !
the best story wins 2x 200 mg dmt for free ;)
have fun 8)
eindhoven
thanks for your great storys members 8) ::)
contest ends and the winner are "Horizons" with the best story and a small dose goes to "adamiz" because i also like his story and every customer they gives himself effort must be rewarded ;) ;D ::)
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Members write your best experience with DMT and win 2 x 200 mg pure DMT for free !
the best story wins 2x 200 mg dmt for free ;)
have fun 8)
eindhoven
;) :o 8)
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Iv yet todo DMT, So i dont have a story. But what i will say is pick me to win and i will come back and write every 20mins of my journey as im on DMT!! gIVE SOMEONE a chance who wants to try DMT and come back and give a newbie to DMT story...
HOPE THATS A GOOD PITCH!!!
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What an awesome contest. Really hoping I win because I'd love to give DMT another try it's definitely something out of this world. I remember this experience like it was yesterday just because it was so crazy. I had been researching and just reading different people's experiences on DMT so of course I had to try it and the good ol' road had it.
When the product arrived I really wanted a crazy experience so I put way to much sandwiched in between some Mary Jane and took a huge hit then held it in while waiting for things to get different. That didn't take long at all and about 20 seconds later I look over at the TV which was on the news and everything was purple! The man had purple skin, the map was purple, the background was purple! All I could think was oh shit this is bad then somehow I ended up on the floor trying to make it to my closet but things were just too crazy in my head. While I was laying there I thought I killed myself and I was just dead because of this drug. I saw myself laying on the floor and people coming in crying seeing me at the lowest point. From there it was just me envisioning being in a hospital and being in some type of surgery or something then a bright light and the trip was over.
That DMT experience changed me lol. Sorry for the length but thank you for the opportunity and good luck to everyone who participates. +karma to you bro
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I will repost one experience I had this July.
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I had a strange night this night involving some emotional anxieties and problems, lsd and dmt. I don't know if I can call this breaking through, but honestly I don't care any more. I was not off in another universe or experienced any kind of trip reports that I have read. All these reports that describe being in places or ego deaths are beyond me and I can't reach them until now.
Anyway, long story into short. I realized these days that I am in a really bad psychological position. The last month was a total disaster but I kind of didn't see it or tried to hide it by persuading myself that I am ok. Dmt came then into my life and I am sure I become obsessed with it and all my thoughts were there. My mind have played some really ugly games the last 2 weeks. I can't breakthrough, I don’t have the need to be out and meeting new people which is one of my weaknesses and most important of all I have found myself two times not able to perform sexually (today was the second one) just because my mind fucked me up with silly thoughts. This particular fact had me destroyed. I was always considering myself a sex god until before 1 months where I had my last girl.
Today this wonderful new girl I have meet last 2 weeks, that I have started to feel something, comes and we take my last 2 LSD tabs. Again after 1-2 hours and while the effects of lsd has started I got stressed! First time that I am high on lsd and I can’t focus on the beauty of everything. Fuck, I feel shit to say this but I couldn't even get a steady hornyness (up,down,up,down) and just kept kissing and etc,etc. I never had something sexual while on lsd but from what others say it is an experience really strong because as you know your senses while on lsd are on a very high level. I was touching her and kissing her very smooth but I wasn’t there. I was alone with my negative thoughts and again saying to myself how fucked my mind state is. Fortunately (I don’t believe I actually say this) she had her period so she stopped me saying "damn it would be perfect if we had sex on lsd but I can't so stop". We haven't done it by the way until now.
Anyway, I don't know why I write all these again. Sorry!
So another friend comes and we just relax all night at my place. The lsd trip was really different from all before. I just couldn't feel happy and had constant thoughts about how fucked I have become all of the sudden the last month. My friend, I just realized then, that I have stopped to love and appreciate myself. I always tell myself that I am the best but the last month I wasn’t believing it. 5 hours later I am finally alone. I know this is time for me to try and think about my current messed mental state. I decided to go out at the sunrise and go into a forest that I have found nearby with my bicycle. Need some fresh air and some positive energy to escape this mental prison I am in. I am on lsd anyway and there is a chance that I will feel better if I just go and let my mind free in the deep forest. I stayed in the forest about 2 hours. Going all over the forest “playing” with all the nature, the sounds, the little animal. I just embraced life again. All went good. Not quite peaceful, but it was a necessary thing to go out and just let myself in the arms of nature. God how strong nature can be!
