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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: tedrux on June 14, 2013, 04:49 am
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trying to keep it as simple as possible. I am requesting for you to buy me cyanide from emerald on the silk road , forward it to ace who will ship it to me (right, buddy?) this is simply to avoid spreading my information any wider then need be. my intention is to commit suicide as soon as possible in a short order.
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Also I have no problem webcasting the event if you'd like to purchase tickets. as soon as the cyanide and webcam are in hand (i dont own a webcam) then I will be glad to let you watch. it will make no difference to me.
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err first post ok. one can maybe talk to you, try to find out whats happening.
second post. What. The. Fuck
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I'm not here to judge. I am here to accomplish a goal of getting cyanide to commit suicide. If I can entice an audience by webcasting it , okay. If I do not need to by getting some one to buy it for me, okay. either way my goal is accomplished. will you purchase one gram of cyanide for me from emeralds shop on the silk road and send it to fuckingACE to relay to me?
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I would rather buy you a gram of LSD crystal so you can be on it forever, and really think about life deep. I think life is too precious to just throw away man, so I couldn't bring myself to knowingly kill someone. Even though it would cost me so much more. Cause your life is probably worth more that that, and with that amount of acid you're bound to come through with something path breaking. Da Vinci, Newton used Acid. Einstein was declared mentally retarded then he had a run in with Acid and used it for life. If you've never tried it I'd rather get you some of that. I think you'll appreciate life a lot more.
Unless if it was some serious chronic pain, you're dead everyday anyway kind of medical condition. Don't get me wrong, I'm not against euthanasia, I am against suicide and wasting life.
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why would you sell tickets to it? what good is money going to do you when you are dead
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I am requesting for you to buy me cyanide from emerald on the silk road , forward it to ace who will ship it to me (right, buddy?) this is simply to avoid spreading my information any wider then need be.
You understand that only spreads your information wider, right? Anyway, please don't commit suicide.
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note i said untill the cost of cyanide and a webcam was covered. That is why I would sell tickets.
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because I don't have the money.
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huh, what?
I believe in right of choice, but please consult me before saying I´ll agree to shit.
We offer a forwarding service no questions asked, its a client privileged to be forwarded whatever they want without being interrogated about the contents. Its what makes a free market in part.
but seeing as your use for the cyanide has been publicly declared, I´ll have to give the ethics on it a think. many things enter into it including your state of mind amongst other things. SO no I don´t agree to it until a. ive thought about it and b. you´ve spoken to someone about your issues.
ACE
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Also this is the second or third time you´ve publicly asked for donations in taking your own life, the first time people were offended and didn´t help, the second time poeple were sympathetic and didn´t help, putting that choice on someone isnt nice for them, and kinda inconsiderate for you. They wont help this time. I find it hard to believe that you havn´t been able to raise the listing amount yourself in over 3 months. I think you just want someone to talk to and this is your way of engaging people.
I suggest you find a less provocative method of doing so.
ACE
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it shouldnt be hard for you to beleive that I cant earn money and have no source of income. because I cant and dont. im extremelly frustrated- no one either beleives I want to die or understands what it means for every single breath to be against your will. I don't have any issues. I am of sound mind. I simply have too much intelligence, have thought about life and looked at people , looked at human existance and found it ugly. many have come before me and many will follow. but THIS SHIT shouldn't even be being discussed. keep it simple. i want cyanide. some one buy it for me. i dont want the bc. im not trying to rip some one off. i want cyanide , simple and strait. you dont have to know what I'll do with it . you don't have to chime in your two cents on if you think im a troll or need help. keep your oppinions to yourself (although, ace, I do respect yours) Its simply 'yes' you'll help or nothing, just say yes or stay silent. im not looking to converse about it.
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So you are really asking people to donate you cyanide to kill yourself?
Do you understand you are asking someone you don't know to commit a murder? (yes, that's it, if the person doesn't know you s/he is just committing a murder by sending you cyanide knowing you will kill yourself with it, or even worse not being sure that YOU will use it on yourself the murder can be on someone else).
