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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: confession on September 27, 2012, 02:58 pm
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I really needed to get this off my chest. :X I made this account for the sole purpose of this.
So here it's, I'm 16 and I'm GAY! Babam! Nice opening line, eh? Well as one might've guessed I haven't "came out of the closet" yet. I don't think it's the right time, but w/e that's not the point of my story. My story is about the fact that I can't understand why being gay is such a tabu in modern society?? I mean honestly, I have many guy/girl friends and it's so funny when people say how something is GAY or someone's a FAG and the jokes they make(unknowingly):"You know, I really hate fags!" or "I can't think of a worse thing than being gay." I'll always laugh with them(more likely at them), because they don't know that they're ultimately insulting me. What really gets on my nerves though, is that because it's the 21st century and everyone's so "OPEN" with their sex life and people make jokes, act a certain way, but nowadays one can never tell if someone is gay or not(well there are those stereotype gays, but not talking about them). I mean even by looking at me, I think it's the society that has made me build a wall around myself and I've put an iron mask on my head. Looking from outside, I'm just a typical 16 y/o.I mean, I wouldn't tell anyone just because of the fact that it's an humiliation to even say it out loud. Maybe it's because of my age that I think this way, but as I've understood, 90% of the people my age or 10 years older than me who are gay are also hiding themselves behind this wall and I think it's just sick and tiresome, because due to this I can't be myself with anyone nor can I say what I really feel to anyone. It's funny how I have plenty of friends, but no one knows the real me. The conundrum with this is the fact that I get these crushes(like any person), but I get them on my male gender friends and what this creates for me is tension and every time they say something like:"Blow me!" in an insulting tone, I always want to actually do it. It's so hard to sometimes hold myself back, because taking a leap of faith can end very sadly and I don't think I could ever commit suicide, but it could possibly destroy my personality. That is for the fact that, because I said there is a lack of gay(who admit it)people, what I fear the most is that, I wouldn't be treated the same or "Oh gay, what do you think of my dress?" or w/e <.< I don't really know what the point of this story was, but I really am feeling better with this out of my system :)
Well thanks for reading. If you have any wisdom to share, then share away:) I'll be reading all the comments.
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this a drug forum not a i'm a queer coming out of the closet forum and you bring all of the shit on yourself society will never accept 2 same sex partners so go straight and no problem and don't say you were born gay thats a load of shit no1 is born a fag
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this a drug forum not a i'm a queer coming out of the closet forum and you bring all of the shit on yourself society will never accept 2 same sex partners so go straight and no problem and don't say you were born gay thats a load of shit no1 is born a fag
Did you even bother to read my post, also if you think that being gay is an "illness" and one doesn't born with it, then please....
The reason why I posted this here, is that I can't post it anywhere else, this is anonymous and I thought I could share it here. :)
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as long as you don't use your name on any site you will be anonymous and fuck you anyways 16 y.o you shouldn't even be on here go eat a dick oh i forgot you like that
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this a drug forum not a i'm a queer coming out of the closet forum and you bring all of the shit on yourself society will never accept 2 same sex partners so go straight and no problem and don't say you were born gay thats a load of shit no1 is born a fag
You are a dick-head.
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You are a dick-head.
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why cause i'm a christian and against homosexuality and for the record you are not born gay you turn yourself gay but i'm done answering this queer
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You are a dick-head.
why cause i'm a christian and against homosexuality and for the record you are not born gay you turn yourself gay but i'm done answering this queer
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Fuckoffeh, you are an absolute idiot for believing in "god". Don't you know thats only for weak minded individuals that need to feel secure, need something "bigger" than themselves to feel good about. Like life doesn't just end when you die.
Or wait!? Is that my opinion? Doesn't make it right.....doesn't make it wrong either. Doesn't religion preach tolerance and not hate? It's ok to have an opinion, but when you start judging people for theirs, thats when you have no room to call yourself a Christian. Did you forget the Golden Rule motherfucker? I used to think this place was full of intelligent people, but I see you missed that boat........
+1 for OP for having more balls than fuckoffbuddyeh!
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confession, head to Reddit, I think they have a tor site if you're concerned about identity. While I believe this to be a big moment for you and wish you the absolute best, this certainly isn't the place.
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why cause i'm a christian and against homosexuality and for the record you are not born gay you turn yourself gay but i'm done answering this queer
Fuck this guy, his hatred and ignorance is his own problem. Personally I'm straight as an arrow, but if I could give you any advice I would say hold on until you graduate high school before you make any life changing decisions and if you are that certain that you are gay then when you're 18 move to Minneapolis. You'll never regret it.