I went back home and decided to try the combination that many talk about and vapor some DMT while tripping on lsd. (It wasn’t at the peak as it was 6 hours before I took it, but still having the positive energy that you have while on LSD).
I load 40mg on my machine and take it all with 2 tokes.
I can't really remember all the details and it is very very hard to describe it in words. But will try anyway since I have already typed some much bullshit
I said to myself and to the "dmt" <<Okey I believe I am ready>>. An female entity I have seen the last 2 times is again there. This time the scenery is colorful and a bit stronger. It's center has some kind of algorithms and symbols that I try to understand. I am there, in my room with my eyes closed and having hallucinations. I know am there and once again I know I am not going to breakthrough. The colorful entity is also there with me and this time I felted something really strange and new. "She" was waiting me and kept me company. She wanted me to see into my problems, my troubles. She was just singing in a strange language and was staring at me as if she wanted from me to do something.All of the sudden one by one, all of my negative thoughts, problems and emotions came up. I was feeling like going really deep in my soul. Every problem was in a existing material form in the sense that I could not only feel them but also see them (I can't describe it better right now but I was looking to my feelings and thougts as if they were small circles). I was erasing and destroying every one of it. She was there, looking at me fighting with my mind. She was there finally happy and not scary or disappointed from me. As this kept going for a long time I felt more and more released, more free again and built again my self respect and mental welfare. This particular point of the trip was really strong. I was seeing for the first time myself. She was there and told me every time not to care about such silly problems. All those algorithms around her were exploding into huge lights everytime I managed to look delete consciously my negative thoughts that has been so deeply rooted inside me without even knowing there was such a deep part of me or even that there was a mulfaction there. She was kind of singing to me that it is me that it is important, not my problems. It is me myself who make these mental obstacles and it is again myself who is in charge of overcoming them and not fall under them.
It isn't breakthrough one would say because the way I see it breaking through is on a state where you look like taking a nap. I know my body was there with me because I can recall my body. The trip ended after 10-15 minutes and I find myself with tears in my eyes and just giving kisses to her while saying dozens of times thank you and thank you.
This was really deep my friends. Nothing I have ever experienced before. Going into and seeing into my inner soul and deleting all those problems from the core of myself, while having "her" next to me was a fantastic experience! I don't know if this was the combo with the "leftovers" of lsd and honestly I don't care about breaking through. This was what I needed at this point of my life and will stop with daily use of dmt for now. I have the respect of it I had before starting being obsessed with this so called breaking through. I am sure it is an amazing experience but I can't find anything right now that can be more amazing than finding myself again. Maybe an ego death as you all good people say will help, but for now I don't feel I need it. I feel really alive and happy again.
I really loved my today trip. I wasn't just seeing stuff, I learned something from it today. And I guess that is what all experienced users are talking about. It is not just visuals, it is a way to go inside your own ego and find pieces that you never knew you had. Maybe lsd was the key, maybe not, maybe the vibes from the forest, maybe not those as well. In any case, dmt today helped me a lot!
Have a nice day my dear friends
Best regards,
Adamiz
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Well that's it :)
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I'll post something that happened to me about two years ago. I originally posted this in a forum asking for opinions and help with integrating the experience:
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I've never broken through on DMT. The first thing that happens to me when I take that first hit is huge tachycardia that keeps me from holding it or the next ones in long enough. I have however reached a state where, eyes closed, it was like I was in a completely different dimension, but I never lost awareness of the fact that my body was right there, back in the normal world. In this state, I've met the machine elves.