I'm all for self-liberty and self-responsibility on doing whatever people want with their life (either if I am philosophically against suicide, especially if the suicide is when things are going "wrong"), but just because of the "responsibility" part you cannot ask someone else to do the thing for you. I understand you don't have money but at this point you have nothing to lose right? If you really want cyanide I'm sure you can find a way to find the money somewhere.
Elsewhere just take a knife and slit your throat (or the femoral artery, nobody can save you after), ffs, or go to the roof of an high palace and jump from it. You don't need cyanide at all to kill yourself. It's very easy when you REALLY want to (either another tip: datura is very easy to find, eat more than 5 grams of seeds of that and you will die; if you have fear of pain in this way you will feel nothing, you will simply pass out and you will not wake up anymore, or you can do the same with hemlock or foxglove, all very easy to find - in nature - plants and very poisonous).
So either take responsibility of what you are doing or if you are not sure about it explain your situation and work with someone to come outside of it. I think you are stuck in the middle right now, because, my friend, if you would really like to die, you would already have died now, it's futile you say it's not so (I know that perfectly).
This or you want to let pass suicide for murder and even pretend someone to pay the way for you (your parents perhaps? are you so pathetic?); if that's the case you have very poor dignity, child, work on that instead on killing someone else.
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^basically what he/she said but not as harsh. I think the message is there, it just came off a little offensive(?) maybe.
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I didn't want to be offensive, but seriously, how can one be SURE that this guy, just as a single example, isn't a child that wants to kill his parents and to do so he came up with the excuse that life sucks etc. to promote empathy and make people buy him some cyanide on the pretense of suicide, when the only thing he wants is to get his mom and papy money? (Why? Because the fact that there will be no proof anywhere that he did buy the poison will mean that he can come out of trouble; he would just need an alibi on top and he would be fine. It would not be the first time a thing as this happen; some years ago a woman killed her husband with a similar method and they could never find it was her, for example.)
I find highly suspicious that if the guy was really so intent on suicide he couldn't find a way already in 3 months, and above all I'm suspicious about the fact that he wants explicitly cyanide (and on top of that he wants somebody else to buy it for him, because supposedly he cannot acquire any money even if he has nothing at all to lose at this point) when there are many less "exotic" methods completely free and easier to do the same (it's only that they are much more difficult to use - for one reason or another - to kill someone else, what a coincidence...)
This makes me think that there's something fishy about the issue. I really hope that it is just that the guy is passing a really bad moment and he doesn't really want to commit suicide but this is his personal way to attract attention and to talk about his depression. This is actually a good thing (the fact that he talks about this, even with this methodology), but given the topic and the modus operandi put forth you can never be too scrupulous and attentive about every possible implication on the issue.
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@tedrux please step back from that ledge my friend. we aren't here to help hurt people. infact we inspire to do the exact opposite.
we are here trying to help others :). I wouldn't ever tell you, you can't kill yourself.. but I can plead, for you to make a different choice.. (go do something dangerous instead :P)
I assume whatever I am saying wont make much difference in how you feel, but if I said nothing, I'd feel like a dick to ignore a fellow brother with what appears to be a cry for help..
we all have challenges in life, its what we do with the challenges that define us as people. I hope you can find the power to rise above what ever is holding you down. an take the knowledge an experience form the situation to better yourself.
I wish you all the luck in sorting out any troubles in you may have in life.
be strong friend.
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why would you sell tickets to it? what good is money going to do you when you are dead
Saved me typing it.
Why use cyanide? Why not just take a load of benzos and vodka? Suicides also final. If you're depressed you can get help. You sound like a classic borderline personality disorder case. Look it up. here i'll do it for you (LINK BELOW) It's a chemical imbalance in your brain that's making you suicidal and giving you those thoughts, it's not your fault. You should speak to a doctor and get help. Nothing to lose by at least doing that.
***{CLEARNET LINK}***http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder***{CLEARNETLINK}***
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"chemical imbalance" ??? you're joking right?
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How would you rather I phrase it?
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Dont send this faggot cyanide.
