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Title: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: pentobarbital on April 16, 2012, 07:20 am
Ok guys, Im giving up on life and want a painless end. Reading around I found that pentobarbital is the most painless way to bring an end, and it is something that is commonly available in pet stores in Mexico to euthanize pets. Would be grateful if this can be supplied and shipped to India where I live. Thanks
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: Blackperson on April 16, 2012, 04:06 pm
AFAIK Pentobarbital is also used to kill delinquents in the US.
It has got a really bad reputation, and even the government has problems buying it.
I do have a few blisters of it inherited from my grandma, but you seem to underestimate the dose you would need.
They use 2-5grams of it AND other drugs, to murder delinquents, yet they sometimes survive the first injection.

I recommend you to overdose on heroin, as it is the only really painless way.
Although respiratory depression is not a funny way to die, you probably wouldn't even notice it if you were on Heroin.
http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/silkroad/category/48
Here you can find everything you need to become an Hero.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: tordemon on April 18, 2012, 02:13 am
Seriously, pentobarbital, my friend, PLEASE do not do this. I've been suicidal before, myself (been depressed most of my life, actually), so I can understand where you're coming from, but it's not worth it. If possible, please seek out a mental health professional. Even if not possible, there are other things you can do to help yourself. If you need help, and don't know where else to turn, I encourage you to PM me, and I will try to get you pointed in the right direction (though I most certainly am not a mental health professional). If you have a good understanding of English, I have a great book that has helped me (suggested by my professional psychologist and written by a research psychologist; not just a "pop psych" book), and I could give you more information on that or other help. I can't tell you what to believe, but I believe life is precious, and I love every person on this earth; please preserve your life.

contact this guy. (buy_online@hushmail.com)
Are you spamming or what? Don't do that. You said almost the exact same thing on another thread, so I sincerely hope everybody will ignore you, now. We're all here for the great services that SR offers all of us, both vendors and buyers, so please don't try to lure people elsewhere.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: flkjfskfjsdflsjfsfj on August 12, 2012, 04:29 pm
I've been suicidal myself in years past.   To be honest I held on amazingly because I had pets I cared about and didn't want to "orphan" them.

But OP, you may not believe it now but things do change and I'm glad I did ride it out and I've a had a good life.

Really ....when I was feeling like you are now, I didn't believe it could happen but it did.

Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: 34trimethoxy on August 12, 2012, 04:48 pm
Sorry to derail, but I'm also interested in bars, but more so Seconal.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: londoncalling84 on August 12, 2012, 05:04 pm
i am also interested - shipped to the UK.  Sadly i can't get to Mexico or the other hotspots right now.  Please, no advice, its terminal and i have no one left to worry about me.  I can just about walk from my bed to my frontdoor.

Please PM or reply on here.

Thanks.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: quinone on August 12, 2012, 05:19 pm
Pentobarbitol can be found on several of the legit online pharmacies.

The standard 'exit' procedure they use in the netherlands requires 9g of it though, that's quite a lot.

I sit here now, myself, wanting to die more then ever dude, for my own personal reasons.  I've never had a moment of happiness in my adult life (i'm in my 30s, alone, etc.) but I know that there are good things even in the shitstorm of bad, and you only live to be a human once so I ask you to look deep inside yourself on whether you truly want the gift of consciousness you have snuffed out because of things that in 10 years from now could very well be a distant memory.

In other words i'm asking you not to hurt yourself, I know what the shit's like, i'm not gonna pretend theres an easy answer because there isn't, but TIME marches on dragging you along for the ride, so just try and take into perspective what COULD BE if you can at all :/
If it's terminal or something you should seek out the aid of the various clinics in the netherlands, you need the mental preparation and clarity before you make such an audacious decision.

I have pentobarbital but this thread has me quite a bit irked about selling it ... in fact, it's brought into question for me whether I should list it as I have been debating putting it in my listings.