The first few times, there were just fractals everywhere. Slowly I began noticing that some of the fractals seemed to somehow be intelligent. I can't even remember what tipped me off to this. Eventually I was able to distinguish them from the background of unintelligent fractals, and from then on I feel a sense of an "other" or a "presence" almost immediately when coming up on enough DMT. I don't really care if they exist outside my head in some other plane or are just a figment of my imagination, though I'm very much inclined to believe in the latter. What matters is that I experience them as other selves, separate from me, playful, kind and slightly sadistic (in a jester/trickster sort of way) and, most important, they clearly know something that I don't.
The last three times I visited the machine elves were the first since I had been able to completely distinguish them from the background. In all three occasions, I was in a place that felt like a multidimensional art gallery. They were very happily showing me several different things of beauty, and seemed pleased to see that I liked them. The first two times I just drank it all in. It was beautiful, and the afterglow left me feeling relaxed and energized, as well as thankful to whatever-the-heck-those-little-guys-were for taking me on such a fun trip. The third one, yesterday, was different.
It started out the same as the others. There was an art gallery, some of the machine elves were showing me the sculptures and others were idling around, contemplating the art just like I was. But then I remembered what Leary, Lily, Strassman and so many a serious psychonaut always said: if you really want to dive into the rabbit hole, don't focus on the visions. So I started to focus only on my breathing. The machine elves doubled their efforts to distract me with beauty - even the ones who were just gazing at art before seemed drawn to the fact that I wasn't paying attention. Some of them started to dance. This gave me more confidence that I was on to something, so I continued to focus only on breathing. Some of them got angry, I ignored the fear. Then, one of them, with what felt like a very mocking smile, told me (though not in words or anything of the sort) "Fine, the charade is up. You got us. Do you want to see what it's all about? Here it is." He took me to a place with a box, and the whole thing felt incredibly significant, like I was on the verge of an eureka moment. But inside the box... was nothing.
Absolutely nothing. It was as if they were saying "there is nothing special for you, or for anyone else for that matter. There's just the world you live in, taken at face value, and that's it." Maybe they told me to stop looking, maybe that's just how I interpreted it. Maybe they meant that there was nothing inside me, like the old Buddhist doctrine of not-self, or even that there's nothing to worry about. I don't know. I know that I took it as "the world is what it is, and there is nothing else and never will be", and that this filled me with the greatest feeling of disappointment I have ever felt in my life, like a huge part of myself had died and my greatest hope was lost.
As I felt this huge disappointment, I noticed something. I noticed that this awful feeling had always been there, since as long as I can remember, just beneath the surface. I was living my life, permanently disappointed that the world is the way it is and not elsewise, and I didn't even know it. I was oblivious to this huge, intense negative emotion and it was sapping my energy from behind the curtain, causing the weird unexplainable fatigue that has been my constant companion for the last five or six years. How fucked up is that, to feel something so powerful for so long and be so hindered by it, and not even have a clue? How can the same person feel and not know that he's feeling?
Now that I know this, what the fuck do I do about it? I have absolutely no idea how to integrate this discovery into my life. What do I do about the disappointment? What CAN I do? It's not a conscious choice. And now that I'm aware of it, I'm frankly scared shitless of just how huge it is. I'm not sure I can tackle this thing and come out alive or sane on the other side. It seems completely overpowering. I've never had such a brutal revelation about myself, nor one that rang truer, and I am overwhelmed by it.
What is frightening me to no end is the realization that I have been in a state of complete disappointment with the world for several years. The box only helped me to see that. It's this huge feeling that was comfortably hidden away for so long and that the trip dragged into the light. Now that I'm aware of it, I MUST do something about it... but where do I even start? What should I do? How, and with what strength should I do it? This trip has laid out the path I must now walk in order to answer these questions and become my true self.
DMT has proven to be the real deal, giving me a truer psychedelic experience than any other drug - and the word "truer" here carries an eerie sense. It felt "more real than reality" from the beginning of the come-up (maybe because I have been keeping reality at arm's length and the drug temporarily robs me of that capacity). It's familiar, as if I had been there before long ago and was finally coming back home. Of course, it might be that the drug causes the mere illusion of "being back where I belong", just as it causes the illusions of morphing fractals and distant echoes of vaguely aquatic noises. But what if I really do remember a similar experience from long ago?