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You should seriously consider what other people have posted here already about ingesting lsd or any psychedelic for that matter. I used to have this same exact thought, I looked every where for cyanide asking every drug dealer and gang banger I knew. Ended up dropping a shit ton of liquid lsd one day trying to over dose on it and well on that day realized there's no point in killing your self.
Do your self a favor before you go and dive deep head first into the realm of psychedelics. Im 100% sure you'll have some new out looks on life if you take enough.
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if you have a better idea then cyanide I'm all ears . I chose explicitly cyanide for the fact that I cant panic and undo it. a fearful mind is not a mind that thinks rationally. of course i'll be terrified and thus not able to think clearly. i can think perfectly clear right now though and have decided it is the most rational thing to do. so again
if you have a better idea please provide.
also; i don't know what planet you all come from where money grows on trees but for me its just not something i am able to get.
I didn't want to be offensive, but seriously, how can one be SURE that this guy, just as a single example, isn't a child that wants to kill his parents and to do so he came up with the excuse that life sucks etc. to promote empathy and make people buy him some cyanide on the pretense of suicide, when the only thing he wants is to get his mom and papy money? (Why? Because the fact that there will be no proof anywhere that he did buy the poison will mean that he can come out of trouble; he would just need an alibi on top and he would be fine. It would not be the first time a thing as this happen; some years ago a woman killed her husband with a similar method and they could never find it was her, for example.)
I find highly suspicious that if the guy was really so intent on suicide he couldn't find a way already in 3 months, and above all I'm suspicious about the fact that he wants explicitly cyanide (and on top of that he wants somebody else to buy it for him, because supposedly he cannot acquire any money even if he has nothing at all to lose at this point) when there are many less "exotic" methods completely free and easier to do the same (it's only that they are much more difficult to use - for one reason or another - to kill someone else, what a coincidence...)
This makes me think that there's something fishy about the issue. I really hope that it is just that the guy is passing a really bad moment and he doesn't really want to commit suicide but this is his personal way to attract attention and to talk about his depression. This is actually a good thing (the fact that he talks about this, even with this methodology), but given the topic and the modus operandi put forth you can never be too scrupulous and attentive about every possible implication on the issue.
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You should seriously consider what other people have posted here already about ingesting lsd or any psychedelic for that matter. I used to have this same exact thought, I looked every where for cyanide asking every drug dealer and gang banger I knew. Ended up dropping a shit ton of liquid lsd one day trying to over dose on it and well on that day realized there's no point in killing your self.
Do your self a favor before you go and dive deep head first into the realm of psychedelics. Im 100% sure you'll have some new out looks on life if you take enough.
;D I 2nd this, take a handful of psychedelics an then decid you don't wanna live any more :P I'd recommend DMT..
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if you have a better idea then cyanide I'm all ears . I chose explicitly cyanide for the fact that I cant panic and undo it. a fearful mind is not a mind that thinks rationally. of course i'll be terrified and thus not able to think clearly. i can think perfectly clear right now though and have decided it is the most rational thing to do. so again
if you have a better idea please provide.
also; i don't know what planet you all come from where money grows on trees but for me its just not something i am able to get.
A cheaper way that doesn't involve drugs mainly used to kill other people, would just be to borrow/steal anyone's car and go park in an enclosed space and let the carbon monoxide put you to sleep.
But in all seriousness, I agree that a heavy dose of psychedelics might help you break through your current annoyance of the world.
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also; i don't know what planet you all come from where money grows on trees but for me its just not something i am able to get.
It's not like the cyanide costs $20,000, it's $200! You surely have enough things you can sell (your computer for example) to raise $200... You could sell your heart to poppermachine too :P
But I agree with others, just buy 100mg of MDMA or a bit of LSD and see what comes out of it, you have nothing to lose.
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i dont have enough stuff to sell for 200 dollars.
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i dont have enough stuff to sell for 200 dollars.
Yet you can afford an internet connection? You would need to work as a cashier for like one weeks to have $200, seriously!