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Double fuck this guy because he wouldn't have the balls to stand up in front of his church and address a group of Christians using words like "queer". My guess is your church would ask you to step off the podium for speaking disrespectfully to people you disagree with.
@Confession: There are plenty of support forums for gay teens, just signup no need to use tor no one will every know it's you and you'll be surrounded by people in the same boat as you.
why cause i'm a christian and against homosexuality and for the record you are not born gay you turn yourself gay but i'm done answering this queer
Fuck this guy, his hatred and ignorance is his own problem. Personally I'm straight as an arrow, but if I could give you any advice I would say hold on until you graduate high school before you make any life changing decisions and if you are that certain that you are gay then when you're 18 move to Minneapolis. You'll never regret it.
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Is it just me that's confused about the fact the OP is coming out on an anonymous forum which is sorta a contradiction? Not anti-gay or anything just seems like it defeats the object? :-\
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I really needed to get this off my chest. :X I made this account for the sole purpose of this.
So here it's, I'm 16 and I'm GAY! Babam! Nice opening line, eh? Well as one might've guessed I haven't "came out of the closet" yet. I don't think it's the right time, but w/e that's not the point of my story. My story is about the fact that I can't understand why being gay is such a tabu in modern society?? I mean honestly, I have many guy/girl friends and it's so funny when people say how something is GAY or someone's a FAG and the jokes they make(unknowingly):"You know, I really hate fags!" or "I can't think of a worse thing than being gay." I'll always laugh with them(more likely at them), because they don't know that they're ultimately insulting me. What really gets on my nerves though, is that because it's the 21st century and everyone's so "OPEN" with their sex life and people make jokes, act a certain way, but nowadays one can never tell if someone is gay or not(well there are those stereotype gays, but not talking about them). I mean even by looking at me, I think it's the society that has made me build a wall around myself and I've put an iron mask on my head. Looking from outside, I'm just a typical 16 y/o.I mean, I wouldn't tell anyone just because of the fact that it's an humiliation to even say it out loud. Maybe it's because of my age that I think this way, but as I've understood, 90% of the people my age or 10 years older than me who are gay are also hiding themselves behind this wall and I think it's just sick and tiresome, because due to this I can't be myself with anyone nor can I say what I really feel to anyone. It's funny how I have plenty of friends, but no one knows the real me. The conundrum with this is the fact that I get these crushes(like any person), but I get them on my male gender friends and what this creates for me is tension and every time they say something like:"Blow me!" in an insulting tone, I always want to actually do it. It's so hard to sometimes hold myself back, because taking a leap of faith can end very sadly and I don't think I could ever commit suicide, but it could possibly destroy my personality. That is for the fact that, because I said there is a lack of gay(who admit it)people, what I fear the most is that, I wouldn't be treated the same or "Oh gay, what do you think of my dress?" or w/e <.< I don't really know what the point of this story was, but I really am feeling better with this out of my system :)
Well thanks for reading. If you have any wisdom to share, then share away:) I'll be reading all the comments.
As bad as you might think you have it currently, it could have been worse. You could have been born 50 (or 100) years ago, or worse yet, in the Middle Ages.
Perhaps you should revisit your history. In medieval times, gays were frequently burned at the stake -- where do you think the term 'faggot' came from? It came from the bundle of sticks that were piled next to the stakes to be used as fuel to roast the victims alive. If the judges were feeling particularly merciful, they would place little barrels of gunpowder attached around their victim's necks; the idea was for the gunpowder to explode, decapitating the victim, and sparing them a far more gruesome (not to mention painful) death by being burned alive. Even after death, they would not be given a conventional (Christian) burial -- rather, their remains would be buried at a cross-roads, where they would be walked upon or trampled upon by passing travelers.
Even in more recent times, homosexuality was a criminal offence. You might wish to read about Oscar Wilde -- he served time in prison, and if memory serves, it broke him -- he was never the same after he came out of prison. Homosexuality was actually in the Criminal Code of Canada until 1969 -- if convicted, you could actually be sentenced to life in prison. In the 1950s, Canadian civil servants were subjected to investigation by the RCMP, using what was referred to as the "fruit machine". (I'm not making this up -- Google it, if you don't believe me. The "fruit machine" was a machine that was supposed to root out homosexuals. Other characteristics of alleged homosexuals were such things as, "driving a white automobile.")