Quinone

PS:  I worry about you, I don't care if i've never met you before, I do worry, and so to do many/most of the other poster's in this thread
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: londoncalling84 on August 12, 2012, 06:09 pm
Quinone -

Thank you for your moving post, and i agree with what you've said.  For me however life has a clear ending point and the pain (both mentally and physically) that i am in is simply unbearable.  I have looked at going to Switzerland etc. but i would very much like to pass peacefully at home.  I have lead a very full life and seen and done somethings that i never thought (and any wont) experience, which i am very humbled and thankful for, but those days are past and the only future i have is one of pain and extreme discomfort.  I am very much ready to pass now, in fact it would be a great rest. 

I can understand why you wouldn't want to sell given the potency and mythology that the drug is held in, but if you we're interested in selling then please understand that my purchase has been made for the right reasons, not out of depression.

I have tried simply googling and could never find a legit pharmacy.  Only scammers etc.  If you know a link or could provide me with some information that would be great... but please remember that i'm in the UK and now unable to travel.

Thanks.

Thanks
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: 34trimethoxy on August 12, 2012, 06:19 pm
Heroin would be best.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: londoncalling84 on August 12, 2012, 08:22 pm
Heroin isn't a choice for me.  As strange as this might sound considering my end goal, i have never taken it and never really want too.  I'm not judging those who do (i have known great... and not so great people who have) but its not for me nor how i want to be found.

Please, anybody who can help please let me know.  Happy to do it via silk road or private or if they can give me a link to a good source where i can buy online.

I have a friend who i can send to collect from a drop off point but he is not willing to travel or smuggle to collect, would have to be UK based.

Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: quinone on August 13, 2012, 12:34 am
Somehow just posting in this thread got me -ve karma lol
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: flkjfskfjsdflsjfsfj on August 16, 2012, 04:50 am
 I'm considerably older than most of you,  I think.  I've been suicidal and it passed.   I've had a good life.  I have a good life right now.

If you just want to get high barbs are great but they have a very narrow safe therapeutic window (you can accidentally die) so be very careful...lots of people have died that way.

I have the same request however.  Let me explain.  I'm not suicidal.  I'm employed.  I have an active life right now.    I do have a disease that will likely kill me,  that both my parents died from.   I have no desire to end things but...there may come a time when the pain associated with my condition will be unbearable and any sort of dignified life impossible.

I may never use it but it would give me enormous comfort to know that I could if I needed to.  That's why I"m looking for 25 gr or so of nembutal seconal etc to keep in a desiccator in my freezer should it ever become necessary.

At some point one can become so sick that you can't help yourself and  no one will help you because they are afraid of the legal consequences.  Its unfair to ask them to risk that.   

So the request for this stuff really shouldn't be subject to moralization and quite frankly is (I think) totally in keeping with the spirit of Silk Road.  My body and my life are mine and I should be able to ingest whatever I want.   I do have some hesitancy in buying the stuff from China because of the risk of importing a schedule 2 drug and also the significant risk of getting scammed.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: quinone on August 16, 2012, 12:06 pm
Quinone -

Thank you for your moving post, and i agree with what you've said.  For me however life has a clear ending point and the pain (both mentally and physically) that i am in is simply unbearable.  I have looked at going to Switzerland etc. but i would very much like to pass peacefully at home.  I have lead a very full life and seen and done somethings that i never thought (and any wont) experience, which i am very humbled and thankful for, but those days are past and the only future i have is one of pain and extreme discomfort.  I am very much ready to pass now, in fact it would be a great rest. 

I can understand why you wouldn't want to sell given the potency and mythology that the drug is held in, but if you we're interested in selling then please understand that my purchase has been made for the right reasons, not out of depression.

I have tried simply googling and could never find a legit pharmacy.  Only scammers etc.  If you know a link or could provide me with some information that would be great... but please remember that i'm in the UK and now unable to travel.

Thanks.

Thanks

I completely understand your pain and reasoning.  I myself suffer from daily chronic migraines, which as the title says means I have a 24/7 migraine, trust me, to anyone whose experienced a migraine that must seem like a nightmare to you, and I assure you it is !!!

Anyways, my trepidation lies in that I don't wish to be accessory to the loss of someone elses life, no matter how miserable it is.  I suffer some of the worst downs from mod-sev clinical depreession, but as rare as they are, there are good times, and i'd rather have good times then no times at all (i'm atheist so I believe when you're gone your gone, that's it).