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you only conclude i can afford an internet connection because you presume im a liar. however i do not pay for internet. the one who does will not give me money for any reason. and ive not been able to get a job and i've been trying
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if you have a better idea then cyanide I'm all ears . I chose explicitly cyanide for the fact that I cant panic and undo it. a fearful mind is not a mind that thinks rationally. of course i'll be terrified and thus not able to think clearly. i can think perfectly clear right now though and have decided it is the most rational thing to do. so again
if you have a better idea please provide.
also; i don't know what planet you all come from where money grows on trees but for me its just not something i am able to get.
according to my research....
cars don't work that way anymore. plus id get caught. plus im not a thief.
im on probation btw so i cant really consume drugs unless they kill.
A cheaper way that doesn't involve drugs mainly used to kill other people, would just be to borrow/steal anyone's car and go park in an enclosed space and let the carbon monoxide put you to sleep.
But in all seriousness, I agree that a heavy dose of psychedelics might help you break through your current annoyance of the world.
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what is a benzo, how many do I take with how much spirits and whats it cost? what symptoms will preceed death?
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Do you mind if I ask why this?short version preferable
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why is because I don't want to be alive. thats the short and long of it.
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My friend, I have heard a lot of people cry wolf in my life, and 99% of the time, it is a cry for help... as i am sure this is! I am thinking that you must live with your parents (them being the ones who pay for the internet), and they will not give you money, therefore, you must be pretty young.
You my friend NEED to smoke some DMT before you do anything, or drink some Ayuhuasca, that is what i would prefer, because when i did, it changed my life forever! Life is soooo beautiful, and unfortunately i needed a substance to help me figure it out, and i honestly believe it will help you too my friend....that is if this all isnt some stupid troll shit!!! Cuz that would be fucked up bro!!!
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What blows my mind is how you claim on the first page to be intelligent when you have got to be the stupidest fucking person on this website. If you're so fucking smart you will find a way to raise some money or a cheap way of killing yourself, you're just an idiot.
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when i said shor version i ment are u in pain,disabled ect ect.The reason I want to die is.....
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What blows my mind is how you claim on the first page to be intelligent when you have got to be the stupidest fucking person on this website. If you're so fucking smart you will find a way to raise some money or a cheap way of killing yourself, you're just an idiot.
Haha are you suggesting this guy is too stupid to figure out a way to kill himself outside of SR?
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i dont know why.
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You don't know why you want to die??
I'm going to sleep now but I suggest If you don't know why you want to die,don't kill yourself.You will die soon enough,that's guaranteed so do something,preferably something you like as long as your not hurting anyone and before you know it your life will be over.Goodnight :)
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rob a bank :P, who knows, you might get away with it ;D.
and if not why would you care?
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because life is better not lived incarcerated? because i appreciate my cushy couche and internet connection. because being dead isn't a bad thing but being in prison is.
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Has no assets, no job, yet still has internet/computer access. Clearly, he's underage/living with his parents. Don't help this kid kill himself.
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im in my twenties living with relatives because my parents aren't an option
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My condolences, and I stand corrected. Please help this poor guy kill himself.
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What blows my mind is how you claim on the first page to be intelligent when you have got to be the stupidest fucking person on this website. If you're so fucking smart you will find a way to raise some money or a cheap way of killing yourself, you're just an idiot.
yea man this is getting kinda ridiculous.... and the guy did message me asking if i would send him ayahuasca tea!!! I think this guy is out to get some free shit, and i sure the hell cant support someone else's habit, and if you can, let me know. lol
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yea man this is getting kinda ridiculous.... and the guy did message me asking if i would send him ayahuasca tea!!! I think this guy is out to get some free shit, and i sure the hell cant support someone else's habit, and if you can, let me know. lol
Let's pretend that they guy is not here to receive free things but he really wants to change his life for the better because he is passing a bad moment (everybody intelligent in his/her life passes through these stages, I think many can easily relate to this). We cannot be sure one way or another (on his favor it is the point that if he wanted free drugs he would not have asked for cyanide to begin with) so we have nothing to lose really on helping him if that's the case.
So I'm perfectly willing to pass the hat to acquire the money to buy him Ayahuasca to try to give him a better prospective about his life and become interested in it once more. I have nothing to lose on doing this (money comes and goes, what sharing a little amount will change?) and if I can help a person in trouble I'm all for it.