Needless to say, things have changed here, now. Gays and lesbians can legally marry in Canada -- if someone had told me 20 years ago that this would be the case, I would have laughed in their face, never believing it was possible. While full acceptance still isn't there, things are one helluva lot better than they used to be.
Guru
silly Guru....we all know that homophobes don't read....
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did i miss something? when did it become ok and accepted to be a fag and you don't have to go to church to believe anyways this is it bash me all you want for being anti-gay lets see how many -1s i can get
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did i miss something? when did it become ok and accepted to be a fag and you don't have to go to church to believe anyways this is it bash me all you want for being anti-gay lets see how many -1s i can get
Lol troll.
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This thread reminds me of when 4chan first got popular and people would go around posting things like this on random forums to troll people. I wouldn't be surprised if that's what OP was doing here considering the huge contradiction coming out on a anonymous forum and all.
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I agree 50/50 it could be a troll.
But hey, if there's a chance it's legit we can do the kid right.
That other fuck is definitely a troll, talking about being a Christian but doesn't go to church. You can disagree with me all day but I try to make my shit consistent. I'm an atheist, i don't go to church, and I'm allowed to define my own moral code. To me someone being gay is like someone doing drugs. Why the fuck would I possibly care if they are not hurting anyone?
This thread reminds me of when 4chan first got popular and people would go around posting things like this on random forums to troll people. I wouldn't be surprised if that's what OP was doing here considering the huge contradiction coming out on a anonymous forum and all.
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<insert drama llama meme here>
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to the homophobic asshole inundating this thread with his bullshit: you're a douche. i'm a Christian - i have multiple degrees in various areas of theological studies as well - and guess what else? i'm a lesbian. so don't try to speak on behalf of all Christians when you come here and spew your garbage. you don't speak for me.
and to everyone else in this thread - can i just say that i have never been so floored by the compassion of a community than i have here at SR? i would never have anticipated the kind of warmth there is in some of these threads. i'd never have expected that in a place where people can anonymously be / say anything they want. you guys are awesome.
OP - hang in there and listen to the advice these guys are giving. there are plenty of places on the web to find even more support. wishing you all the best!!
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I've got no clue whether OP is for real or not, but I don't think "coming out on an anonymous board" is really a contradiction as some have stated. OP might just be testing the waters, as in, see how it feels to say it out loud. I can also see how SR might be a venue that offers some sense of comfort.
So, OP, if you are 4 real. Listen, people discriminate/hate against other people for all sorts of reasons. Whether that is being gay, being of color, being bald, being fat, being smart, being dumb.....and so on and so forth.
That's not unique to being gay. Haters be hating. All you need to know is that you are who you are, and the only one that needs to be okay with who you are is you yourself.
Take the advise that was given in here. There are boards out there with plenty of people in the same boat as you. Community can be the biggest weapon against ignorance and bigotry, it's 2012, there is no need for you to go it alone, but this might really no be the right place for it.
@theignorantbigotteddumbfuck
You're just a hate-filled little dumbfuck. Either that or you are in the closet yourself lol...
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Congrats OP ! I'm about to do it too, but in RL. More like announcing my bisexuality actually. To my GF :-\
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By researches and wiki, you probably born gay. I've been looking for a lot of information with the years/ It can be developed with the years like some guys in prison and such, but they will not become 100% gay, but more like bisexual=love women and men. My suggest will be to stay in the closet until you finish school. Kids can be very mean... Wait till university or something. Trust me on this. I've seen how gays been "treated" once they're in school/after - let's say at the age of 21... HUGE DIFFERENCE. No one will really care about that
That being said... Barney Stinson is gay, and he is AWESOME.
Sheldon from the Big Band is gay... Very down to earth person, humble and nice.
The guy from modern family... (Only one of them)
At first, it's hard for people to accept that you "think" and feel different and realize you breath the same air and live life on the same planet with them, but after a while they just seem to not care about that. After all, with all the network and awareness to all "kinds" of people, cultures and habits, nothing seems to be a big deal. It may be hard for your family to accept that one day, weather if you're gonna tell them or not, they do have instincts, they probably wait for your marriage etc, but you got to make your own decisions. They gave you life, but it's not in control. I'm sure no one would like to be gay at the first place (at least most of the people).
Sincerely wish you the best, and keep on with your life... Get new hobbies and develop yourself.. No need to stick around straight guys who probably won't understand but judge you.
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Ok.. I've read this whole thread and I think clarifications are in order.
So here they're...
