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Discussion => Drug safety => Topic started by: jfots8620 on January 24, 2013, 02:28 am
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well guys, i would say my state of mind is average at best. just lost couple very close family members and still really havent grieved there deaths. i am so due for psychedelic experience but on one hand feel that it might finally accept fact of there deaths and be alright or the other that it might be way too much to take all in.....in safe setting,alone,only trup alone for personal growth and i feel this may be the best option. any advice be great
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I'd say no because that's asking for a bad trip to happen. I understand your want/need for processing the grief. believe me, I did the same thing but I had some experience with L/shrooms before I started working on my interpersonal issues.
Go through the grieving process of those deaths first, (completely) then have that experience that you're looking for. You'll never find acceptance until you understand the process itself. I had about 10 years of processing before finally understanding it then accepting it via psychedelic experiences. This will take time/emotional investment for yourself. Don't make it worse on yourself by doing psychedelic drugs.
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i was kind of thinking same thing but do have xanax,and im thorazine just in case but who knows if id even take them if im in psychedelic hell ,cause i tend to lose everything around me. u no on acid ive always been able to somewhat control/guide my trip even at 6-800ug doses but seems as if shrooms they guide me and at times i just cant stop it.
thx for advice
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Shrooms for me at least has been always very dark and heavy. It forces you to think about things that you don't want to think about. do you really want that to happen? I don't know if it'll help you or not but relying on benzos to make the trip better or stop it completely won't help because you'll be thinking about "okay, I have this as a backup if things go bad" what if things do go bad and you take your benzo, it doesn't work? what will happen?
I'd go with L than shrooms if you want introspective therapy.
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I lost a family member last year, and a few months later took some acid and some shrooms like a week after that. tbh I think I'm just a glutton for punishment, as neither of those trips were fun or recreational in any way! They were very intense, more like work to get through. It felt kind like, if I was back in school and I'd waited the entire semester to do ALL of my homework, and today was the day to do it ALL. Because of all the work it took to keep pulling myself out of these sad loops, I guess the experiences were somewhat purgative and clarifying, but imo fwiw grief is better dealt with in a sober state of mind.
I would caution against using any psychedelics until you've processed the grief as well as you can, unless you're prepared to battle through what will likely be a tough trip.
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listen to your gut. only take psychedelics when you're in a good set and setting... this is crucial! personally, i never would have come to terms with my mother's death if it weren't for psychedelics. i took mescaline a month or so after she died, went into her room and started peaking. i was so overwhelmed by her energy that i just rolled around on her bed in the dark crying for a while, until the tibetan book of living and dying fell on my head! i opened it up and she had folded over pages on preparing for death. needless to say, that trip put things into perspective for me and helped a lot with the grieving process.
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i went with my gut and ate them, around idk what time but as i thought ,brian did come thru,and i got say goodbye,very intense sad,emotional,few times thot i needed external help but with my experience i was able to setlle, now came vince ,it was just too sad too intense,remembering vividly us fishing together when i was 6-7 years old.so after very deep internal sadness wouldnt leave i decided to eat bout 2mg xanax... now while still tripping,i must say i am in most beautiful place i ever imagined,almost like im in oz with dorothy .... i learned alot.. hence name golden teacher.... i need help,im not crazy no but i have just pushed so many bad events in my life spo deep into my brain that they must get out, i almost fee l as if im free from all these barriers that kept me from moving forwatd in my life.
llifealso i see how my addiction to opiates have caused nothing but sadness and inferrior thougjts of myself image..i hope i made any sense since letters are literally jumping all over screen,then melting but im freeeee
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i went with my gut and ate them, around idk what time but as i thought ,brian did come thru,and i got say goodbye,very intense sad,emotional,few times thot i needed external help but with my experience i was able to setlle, now came vince ,it was just too sad too intense,remembering vividly us fishing together when i was 6-7 years old.so after very deep internal sadness wouldnt leave i decided to eat bout 2mg xanax... now while still tripping,i must say i am in most beautiful place i ever imagined,almost like im in oz with dorothy .... i learned alot.. hence name golden teacher.... i need help,im not crazy no but i have just pushed so many bad events in my life spo deep into my brain that they must get out, i almost fee l as if im free from all these barriers that kept me from moving forwatd in my life.
llifealso i see how my addiction to opiates have caused nothing but sadness and inferrior thougjts of myself image..i hope i made any sense since letters are literally jumping all over screen,then melting but im freeeee
wow, i'm glad you made the right choice! a trip like that can put everything into perspective. i'm sorry for your losses. feel free to pm me anytime if you need to talk about any of this... seriously.
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You people are beautiful and amazing! I would give out a lot of karma if I could. Thank you everyone for sharing your experiences!