This is much better than sending him cyanide or any other substance to kill himself (or even worse another). If he approach Ayahuasca in the correct way I'm sure he will change prospective about the sadness of life in general and on him having no place in it. It will turn his approach from the one of a slave to the one of a participant.
So please, if somebody wants to help the guy out let's collect enough money to send him Ayahuasca; I will then give him personally explanations on how to use it in the best way to really change his perspective on life and stop with this nonsense about suicide (that doesn't change anything anyway, even if he can think so).
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That's a good idea BlackIris, +1! It's nice to see something positive like that. I don't know if I'd be able to spare anything or if tedrux even wants that but I hope so.
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Suicide is the ultimate selfish act. But if killing yourself keeps others out of harms way, go for it. Never hurts to cleanse the gene pool.
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Suicide is the ultimate selfish act. But if killing yourself keeps others out of harms way, go for it. Never hurts to cleanse the gene pool.
On the other hand you could argue that if a person is suffering so much that they do not wish to live and they choose to end it. Rather it is you who is the selfish one for preferring that person live a sad miserable pain filled existence just so you don't have to grieve and experience the pain of losing them.
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Suicide is the ultimate selfish act. But if killing yourself keeps others out of harms way, go for it. Never hurts to cleanse the gene pool.
On the other hand you could argue that if a person is suffering so much that they do not wish to live and they choose to end it. Rather it is you who is the selfish one for preferring that person live a sad miserable pain filled existence just so you don't have to grieve and experience the pain of losing them.
That's another way to put it but more often than not, psychological pain get cured. It can take years but killing yourself will only make your closed ones in the same pain you used to be in, that's why depression isn't a good reason to kill oneself. There are acceptable reasons though, such as terminal illness, painful debilitating incurable diseases, etc. In such cases, closed ones will still experience grief, but most will support the idea of killing yourself.
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Suicide is the ultimate selfish act. But if killing yourself keeps others out of harms way, go for it. Never hurts to cleanse the gene pool.
On the other hand you could argue that if a person is suffering so much that they do not wish to live and they choose to end it. Rather it is you who is the selfish one for preferring that person live a sad miserable pain filled existence just so you don't have to grieve and experience the pain of losing them.
That's another way to put it but more often than not, psychological pain get cured. It can take years but killing yourself will only make your closed ones in the same pain you used to be in, that's why depression isn't a good reason to kill oneself. There are acceptable reasons though, such as terminal illness, painful debilitating incurable diseases, etc. In such cases, closed ones will still experience grief, but most will support the idea of killing yourself.
Yeah, I agree. I'm just playing devils advocate.
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Sorry, but gotta call bullshit on this.
Like mentioned numerous times above, if you really wanted to kill yourself, you dont need the assistance of SR and cyanide to help you achieve your goal. Hang yourself. Slit your wrists. Take numerous amounts of sleeping pills and alcohol. Jump off a roof. Jump in front of a truck. The possibilities are endless.
Within the 3 months you have posted, you could have easily earned the money to buy it yourself. Unless you are either chained to a post or a parapalegic. You could earn 200 just panhandling. Dont have anything to sell or anyway to make money? Bullshit.
Then you say you would broadcast it live? And sell tickets? GTFO. Sounds like your a narcassist thats getting their kicks off by telling random people on the internet that youre going to kill yourself. If you really wanted to, you wouldnt be on here threatening it over and over again. My guess is you're sitting there smiling after every comment thats posted that falls into your self-centered online sympathy game you're playing.
If you want to kill yourself, then fucking do it. Its not that hard, and honestly, I could care less. People kill themselves every day for situations that are much worse than the excuses you are giving. If you are that weak of a person thats all boo-hoo, poor me, my life sucks and I cant take it anymore, then you would probably be doing the human race a favor.
Either stop being a pussy and do it, or buck the fuck up, be a man and realize that life sucks and its hard and difficult, realize you have a set of balls hanging between your legs, and handle your shit. No one is responsible or can fix any of your actions, decisions, problems, issues, etc.
Shit or get off the pot.