Feel free to PM me if you wish to discuss your condition/feelings, i'm a compassionate man that would like to do anything I can to help, regardless of how minor that may be.  I understand your problems are your own and are none of my business to be talking about, but I want you to know there are .. random strangers (like me lol) out there that care and will gladly act as a support pillar for anyone in times of strife.
 
I feel for you, having to weigh the agony of life to the non-existence altogether of suicide is uh, the most difficult thing I can think of to have to contend with :(
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: thedoser on August 17, 2012, 12:49 am
I do not understand the stigma of suicide. It is your life, your choice. That life is worth living is not a fact but an opinion. My opinion is that a life of suffering is not a life worth living. Don't tell someone it will get better unless you know that for a fact. Everybody will die anyway, suicide just puts the process into your hands. If you don't want to live there is no cosmic law saying you must, only man-made ones based on the moral and religious opinions of various humans.

I echo the request for pentobarbital or secobarbital.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: flkjfskfjsdflsjfsfj on August 17, 2012, 01:18 am
Death from Heroin is uncertain even if you aren't opiate tolerant.   You have no idea how much "active" you're getting.    Oral opiates have the more significant vomiting problem. 
So do barbs but you can control it with anti-emetics.  I don't know of any on-line pharmacies with pentobarbital.  You need to make sure you aren't confusing it with phenobarbital which it too long lasting.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: Phatohka on August 21, 2012, 11:07 am
The standard 'exit' procedure they use in the netherlands requires 9g of it though, that's quite a lot.
9 grams is a lower bound. Dignitas in Switzerland uses 12g on the average.
It's absolutely important to use enough of it. There's something between being alive and dead and that's becoming a vegetable from surviving a severe overdose. I've read terrible reports of Phenobarbital survivors. Phenobarbital is much slower acting than Pento but the basic risks are the same, IMHO.

Personally I think it should be more widely available. Dr. Nitschke writes about how many ill patients actually became much more optimistic as soon as they were in possession of the "peaceful pill". For many it's more about gaining control over one's life, not necessarily ending it. The knowledge that you COULD end it anytime if you wanted to. I've been suicidal myself and learning about possible methods actually helped me get better.

As for the actual request... I've been in contact with a gray market laboratory that could supply me with reagent grade Pentobarbital. The main problem is that there are minimum quantities involved. I would gladly sell half of it but I don't have a seller's account and I would like to break even at least.

How much would you pay for the gram? It's not feasible for me to sell it for less than $500 per 10g of the substance. I know it's expensive. I would have to pay for the Silk Road seller's account too. I can't acquire large quantities either because it has to be shipped from China, unless you can hook me up with a bulletproof smuggling route or method. Importing pounds of an illegal substance is a serious issue. I wish it wasn't that hard.

If anyone is seriously interested in buying for 50-60 USD per g, I would consider ordering a smaller batch.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: 34trimethoxy on August 22, 2012, 07:49 am
I do not understand the stigma of suicide. It is your life, your choice. That life is worth living is not a fact but an opinion. My opinion is that a life of suffering is not a life worth living. Don't tell someone it will get better unless you know that for a fact. Everybody will die anyway, suicide just puts the process into your hands. If you don't want to live there is no cosmic law saying you must, only man-made ones based on the moral and religious opinions of various humans.

I echo the request for pentobarbital or secobarbital.

I agree with this philosophy.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: flkjfskfjsdflsjfsfj on August 30, 2012, 01:21 pm
I would pay $50 a gram.  I need 25 but would purchase in installments.   That is, I'd need to get 10 start and check for purity and follow up with an additional order
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: luxxiaxx on September 03, 2012, 11:24 am
For those interested in obtaining Phenobarbital who don't also happen to have a deathwish --

http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/index.php/silkroad/item/d3c924d285

http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/index.php/silkroad/item/24bd462341


While I do respect & support every individual's decision to terminate their existence whenever & however they see fit, I in turn not only ask but absolutely demand that anybody who purchases any Phenobarbital from me respect & subsequently adhere to all of the conditions & practices that are outlined in the two listings for this medication that I've made accessible. (Those listings instruct & insist that anybody who purchases Phenobarbital from me enjoy the tablets they receive in a manner which is both safe & responsible.)