AFAIK it's a consensus in the psychology and psychiatry communities that the ego is something we learn, not something we're born with. It got me to thinking that maybe in early childhood or in the womb this is how one experiences consciousness: unbounded by concepts and divisions, including the division between "me" and "not me" - maybe that's just like DMT. Just as I had to learn, over multiple trips, to distinguish the machine elves from the fractals, a baby must learn to distinguish objects and backgrounds in the world of light that it first sees. He must learn that the lines separating a fence from the blue sky are actual physical boundaries, and not just patterns like on a woven tapestry. Making this distinction, like making the distinction between myself and not-myself, is a vital skill for navigating in this world. And both skills quickly become automatic, which can be a problem in the latter case. I, for example, have wrongly put parts of my psyche into the not-myself pile, and am now having a hard time accessing them directly.
All I can say is Holy shit. I guess life really CAN be fun (and quite the spoonful!) if you only look at it right. Here's to hoping we all do.
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I've had exactly two experiences that I"d qualify as rivaling this one in intensity and meaningufulness, but unfortunately, I didn't properly document either of them as well as I did this one.
DMT is one hell of a drug.
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I liked your report Horizons. Very interesting. I will quote one of your paragraphs for discussion
As I felt this huge disappointment, I noticed something. I noticed that this awful feeling had always been there, since as long as I can remember, just beneath the surface. I was living my life, permanently disappointed that the world is the way it is and not elsewise, and I didn't even know it. I was oblivious to this huge, intense negative emotion and it was sapping my energy from behind the curtain, causing the weird unexplainable fatigue that has been my constant companion for the last five or six years. How fucked up is that, to feel something so powerful for so long and be so hindered by it, and not even have a clue? How can the same person feel and not know that he's feeling?
Something very similar happened to me. I guess with DMT you dive really into your soul, and sometimes you discover feelings that you didn't even knew there were there. Amazing substance, or as you said:
DMT is one hell of a drug.
Be well my friend!
Adamiz
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I don't see DMT as a drug, but instead a gateway. A gateway into an understanding of life and your consciousness.
My most intense DMT experience to date:
Prior to this day, I've done DMT roughly 10~ times. Breaking through only 5 or 6ish. This time I really wanted to get to the next level, meet beings. I packed 75 mg of the slightly yellow powder into my GVG, and prepared for launch. I quickly used the bathroom, and then laid in my bed with the lights off. I lit my lighter, letter the illumination from the flame be my only source of light. I start applying the heat, and near instantly I started tasting the familiar DMT taste. We all know that taste. I held it in for 15 seconds, and exhaled. I could already start to feel to effects taking over, and I was losing my grip on my piece. I fought my instincts to put the piece down, and went for another rip. I took another fat rip, only holding it in for a few seconds before dropping my piece into my lap and laying back.
When I closed my eyes, all I saw was darkness. Then with sudden force, I launched out of my body, easily at upwards of what felt like 500 MPH. I was going right into the atmosphere, an atmosphere of my own self consciousness. I continued flying and as I did colored fractals passed me and waves of light flowed by me. The whole background looked like an aurora, the sort you'd see in the North Pole. I reached a planet that had no definite shape, but seemed to morph into various shapes. I landed upon it and was greeted by a group of men, with no precise definition just outlines filled with void. They would look at me and vibrate, making a wierd humming noise as they did. I attempted to talk to them, but as soon as I made a noise they vanished. I looked around and saw some structure in the far distance. I started approaching it, and it seemed miles away. But somehow within a few seconds I was there, at the door. There was 2 large iron doors, each with a round glass porthole at the center. I tried looking through the porthole but it was fogged. I tried to open the door, to no avail. I knocked on the door, nothing. I waited and waited. Finally I said fuck it and yelled "OPEN UP" and magically the whole building collapsed as if the base had been blown up.
There was much smoke and dust, but within what seemed like seconds it was cleared. Among the rubble from the fallen building I saw a football at the center. The football looked eerily familiar, but I didn't know where it was from. I walked towards it. I bent over and went to pick it up. As soon as I touched it my deceased father's voices start echoing through the hole world. "Why don't you play football like your Dad did when I was your age?" "Why don't you spend less time on the computer and more time with girls?" "Why can't you be more athletic?" All of my fathers criticisms came rushing back, from when I was a mere child. I was always a disappointment to my father, and these sounds brought all these memories flooding back.
