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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: 2marijuanaman on August 06, 2013, 01:23 am
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I have about a $100 budget and killing myself is the best option. Is there anything I can order for about $100 that I can kill myself with. freeweb/clearnet links appreciated.
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For a lot less then $100 you can catch a bus to local ED GP or Psych call suicide hotline or equal and work it out trust me bro it aint the only answer and deff isnt the best answer been there tried that and failed clearly as am here but things get better i know ive been at rock bottom the only way is up
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You could invest that into LSD and DMT. Then consume the LSD. If you still have these thoughts, try the DMT. I'm simply passing on information I hear works. "To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world." I don't believe it's "selfish" and all that but I do believe it's often a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I'm sure you've thought about this a lot but please don't go through with it
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whats the reason your going to kill yourself? You should talk it out with people first before acting on it. As a SR community member I would like to say on behalf of all of us you should talk it out with us and see if we can help you. Ultimately it is your decision though so after a through discussion i will link you to a product that will quickly and painlessly kill you.
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A knife? A gun? $100 worth of sleeping meds?
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Please dont make me explain myself... Im in a life situatio that cant really be changed. Even if I won the lottery nothing would change, other than the nice feeling that i gave something to charity before death...
Been considering suicide for nearly two years now...
Please help.
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Why have you decided to kill yourself? With out those details it would be irresponsible to help you.
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Why have you decided to kill yourself? With out those details it would be irresponsible to help you.
I agree with this completely. If I'm going to hand a human being the keys to his own death I sure as hell want to know why I'm doing so.
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I'm physically retarded. Not mentally... My legs dont work, and I'll never have sex. High school was a living hell. College is sure to be hell as well. Ive wanted to kill myself for well over a year now.
The difference between you helping me and not helping me, is about 3 months time. In three months Ill be able to afford a shotgun and Ill shoot myself. If you help me now, youd act as a catalyst for whats already inevitable.
And for what its worth, Ive tried lsd, shrooms, and dmt. All very interesting, but didnt change my mind. Only enlightened me. My psychedelic use isnt really related to my suicide.
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First thats handicapped not retarded retard
Second heaps of people never have sex saw some guy on TV that got off by chicks rubbing his finger (literally)
If i was every going to off myself painlessly it would be.....................100% thats the route for me
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I'm physically retarded. Not mentally... My legs dont work, and I'll never have sex. High school was a living hell. College is sure to be hell as well. Ive wanted to kill myself for well over a year now.
The difference between you helping me and not helping me, is about 3 months time. In three months Ill be able to afford a shotgun and Ill shoot myself. If you help me now, youd act as a catalyst for whats already inevitable.
And for what its worth, Ive tried lsd, shrooms, and dmt. All very interesting, but didnt change my mind. Only enlightened me. My psychedelic use isnt really related to my suicide.
do you have no aspirations in life? Tell us something that you really want to do before you go out.
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your shotgun option would probably be your best unless you can walk into an atomic bomb falling onto you
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Option 1: Go take a walk, get laid. If you're straight meet a lady. Go rob a bank and see if you can get away with it. Then fly to some country and become a smuggler. Become rich and wear tracksuits.
Option 2: Get yourself a big ass dose of pentobarbital. Consume it.
There you go. Godspeed.
this guy's on a wheelchair he cant rob anything lol
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Option 1: Go take a walk, get laid. If you're straight meet a lady. Go rob a bank and see if you can get away with it. Then fly to some country and become a smuggler. Become rich and wear tracksuits.
Option 2: Get yourself a big ass dose of pentobarbital. Consume it.
There you go. Godspeed.
I already wear tracksuits (matching) but i choose no.2 or some sweet lady H and benzos to top it off
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I'm physically retarded. Not mentally... My legs dont work, and I'll never have sex. High school was a living hell. College is sure to be hell as well. Ive wanted to kill myself for well over a year now.
The difference between you helping me and not helping me, is about 3 months time. In three months Ill be able to afford a shotgun and Ill shoot myself. If you help me now, youd act as a catalyst for whats already inevitable.