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I don't know if it's really bullshit, suicidal persons are very depressed so obviously they're not motivated enough to get a job and raising $200 seems like something way harder than it really is for them. When you're that hopeless you usually won't put that much effort into killing yourself, you won't put much effort into anything. I'm pretty sure that he's just depressed and maybe not as suicidal as he says he is but it's probably just a call for help.
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Sorry, but gotta call bullshit on this.
Like mentioned numerous times above, if you really wanted to kill yourself, you dont need the assistance of SR and cyanide to help you achieve your goal. Hang yourself. Slit your wrists. Take numerous amounts of sleeping pills and alcohol. Jump off a roof. Jump in front of a truck. The possibilities are endless.
Within the 3 months you have posted, you could have easily earned the money to buy it yourself. Unless you are either chained to a post or a parapalegic. You could earn 200 just panhandling. Dont have anything to sell or anyway to make money? Bullshit.
Then you say you would broadcast it live? And sell tickets? GTFO. Sounds like your a narcassist thats getting their kicks off by telling random people on the internet that youre going to kill yourself. If you really wanted to, you wouldnt be on here threatening it over and over again. My guess is you're sitting there smiling after every comment thats posted that falls into your self-centered online sympathy game you're playing.
If you want to kill yourself, then fucking do it. Its not that hard, and honestly, I could care less. People kill themselves every day for situations that are much worse than the excuses you are giving. If you are that weak of a person thats all boo-hoo, poor me, my life sucks and I cant take it anymore, then you would probably be doing the human race a favor.
Either stop being a pussy and do it, or buck the fuck up, be a man and realize that life sucks and its hard and difficult, realize you have a set of balls hanging between your legs, and handle your shit. No one is responsible or can fix any of your actions, decisions, problems, issues, etc.
Shit or get off the pot.
AGREED!
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note i said untill the cost of cyanide and a webcam was covered. That is why I would sell tickets.
I see. So this is actually a scam, and probably a private joke at the same time, that employs a heavy dose of pathos to distract the audience from the truth of the matter - you want to steal their money.
I had originally read the first post thinking you might be sincere, but after the second post (excuse my language but, fucking ridiculous), it became pretty obvious what you're doing. And it's sickening, quite frankly. Not to mention any attention you've probably drawn from the LEOs/reporters that lurk around here. I cannot wait to read the next story about how, "The disgusting, lawless SilkRoad community supports suicide and televises it for their own contemptible amusement."
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note i said untill the cost of cyanide and a webcam was covered. That is why I would sell tickets.
I see. So this is actually a scam, and probably a private joke at the same time, that employs a heavy dose of pathos to distract the audience from the truth of the matter - you want to steal their money.
I had originally read the first post thinking you might be sincere, but after the second post (excuse my language but, fucking ridiculous), it became pretty obvious what you're doing. And it's sickening, quite frankly. Not to mention any attention you've probably drawn from the LEOs/reporters that lurk around here. I cannot wait to read the next story about how, "The disgusting, lawless SilkRoad community supports suicide and televises it for their own contemptible amusement."
There are way better ways of scamming than making people pay to watch him die, who would want do pay for such a thing anyway?? Also, nobody would pay for his poison, unless they enjoy killing others and I really don't think many people here are like that. It's far more effective to put your wallet address and say you need to pay for forums maintenance or else they'll get shut down by the DEA or some bullshit story like that... He would've chosen another approach after 3 months of failure if it was a scam. It's just for attention or trolling that he started those threads.
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He's a young dude that is crying for help.. Family may have washed their hands with him.
I think self medicating with different drugs may help.. DMT and MDMA would probably be a good start.
being alone sucks..
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tredruxxxx sorry the job hunt isn't going well :(
I've said it to you before in PM but since you are going public on this I hope you don't mind if i say it here, too... you are funny. you hold nothing back and you're honest and some of what you say is pretty fucked up but that's the kind of shit i like to read about :) start a thread with some of your stories and ask for donations to your sr buyer account. i bet you could make some money that way...
have you ever done mdma?
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how much for the ticket?
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Start a fucking heroin habit, you retard. Don't fucking kill yourself, shit.... what the fuck, people...