It seemed surreal, I was in awe. I was flabbergasted that somehow I heard my fathers voice, who's been dead for 3 years, in crystal clarity. I didn't know how to respond. I didn't respond. I waited, and waited. For what felt like an eternity, with a feeling of shame and awkwardness. I yelled "IT'S MY LIFE" with anger and persistence. Suddenly everything was gone, black void. I was floating, but it felt like I was standing. There was no ground beneath, I couldn't tell which direction was up, down, left, or right. I floated there, in serenity. Relieved that I didn't have to explain myself to my father anymore. Relieved that the football was no longer in my sight. I felt as if I was going deeper and deeper into myself. I was reaching the bottom of my soul, rock bottom. I felt intense emotions in which I've never felt before. Strong love, hate, anger, it seemed to be a combination of every emotion I've every felt. I stayed like this for another few minutes, which felt like a half hour, and then awoke. I awoke feeling broken and exhausted, but enlightened.
This trip gave me a new understanding of my life. I stopped taking things for granted. The next day I called the girl I've liked for a month, and asked her on a date. We've now been going out for 4 months and I can thank the DMT for giving me the willpower and courage. DMT changed my life for the better.
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members thanks for your great storys ;) 8) The contest ends 20/09/2013 and I hope to read more fantastic experiences before it ends ;) :o 8)
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Something very similar happened to me. I guess with DMT you dive really into your soul, and sometimes you discover feelings that you didn't even knew there were there. Amazing substance, or as you said:
DMT is one hell of a drug.
Be well my friend!
Adamiz
Yes, a DMT trip really is a journey of self-discovery. I'm constantly amazed at how much more frequently than other psychedelics it triggers profound, emotional experiences. A raver can have a dozen acid trips that are all euphoria and pretty colors, but I've never heard of a person taking DMT even five times without at least one of the trips (even at lower doses) touching on an emotional hot button.
Keep on lovin'.
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Great! Keep it up ;) 8) ::)
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More please!! I really want to do DMT, as I feel it will lead me in the right direction in life! Right now I feel as though I'm going down the wrong path, lost. I want to find the light of my life. I am loving the stories, more!!!
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More please!! I really want to do DMT, as I feel it will lead me in the right direction in life! Right now I feel as though I'm going down the wrong path, lost. I want to find the light of my life. I am loving the stories, more!!!
Ok, I feel that I have to interfere here. I am 100% positive to try it. Really do it! But I believe it is a false thought saying to yourself that it will lead you to the right direction in life. You cannot expect changes in your life from any substance. I did this also when I first was experimenting with DMT. I have understand that the more you expect the less you will get, especially from DMT.
This is just my personal opinion though. I believe that the best way to experience DMT, even if it sound too philosophic it to just let yourself free on this experience. Your mind set and expectations play a huge role on your trip.
All the best,,
Adamiz
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More please!! I really want to do DMT, as I feel it will lead me in the right direction in life! Right now I feel as though I'm going down the wrong path, lost. I want to find the light of my life. I am loving the stories, more!!!
Do not let drugs control your life , You want to be in control.
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More please!! I really want to do DMT, as I feel it will lead me in the right direction in life! Right now I feel as though I'm going down the wrong path, lost. I want to find the light of my life. I am loving the stories, more!!!
Careful with that mindset. Psychedelics are like Morpheus from The Matrix: they can only show you the door, you have to cross it yourself.
Based on my own experience and what I've heard from others, it's much more likely that a DMT trip will show you what you're doing wrong than what you should be doing right. It can help you to see what to change but not how or into what to change it. Psychedelia can be a fantastic starting point for personal growth but you still need to put in the effort.
I think that everyone should do DMT at least once, barring those with psychotic tendencies and others for whom the drug might do more harm than good. But please don't go into the trip expecting it to change you. Be open to the possibility, but bring no expectations. Just let your mind blast off and remember that whatever ends up happening is what you needed to happen. Write down or draw or otherwise record what happened when it's over, then go back to the trip in your memory a few days later. You'll be surprised at the insights you can have.