And for what its worth, Ive tried lsd, shrooms, and dmt. All very interesting, but didnt change my mind. Only enlightened me. My psychedelic use isnt really related to my suicide.
fuck that bro. Don't let the demons win. you are more blessed than you think. Go create your own little world, find what sets you at ease and makes you happy. Go see places, make goals, conquer! spit in the face of adversity, no time for pity, its you and the world you choice to live in. You will never go hungry, ask God and he'll provide. Negativity never creates positivity. Know you are blessed, keep your chin and head up high is all you have to do to get in through the gates of heaven.
And if you got any coin to spare, ill appreciate it. we have a friend in need and we are trying to help her. send here
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fuck the world dude! Live for you, fuck those demons!
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OP. This is really really horrible advice I'm going to give you, but, you should shoot some Heroin. It's better than sex.
And if you're really serious about having tried all of those psychedelics and none of them changed your mind, perhaps you could be a candidate for Ibogaine. As that would definitely change your mind.
Otherwise, if you do both of these things, and still want to die... just do more heroin. :D Or more Ibogaine O_O.
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Not to be irreverant, which is to say; I'm being a complete asshole, but don't call me on it. If your going to go out, go out fucking spectacularly! Rent a fast car ( fucking jack up that credit card brah ), get some high tensile fishing line, tie said fishing line tightly around each major joints anchoring each line to something solid at around the same length ( keeping the the one around your neck the shortest ), do this at the top of a parking structure or similar drivable high point, and floor it like you stole it! If all goes to plan should be fairly painless and quick. The fishing line should cut through quite easily. And has the add benefit of being quite the baller suicide. Should make the top spot in the local news, if not wider.
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Not to be irreverant, which is to say; I'm being a complete asshole, but don't call me on it. If your going to go out, go out fucking spectacularly! Rent a fast car ( fucking jack up that credit card brah ), get some high tensile fishing line, tie said fishing line tightly around each major joints anchoring each line to something solid at around the same length ( keeping the the one around your neck the shortest ), do this at the top of a parking structure or similar drivable high point, and floor it like you stole it! If all goes to plan should be fairly painless and quick. The fishing line should cut through quite easily. And has the add benefit of being quite the baller suicide. Should make the top spot in the local news, if not wider.
Fuck you put some serious thought into that +1 for but unfortunattly -1 because OP is in a wheel chair IE no use of legs unless you are proposing the use of some stick for clutch/accelematrix but still question what rental car place whould rent a ferrari or the likes to a guy in a wheelchair
Get some Pethadene now that is the shit
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A. Even the handicapped have friends.
B. yes I put way to much thought in to that
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Get 100 bucks of aspirin and take it all.
or sit in a garage with a running car, you just fall asleep and dont wake up (painless)
I personally don't think you should kill yourself, but who am i to tell someone what to do with their life.
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Big ass dose of pentobarbital mixed with phenobarbital mixed with a bunch of liquor and xanax.
Not the most encouraging advice, but the most lethal solution so far, if a little over the OP's $100 budget
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Dude, if you seriously want to kill yourself just start using heroin. Who gives a fuck if you get addicted and overdose? Clearly not you!
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I hear H is the shit but there are some seriously hardcore addicts out there. What quality of life is using money intended for necessities for heroin? I'm not saying OP will immediately become an addict of this extent but this is a human being's life here. I personally vote for trying something else before the heroin route.
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Big ass dose of pentobarbital mixed with phenobarbital mixed with a bunch of liquor and xanax.
Not the most encouraging advice, but the most lethal solution so far, if a little over the OP's $100 budget
Yeah that's actually about 1600 dollars worth of drugs but I guess you can take like 10 Xanax bars and shoot up like $40 worth of heroin in one shot and take like $10 worth of phenobarbital. Add in some liquor. Budget euthanasia.
For around $1k all in, you could forget phenobarbital and buy anti-emetics (metoclopramide 10-20 mg) to take with the Xanax (2-8 mg), then pentobarbital (8-10 g), phenytoin as a potentiator (1-2 g) & liquor (50-200 ml) an hour later.