I don't know why I even mentioned my age, because I think that many posters have took the role of "a mature adult" and started showing me how it could be worse or how it's a "sin" to be gay. I personally think it's devastating(but understandable due to the trolls that come to this forum) to read 90% these comments being about my age, how it could be worse or how I should be ashamed. I also want to thank all of You who have said things that are to the positive side.
Is it just me that's confused about the fact the OP is coming out on an anonymous forum which is sorta a contradiction? Not anti-gay or anything just seems like it defeats the object? :-\
Well a contradiction or not, I made this thread to feel how it feels to say it out loud(in some sense), I also feel that this doesn't defeat the purpose, I couldn't be as open as this in any other environment.
Double fuck this guy because he wouldn't have the balls to stand up in front of his church and address a group of Christians using words like "queer". My guess is your church would ask you to step off the podium for speaking disrespectfully to people you disagree with.
@Confession: There are plenty of support forums for gay teens, just signup no need to use tor no one will every know it's you and you'll be surrounded by people in the same boat as you.
I don't feel the urge to discuss the FACT that I'm gay.
Well I'll respond to all of the other people too, but so far, if some people might've understood this isn't a cry for attention, I have my "main" forum account and I made this just to see how it would feel/how would it go. So far it has gone like I imagined it to.
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Yeah fair play mate, do whatever you need to do and that. I dunno how these work tbh because I am not gay, I just meant I find the logic a bit skewed but yano, would be a borin old world if everyone was the same.
Good luck with it all. :)
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I'm not anti-gay at all. I'm not anti-religious either. Your belief or faith is just that. Your belief or faith. I also think although it must have felt good getting that confession off his chest,( all be it online) I simply don't think its the right site to do it.
I'm sure there are sites dedicated for such troubles. I don't think it's here.
I hope this thread will be deleted soon as it obviously angers some individuals, to the point of idiocy.
Good luck confession.
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why cause i'm a christian and against homosexuality and for the record you are not born gay you turn yourself gay but i'm done answering this queer
My imaginary man in the sky can beat up your imaginary man in the sky. He's bigger than yours, and he likes gay people. Our filthy, abominable, sinful sexual acts give him super-duper-rainbow-unicorn-power to smite your imaginary man in the sky with.
Ka-boom.
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I'm not anti-gay at all. I'm not anti-religious either. Your belief or faith is just that. Your belief or faith. I also think although it must have felt good getting that confession off his chest,( all be it online) I simply don't think its the right site to do it.
I'm sure there are sites dedicated for such troubles. I don't think it's here.
I hope this thread will be deleted soon as it obviously angers some individuals, to the point of idiocy.
Good luck confession.
I think this thread is more than me "coming out of the closet" on the internet. I think this thread also shows a lot of character, for an example how the society is screwed up in such areas. I think it's rather good to see what people think&what people admit. I will not be going to a website which is "meant-for-this-kind-of-thing", as this topic has been moved to "Off topic" section, I think it has no reason to be locked whatsoever.
I'm just in a point in my life where I don't know what to do with this "iron mask" of mine and I think this kind of a forum can help me a lot more than people who are in my position. Imo thinking outside of the box is something that I want. :P
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Don't agree with your approach.
I think it's human nature to feel better when you can talk to people in the exact same situation, and I think you would feel better to do so.
But I'm not you, and I don't mind the thread.
Post away my friend.
I'm not anti-gay at all. I'm not anti-religious either. Your belief or faith is just that. Your belief or faith. I also think although it must have felt good getting that confession off his chest,( all be it online) I simply don't think its the right site to do it.
I'm sure there are sites dedicated for such troubles. I don't think it's here.
I hope this thread will be deleted soon as it obviously angers some individuals, to the point of idiocy.
Good luck confession.
I think this thread is more than me "coming out of the closet" on the internet. I think this thread also shows a lot of character, for an example how the society is screwed up in such areas. I think it's rather good to see what people think&what people admit. I will not be going to a website which is "meant-for-this-kind-of-thing", as this topic has been moved to "Off topic" section, I think it has no reason to be locked whatsoever.
I'm just in a point in my life where I don't know what to do with this "iron mask" of mine and I think this kind of a forum can help me a lot more than people who are in my position. Imo thinking outside of the box is something that I want. :P
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sorry, i didn't read your whole post, OP but it was written in tweaker form and I can't handle that. at least next time split it up into paragraphs.
anyway
you're young, and kids are idiots. forget all the opinions and comments you hear from kids your own age about homos and homosexuality in general. you'll find that as you get older, any reasonable person isn't going to care that you're gay and its not really a big deal. i'm a heterosexual married man but i've had many gay friends over the course of my life and thought little of it.
however, if you live somewhere that gays are more persecuted and not tolerated, I strongly suggest trying to make a move somewhere more progressive in a couple years. if you're in the USA, go for NYC, Boston, Chicago, any city on the west coast, or Canada.
keep strong, dude. the things that make you different are the things that will make you great.