Best of luck!
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Bump because the contest ends soon.
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Members write your best experience with DMT and win 2 x 200 mg pure DMT for free !
the best story wins 2x 200 mg dmt for free ;)
have fun 8)
eindhoven
thanks for your great storys members 8) ::)
contest ends and the winner are "Horizons" with the best story and a small dose goes to "adamiz" because i also like his story and every customer they gives himself effort must be rewarded ;) ;D ::)
CONGRATULATION TO THE WINNERS FROM MY CONTEST ;) ;D 8) I hope you write us our experiences with your dmt ::) :P ;D
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Winners please send me with an encrypted link your adress info !
Please use this link , this link was really encrypted !!!
http://sms4tor3vcr2geip.onion
thanks ;)
eindhoven
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Gz Horrizons. Cool that you liked my story as well.
May I ask now who is in charge of sending the free dmt? I don't want to sound like an idiot, but you are not a vendor. So you will send out of your own DMT?
In any case, I have to pass for 3 reasons.
1) I only deal with SR vendors.
2) By your name I assume you will send it from Netherlands, and until now, our customs here haven't allowed any letter coming from Netherlands to arrive.
3) I am a bit hard in trusting new DMT products. I have my favorite vendors and intend to use them :)
Thanks anyway, but as you can understand I prefer to keep my address details hidden from forums users and deal only with SR vendors.
All the best,
Adamiz
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May I ask now who is in charge of sending the free dmt? I don't want to sound like an idiot, but you are not a vendor. So you will send out of your own DMT?
I second this question. I'm all for free drugs, but safety comes first.
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May I ask now who is in charge of sending the free dmt? I don't want to sound like an idiot, but you are not a vendor. So you will send out of your own DMT?
I second this question. I'm all for free drugs, but safety comes first.
i had write you an pm to your question ... i hope i had the question answered ;) ::)
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May I ask now who is in charge of sending the free dmt? I don't want to sound like an idiot, but you are not a vendor. So you will send out of your own DMT?
I second this question. I'm all for free drugs, but safety comes first.
i had write you an pm to your question ... i hope i had the question answered ;) ::)
only to him? :'( :'(
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There's nothing private or personally identifying in the PM eindhoven sent me, so I'll take the liberty of posting it ITT for the sake of clarity and transparency:
Hello Winner ,
i give you an answer to this question ... one of my best friends give me on my birthday a half g from pure dmt and 5 lsd trips ! but i dont use dmt and then i give another dmt user a chance to win that dmt with that contest !
is the question answered ;)
greets ,
eindhoven
And with that, eindhoven, I have a question to ask: if he/she'll accept it, can I donate my prize to rollbabyroll, who expressed a desire to try out DMT during the contest?
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And with that, eindhoven, I have a question to ask: if he/she'll accept it, can I donate my prize to rollbabyroll, who expressed a desire to try out DMT during the contest?
Seems legit and kind. Nice thought Horizons and generous gesture!
Share the substance to the people!! +1
Best regards,
Adamiz
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There's nothing private or personally identifying in the PM eindhoven sent me, so I'll take the liberty of posting it ITT for the sake of clarity and transparency:
Hello Winner ,
i give you an answer to this question ... one of my best friends give me on my birthday a half g from pure dmt and 5 lsd trips ! but i dont use dmt and then i give another dmt user a chance to win that dmt with that contest !
is the question answered ;)
greets ,
eindhoven
And with that, eindhoven, I have a question to ask: if he/she'll accept it, can I donate my prize to rollbabyroll, who expressed a desire to try out DMT during the contest?
for sure Horizons ;)
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More please!! I really want to do DMT, as I feel it will lead me in the right direction in life! Right now I feel as though I'm going down the wrong path, lost. I want to find the light of my life. I am loving the stories, more!!!
@ rollbabyroll please send me an pm ! thank the user horizons , he gives you his price ...
Peace & Love
eindhoven