Still over-budget, but guaranteed painless & lethal.
Apparently no-one has ever recovered from a coma following 6g of pentobarbital. 9g is what they offer you for home use in the Netherlands, and 15g is a full Dignitas Switzerland dose.
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...I'll never have sex...
Getting laid is a major preoccupation during adolescence, and often for long after. This is just as well otherwise the human race would probably have died out a long time time ago. However even if sex is not possible, presuming your genitals are producing gametes then you can still have children.
Human sex isn't just a physical interaction; much of it takes place in the mind, and is to do with communication with your partner(s). The anticipation is sometimes the most exciting part of it. Presuming there are parts of your body which respond to touch, then there are plenty of sex workers who would be pleased to entertain you.
It's worth remembering that Hans Christian Anderson, Isaac Newton, Ludwig Von Beeethoven, Nikolai Tesla and many others whose names are honoured for their contributions to our culture are thought to have lived their lives without having any sexual relationships.
Summarising, the thought of never having sex might be depressing, but I don't think it need be a reason for committing suicide.
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Big ass dose of pentobarbital mixed with phenobarbital mixed with a bunch of liquor and xanax.
Not the most encouraging advice, but the most lethal solution so far, if a little over the OP's $100 budget
Yeah that's actually about 1600 dollars worth of drugs but I guess you can take like 10 Xanax bars and shoot up like $40 worth of heroin in one shot and take like $10 worth of phenobarbital. Add in some liquor. Budget euthanasia.
For around $1k all in, you could forget phenobarbital and buy anti-emetics (metoclopramide 10-20 mg) to take with the Xanax (2-8 mg), then pentobarbital (8-10 g), phenytoin as a potentiator (1-2 g) & liquor (50-200 ml) an hour later.
Still over-budget, but guaranteed painless & lethal.
Apparently no-one has ever recovered from a coma following 6g of pentobarbital. 9g is what they offer you for home use in the Netherlands, and 15g is a full Dignitas Switzerland dose.
Now put that shit in a listing together and I'll buy it when my disability pulls through. or fuck, if op wants to charity this shit a bit , hold in there a few more months budy and help me go out this way. I'm for real homie, I don't have any current source of income and I'm not thinking disability will accept me so Idk what to do. I'd rather be gimp legged then fucked in the head like I am tho, duders, just IAH. Your still a human being but I fall short of that qualification. who you are is so much more then what limitations your body has but when its the mind thats not whole you (me) are just not a whole person and you cant work or have relationships or do anything that makes life worth living. anyways not to high jack your shit.
ps. just got outta jail and I don't intend on ever going back
-teddy
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Hello i want to kill myself but i'll not spend a penny over $100 dollars.
Srsly?
Why not get like 5 credit cards and max them out first?
Hell you could probably get a dozen, legally.
In all seriousness though, go to the closest mental health clinic get off the drugs and start therapy this week.
If you dont like your doctors find some you do, that do help you in what seems a dark personal period in your life.
It's the most painless way to kill the self you hate.
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Right on, take a close look at it and work it out first, it's a permanent choice once you take your own life, and if there is an afterlife you have no guarantee it is better than where you are right now.
No one should ever use the following information; I'm just presenting some info I found when researching it years back. Simple asphyxiants from what I understand are pretty painless ways to go. Basically they displace all the oxygen and you essentially black out. Normally it would be done using a face mask such as a hospital oxygen mask. Then that gets hooked up to a cylinder of some gas, can be just about anything except oxygen, like welding gases (nitrogen, argon, etc) have no odor. Basically with that flowing through the mask it gets strapped over the nose and mouth. Within a couple breaths you pass out. The mask straps make sure the mask stays in place so that even if the body tries to breathe it just gets more gas without oxygen. Stuff like nitrous oxide etc can also work as long as they don't have more than a few percent oxygen in them. Even a propane cylinder would probably work but it is going to stink. Or natural gas, but the added mercaptans will make it stinky. Even a very small cylinder is enough. A CO2 paintball tank would probably work also.