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That being said... Barney Stinson is gay, and he is AWESOME.
Sheldon from the Big Band is gay... Very down to earth person, humble and nice.
The guy from modern family... (Only one of them)
+ Frank Ocean
+ NPH
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That being said... Barney Stinson is gay, and he is AWESOME.
Sheldon from the Big Band is gay... Very down to earth person, humble and nice.
The guy from modern family... (Only one of them)
+ Frank Ocean
+ NPH
+ George Takei
I swear dun mess with George Takei! Sulu is da shit ya hear?
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god bless you friend!
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People like people who similar to them or have things in common, that's how it is... I wouldn't want to hang out with gay people, not because I hate them, I don't, but I believe almost every straight has this fear of gays will try to make a move, so there always that distance. For example, I have worked with gay guys, and when I opened myself with them, like a regular friend, one of them jumped on it and shared things I don't like to hear, like you know... I never want to experience something with men, and I believe being a lot with gay dudes is not healthy for straight guys. It's easy confessing yourself here in the forum where no one really knows you, but it's a step further and I'm sure it will make you feel better seeing how most people here are open minded and accept "the other", Jewish, Christian, Muslim, it doesn't matter. Be a human first. If you were a terrorist or a Nazi, or some Illuminati/Government member I would say fuck you and wish you to live in miseries, but you aren't, so I wish you the best :)
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ok I know who you really are in the forums!!!!!!!!
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my confession is i love watching interracial porn.
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why cause i'm a christian and against homosexuality and for the record you are not born gay you turn yourself gay but i'm done answering this queer
You know... The only thing more annoying than a self-righteous knucklehead is a self-righteous knucklehead on dope.
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From a Freudian perspective, OP's mother didn't represent a suitable role model of a mate when he was a wee little lad so he didn't really focus on girls as much.
Also I'm pretty sure being gay isn't possible only from birth, at least from women. Ugly fat girls that can't get any lovin usually turn to women for their satisfaction, I've seen this happen.
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keep strong, dude. the things that make you different are the things that will make you great.
that's awesome.
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this a drug forum not a i'm a queer coming out of the closet forum and you bring all of the shit on yourself society will never accept 2 same sex partners so go straight and no problem and don't say you were born gay thats a load of shit no1 is born a fag
trolling is a art
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You are a dick-head.
why cause i'm a christian and against homosexuality and for the record you are not born gay you turn yourself gay but i'm done answering this queer
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It is said in the Bible that it is better for a man to blind himself than to keep his sight and view a woman lustfully, so unless you are blind you really have no place to use the Bible as your basis for judging others.
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I have close gay friends but they don't act camp. I don't care what you are but I find it hard to get along with camp gay people because often I find them a clash of personalities.
Also KMF sort your quote out, slacking man, slacking.
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OP There was another thread like this, about 'Is Silk Road a gay friendly place?' I dug up the link for you; http://dkn255hz262ypmii.onion/index.php?topic=29843.0
Just be who you are with confidence, and make no apologies for it. People will respect that, and if they don't then fuck them (not literally ;) ) as they're not worth wasting your time on.
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Don't know where you live dude, but no-one gizza toss about whether someone's a fag or not round these parts....chill....or better still.....move.....
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These are my confessions... just when I thought I said all I could say, my chick on the side said she got one on the way...
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Yano what I wana know but my gay mates never answer because they think I'm taking the piss? If a guy bums you and then you fart afterwards do you automatically shit yourself?
Nobody ever answers this because they think I'm just being a twat but I think it should be answered. Anything less will make me a sad panda.
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Yano what I wana know but my gay mates never answer because they think I'm taking the piss? If a guy bums you and then you fart afterwards do you automatically shit yourself?
Nobody ever answers this because they think I'm just being a twat but I think it should be answered. Anything less will make me a sad panda.
"howard moon will bum you silly for loose change"
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Hahahaha ah I haven't watched that for time.
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Hahahaha ah I haven't watched that for time.
unrelated to topic but the first time i ever saw that show it was that episode (the eels one) and i was in a state of high 4th/sigma dxm tripping. i didn't know what the fuck i was watching or if i was hallucinating the whole thing until it came on again the next day.