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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: Sleepingdog on September 29, 2012, 11:05 am

Title: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Sleepingdog on September 29, 2012, 11:05 am
Hi,

Just joined/discovered SR recently. Used to be a strung out junkie and then walked away from it all 11 years ago. Never regretted it but always had the itch. Rebuilt my entire life, put a business on the road. I own my own home, have 2 nice cars sitting in the driveway and all my bills are paid up to date. So I discover SR and buy some H. I thought that if you only used it for a day or two  it wouldn't be so bad. I was wrong. Bad call. I've been as sick as a pig for the last few days. Same as 11 years ago. Then I go into Barclays to deposit money into my Mt Gox account, and they tell me that they can't do deposits to that account any more. I'm glad in a way cuz I was on a dangerous path. I'm sick as fuck but I'm okay. That stuff is poison.

SD
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Thedonkilluminati on September 29, 2012, 11:47 am
So you build your life and got tired and wanted to destroy it again?  :D
GL with doing that cause i know you can do it. ;)

But if i was you i had never came back to use H.
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Ballzinator on September 29, 2012, 11:53 am
Damn man... be careful :-\
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Post by: Niriane on September 29, 2012, 04:28 pm
Be careful! :'(
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: apples on September 30, 2012, 02:20 am
Hi,

Just joined/discovered SR recently. Used to be a strung out junkie and then walked away from it all 11 years ago. Never regretted it but always had the itch. Rebuilt my entire life, put a business on the road. I own my own home, have 2 nice cars sitting in the driveway and all my bills are paid up to date. So I discover SR and buy some H. I thought that if you only used it for a day or two  it wouldn't be so bad. I was wrong. Bad call. I've been as sick as a pig for the last few days. Same as 11 years ago. Then I go into Barclays to deposit money into my Mt Gox account, and they tell me that they can't do deposits to that account any more. I'm glad in a way cuz I was on a dangerous path. I'm sick as fuck but I'm okay. That stuff is poison.

SD

as a fellow recovering heroin addict i feel for you bro. for like the first 2 years after i quit (it's been like 2 1/2-3 years) i would go into withdrawls whenever i took any kind of opiate painkiller. i was fucked when i broke my ankle. sick as fuck.

stay strong. shit isn't worth it.
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: apples on September 30, 2012, 02:23 am
and granted i have relapsed since i've made my account (like twice) but i'm not allowing myself to buy more than like every once in awhile (i prefer ketamine to h any day).

i feel for you though. i really do. shit is horrible going into w/ds unexpectedly
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Sleepingdog on September 30, 2012, 08:56 am
Thanks everyone. I'm still really sick but I will get through this. I thought I could dabble with this stuff again but boy was I wrong about that. I didn't use much, got a gram and smoked it. Now I'm as sick as I was 11 years ago when I quit. That H is pure bad news. I made a mistake, I'm paying the price. My fault, pure and simple. I have no desire to destroy my life all over again on account of any drug. Its Sunday morning here, my partner has gone to work. I just fed my 2 cats and walked my dog in the rain. I'm feeling really ill but that will pass. Just cooked a pizza in the oven but no appetite. Have some weed which helps right now. Always smoked and it never caused a problem. That H is a different story altogether. I will be careful and I will stay away from the H. I have never known of anything good to come out of using that drug, only death and misery. I saw so many young people die when I was strung out years ago. I'm lucky I lived to tell the tale. I'm going to take it easy for the day. My pets are all fed and watered so they're good. My home is warm, clean and comfortable so I'm very lucky really. I used to be a junkie and managed to quit. 11 years is a long time. This recent experience has scared the shit out of me. Any illusions I had about using H recreationally  are well and truly gone. I'm just going to spend the day licking my wounds and will try to eat something. Its raining outside, my white cat (Jill) is here sitting on the desk. My black cat (Jack) is asleep in the livingroom, and my dog is asleep in the bedroom. The news channel is on the TV, background noise. It could be a lot worse. The last few days have been hell on earth but what did I expect ? I well and truly deserve the "dumb fucker of the year" award.
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Thedonkilluminati on September 30, 2012, 12:23 pm
Stick with weed and take care, hope you get better.  :D
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Post by: TheBusiness on September 30, 2012, 12:59 pm
Good luck and thanks for sharing your story and experiences Sleepingdog.
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Sleepingdog on September 30, 2012, 03:20 pm
Many thanks to all of you for your comments and wishes. I mean that sincerely. I'm still sick but on the mend. Opiate withdrawal is indescribably horrible. I slept for a bit which was good, my loyal dog curled up beside me. Its stopped raining so shes out in the front garden right now and Jack the cat is being all lovey. I rescued him when he was a kitten and almost dead. My pets are an inspiration to me all the time. I'm stickin' with the weed from here on in. Jesus, that smack nearly killed me. Wow. The sun is shining through out there and I'm strong enough to take the hit for this. If that stuff got me in its clutches again I'd be gone. I feel so sad for those whose souls are being destroyed by this stuff. I'm no prude and as crazy as a shithouse rat sometimes, but I wouldn't wish H on my worst enemy. It dehumanised me for many years when I was strung out. I was not human any more. All I cared about was the next fix and not getting sick. I hurt so many people. Today, my pets all love me, my partner does too. Thats some change. I like who I am today and H will not steal it away from me. Maybe thats what went wrong in the first place. I'm going to have some food and just be gentle for today. My dog has just had her dinner and treats so everyones happy around here. I wish you all the very best and I am grateful to you all.
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: johnmtl on September 30, 2012, 04:13 pm
Stay off that H.. You can do it!!

Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Sleepingdog on September 30, 2012, 04:24 pm
I sure can do it. I'm living in bandit country. I'm a commander in the local stuff. Jill Meagher from down the road here was brutally raped and murdered in Australia recently. I will have many Australians killed over this. Australians are scum.

SD our units are active there and we are the most effective terrorist army in the world. Kill Jill Meagher, kill yourselves. Our units have instructions to kill indiscrimately. Fuck you.

SD
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Wadozo on September 30, 2012, 06:40 pm
Where are all your soldiers cunt? I'm still waiting in the macas car park for you to come and get me!! >:( >:(
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Limetless on September 30, 2012, 07:05 pm
I sure can do it. I'm living in bandit country. I'm a commander in the local stuff. Jill Meagher from down the road here was brutally raped and murdered in Australia recently. I will have many Australians killed over this. Australians are scum.

SD our units are active there and we are the most effective terrorist army in the world. Kill Jill Meagher, kill yourselves. Our units have instructions to kill indiscrimately. Fuck you.

SD

Course you are sweetheart. Funny, the IRA had a pretty strict policy on recruiting junkies. You talk fucking shit.
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Thedonkilluminati on September 30, 2012, 07:45 pm
I sure can do it. I'm living in bandit country. I'm a commander in the local stuff. Jill Meagher from down the road here was brutally raped and murdered in Australia recently. I will have many Australians killed over this. Australians are scum.

SD our units are active there and we are the most effective terrorist army in the world. Kill Jill Meagher, kill yourselves. Our units have instructions to kill indiscrimately. Fuck you.

SD
Course you are sweetheart. Funny, the IRA had a pretty strict policy on recruiting junkies. You talk fucking shit.
Bad ass! haha
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: apples on September 30, 2012, 09:09 pm
I sure can do it. I'm living in bandit country. I'm a commander in the local stuff. Jill Meagher from down the road here was brutally raped and murdered in Australia recently. I will have many Australians killed over this. Australians are scum.

SD our units are active there and we are the most effective terrorist army in the world. Kill Jill Meagher, kill yourselves. Our units have instructions to kill indiscrimately. Fuck you.

SD

lolwut
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Wadozo on September 30, 2012, 09:43 pm
Wish this Irish cunt would hurry up and get here! I've been waiting in the maca's car park, hiding behind a green Sigma station wagon, with mag wheels, eaten a 6 pack of nuggets with sweet and sour sauce and a chocolate shake to keep the energy levels up, for 3 hours now and I want to get home in time to watch Home and Away. >:(   
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: apples on September 30, 2012, 09:49 pm
Wish this Irish cunt would hurry up and get here! I've been waiting in the maca's car park, hiding behind a green Sigma station wagon, with mag wheels, eaten a 6 pack of nuggets with sweet and sour sauce and a chocolate shake to keep the energy levels up, for 3 hours now and I want to get home in time to watch Home and Away. >:(
habib let's pack all of me cousins in my tradie holden ute bruh and smash some cunts.
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Thedonkilluminati on September 30, 2012, 10:18 pm
Wish this Irish cunt would hurry up and get here! I've been waiting in the maca's car park, hiding behind a green Sigma station wagon, with mag wheels, eaten a 6 pack of nuggets with sweet and sour sauce and a chocolate shake to keep the energy levels up, for 3 hours now and I want to get home in time to watch Home and Away. >:(
jizzz, want some of those nuggest with sweet sour sauce right now....
Title: Re: Poetic Justice - Self Inflicted.
Post by: Wadozo on October 01, 2012, 12:20 am
Fuck it. I've waited for this 2 leaf clover Irish oxygen thief long enough. It's probably taken the prick 1.5 hrs to watch 60 minutes, that why he's running late. I'm ready to go anywhere, anytime (just not when I'm sleeping at night cause I need my 8 hrs minimum). :P