Given the nature of this thread, & my complete unwillingness to take on a role resembling that of Dr. Kevorkian, I find it necessary to insist that no one person be permitted to purchase more than four tablets from me (unless you've been a loyal, frequent, & long-time customer of mine). Purchases made for a quantity of more than four tablets will promptly be cancelled.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: punkst0ner on September 03, 2012, 06:29 pm
Possibly the most distressing thread I have come across on this forum.

I suppose drugs provide the escape for many of us. Some temporary, some permanent.

I have been suicidal in the past, I've no doubt those feelings will come back again sometime. Whether I beat them and survive remains to be seen.
 
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: nosaj_thing on September 04, 2012, 06:56 am
without philosophizing too much on this somewhat morbid topic- it sounds like there are some extenuating factors here, and i never agreed much with what happened to dr kevorkian, i think we can all agree that...

Sorry to derail, but I'm also interested in bars, but more so Seconal.

seconal would be pretty great. pentobarb wouldn't be bad either....
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: Learn2 on September 06, 2012, 10:31 pm
For those interested in obtaining Phenobarbital who don't also happen to have a deathwish --

http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/index.php/silkroad/item/d3c924d285

http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/index.php/silkroad/item/24bd462341


While I do respect & support every individual's decision to terminate their existence whenever & however they see fit, I in turn not only ask but absolutely demand that anybody who purchases any Phenobarbital from me respect & subsequently adhere to all of the conditions & practices that are outlined in the two listings for this medication that I've made accessible. (Those listings instruct & insist that anybody who purchases Phenobarbital from me enjoy the tablets they receive in a manner which is both safe & responsible.)


Given the nature of this thread, & my complete unwillingness to take on a role resembling that of Dr. Kevorkian, I find it necessary to insist that no one person be permitted to purchase more than four tablets from me (unless you've been a loyal, frequent, & long-time customer of mine). Purchases made for a quantity of more than four tablets will promptly be cancelled.

I ordered 4 from you earlier today.  I have the proper equipment to measure and will be weighing them down to 30 mg, based on 1/3 tablet weight, that I like to take 2-3 times a day.  Actually, by the 3rd dose I begin to feel a little extra relaxed, but not severely, even when I have my evening beer or 3.  The thing is, I take them to help me feel normal, socially- instead of worrying about what I should say or if I should say anything, I feel natural and people react naturally to me, instead of intimidated or weirded out by my attempt to be straight and unnaturally indifferent or humorously dry.  I also take a decent dose of prescribed amphetamines throughout the day, so maybe that's why I receive the 90 mg/day dose so well.

Anyhow, my point being, I've ordered 50 count orders of the 30mg tabs before, but that vendor stopped selling, and knowing that I properly tapered down.  Benzos are okay, but I just don't have a clear head on them- I'm looking to improve my situation and performance in life- definitely not end it.

My sympathies go out to all who wish to end their life for emotional reasons; I hope that you might find some other drug or inspiration that could possibly change your mind.  If you're terminally ill and suffering, that's a different story.  I would like to think if I was, I could get a doctor to prescribe an excellent cocktail of drugs that could make just about any circumstance palatable, so that I may enjoy, at least through a cognitive lens, the remainder of my life.
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: Phatohka on September 16, 2012, 12:15 am
I would pay $50 a gram.  I need 25 but would purchase in installments.   That is, I'd need to get 10 start and check for purity and follow up with an additional order
That's reassuring.
If it ever happens in the near future, I will definitely offer smaller samples (= less risk for both sides).
Title: Re: Can anyone supply a good dose of pentobarbital, liquid or powder?
Post by: painbow on September 16, 2012, 02:01 am
Death from Heroin is uncertain even if you aren't opiate tolerant.   You have no idea how much "active" you're getting.    Oral opiates have the more significant vomiting problem. 

Hmm.. I think IV injection from high quality heroin could be fairly certain if you don't have crazy tolerance.  Also, pop some oral opioids and benzos on top of it.