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He's a young dude that is crying for help.. Family may have washed their hands with him.
I think self medicating with different drugs may help.. DMT and MDMA would probably be a good start.
being alone sucks..
As I said previously, I wanted to help the guy acquire Ayahuasca (by a "passing the hat" type of thing) for him to "find life" (as the shamans call it) if he was interested but he said anything about it so I guess he is not.
I think this would be the better solution for him to get out of the troubles he is in and understand that all his pain comes, in reality, from within his own mind (it's the thought that cause pain, nothing more).
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note i said untill the cost of cyanide and a webcam was covered. That is why I would sell tickets.
I see. So this is actually a scam, and probably a private joke at the same time, that employs a heavy dose of pathos to distract the audience from the truth of the matter - you want to steal their money.
I had originally read the first post thinking you might be sincere, but after the second post (excuse my language but, fucking ridiculous), it became pretty obvious what you're doing. And it's sickening, quite frankly. Not to mention any attention you've probably drawn from the LEOs/reporters that lurk around here. I cannot wait to read the next story about how, "The disgusting, lawless SilkRoad community supports suicide and televises it for their own contemptible amusement."
scam? no. read further. I clarify: i just needed the cyanide and webcam ,out side of cost the show is free. doesn't seem any ones interested though.
as far as being narssicistic lets assume im not and im the extreme opposite and then gradually deduce our way there. but really no, your right ; i have done this a lot for a long time and don't quite feel like i comprehend it. but i never smile like paris hilton reading the tabloids saying 'omjeezy they rally dew carrr :'( " it isn't something i particularly like discussing. it opens up attacks like this that are pretty upsetting. bet just burying them doesn't solve shit. im...at a loss? yes. ? many are. and idk whats next.
I would like to try ayawasca tea. ive heard about ego deaths, and it could be good for me.
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note i said untill the cost of cyanide and a webcam was covered. That is why I would sell tickets.
I see. So this is actually a scam, and probably a private joke at the same time, that employs a heavy dose of pathos to distract the audience from the truth of the matter - you want to steal their money.
I had originally read the first post thinking you might be sincere, but after the second post (excuse my language but, fucking ridiculous), it became pretty obvious what you're doing. And it's sickening, quite frankly. Not to mention any attention you've probably drawn from the LEOs/reporters that lurk around here. I cannot wait to read the next story about how, "The disgusting, lawless SilkRoad community supports suicide and televises it for their own contemptible amusement."
scam? no. read further. I clarify: i just needed the cyanide and webcam ,out side of cost the show is free. doesn't seem any ones interested though.
as far as being narssicistic lets assume im not and im the extreme opposite and then gradually deduce our way there. but really no, your right ; i have done this a lot for a long time and don't quite feel like i comprehend it. but i never smile like paris hilton reading the tabloids saying 'omjeezy they rally dew carrr :'( " it isn't something i particularly like discussing. it opens up attacks like this that are pretty upsetting. bet just burying them doesn't solve shit. im...at a loss? yes. ? many are. and idk whats next.
I would like to try ayawasca tea. ive heard about ego deaths, and it could be good for me.
LSD can also cause ego death ;)
also hey ted, how you brotha?
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thank you TB. your being sweet. sweet and genuine are a hard comboniation to affirm. I'd rather try to disbeleive so i dont get hurt later. but what the fuck is genuine anyways? #onlyconstantischange .
I'll try your idea
and to dude who asked how much tix are; they cost as much as a lethal dose of barbituates and alchohol and a webcam. you and who ever else is interested go ahead and figure out how to split the price and I don't want the BC just the tools i need directly.
liil. if I had gotton a stronger response I probably would have done it for profit just to cover funeral expenses. but fuck it. idk how butit'll get sorted out. broke people die too.
tredruxxxx sorry the job hunt isn't going well :(
I've said it to you before in PM but since you are going public on this I hope you don't mind if i say it here, too... you are funny. you hold nothing back and you're honest and some of what you say is pretty fucked up but that's the kind of shit i like to read about :) start a thread with some of your stories and ask for donations to your sr buyer account. i bet you could make some money that way...
have you ever done mdma?