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Get 100 bucks of aspirin and take it all.
or sit in a garage with a running car, you just fall asleep and dont wake up (painless)
I personally don't think you should kill yourself, but who am i to tell someone what to do with their life.
Both of those methods suck. i have met alot of attempted suicides well commited to the psych ward. one girl tried to od on asprin as you discribed and told me it was the most painfully thing she ever went through, at those doses asprin start to chew through your stomach lining. the old sucking down the exaust method only works with older cars, new cars don't emmit enough carbon monoxcide to do much more than give you a head ache. go with the tried and true- slash those wrist in a warm bath, or hang yourself properly- i.e. drop at least 10 feet, instant broken neck, possibly decapitation
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Combo of DMT+Lethal Dose of Heroin in a needle. It will feel so awesome to die.
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Dont think $100 will cut it bro, maybe chill save some more money, and if you still feel this way you'll have more money therefore more options. Who knows, you might even change your mind in this time and by a new playstation instead. But I'd be making sure I did it properly if I had no other options which means, wait some, save some money and see how you feel.
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This is bumming me out! I've been through some MAJOR shit and most people who go through the trauma I did either OD or blow their heads off. I thought about it seriously for almost 20 years. I too thought I was trapped and there was no way out. But then I accidentally OD'd and was dead for 20 minutes. The lifeflight helicopter landed and shut the engine off while they tried to resesitate me. They turned off the engine because they thought for sure I was gone and never coming back and they don't fly dead people. I can tell you when I woke up three days later I was cured of ever wanting to commit suicide. I was overcome with feelings of regret, shame and stupidity. It did more for me than 25 years of therapy. You don't realize how permanent that decision is for temporary problems until it's too late. Life ALWAYS changes and when you are hopeless at the bottom you can ONLY fall UP. So please hang on. Think of how disapointed people will be in you! It's really a cowardly way out. It's just giving up. Your memory will be one of shame and sadness. Someone once told me, "God's favorites have a hard time". You are not alone - ever. PM me if you want to talk.
near death experiences change you. perhaps your life WAS worthless untill you got that attitude adjustment. truly no shame in suicide , its just death and every one dies.
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Hi, teddy :)
How've you been?
Hugs to ya 8)
Chem
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Hello i want to kill myself but i'll not spend a penny over $100 dollars.
Srsly?
Why not get like 5 credit cards and max them out first?
Hell you could probably get a dozen, legally.
In all seriousness though, go to the closest mental health clinic get off the drugs and start therapy this week.
If you dont like your doctors find some you do, that do help you in what seems a dark personal period in your life.
It's the most painless way to kill the self you hate.
how do you get credit cards?
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Hi, teddy :)
How've you been?
Hugs to ya 8)
Chem
+1! Someone actually gets it!
OP, all you really need is an attitude adjustment. No matter how fucked up life is, or seems to be for most, you can always find someone else that has at least as many or more problems than you & have learned how get beyond them without being a whiner about it. Many go on to become huge inspirations to others & even some awesome motivational speakers. Check out http://www.ted.com/ stimulate your mind . . . remove it from the safe, warm, smelly environment & start expanding it & try to figure out how you can help someone else . . . make a difference in someone else's life. . . . don't make it all about you . . . many with far less tools have done far more . . . it's a simple choice
You can choose to change others lives by shifting your thinking from poor, poor, pitiful me to how can I change some outcomes.
NCK
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Hi, teddy :)
How've you been?
Hugs to ya 8)
Chem
+1! Someone actually gets it!
OP, all you really need is an attitude adjustment. No matter how fucked up life is, or seems to be for most, you can always find someone else that has at least as many or more problems than you & have learned how get beyond them without being a whiner about it. Many go on to become huge inspirations to others & even some awesome motivational speakers. Check out http://www.ted.com/ stimulate your mind . . . remove it from the safe, warm, smelly environment & start expanding it & try to figure out how you can help someone else . . . make a difference in someone else's life. . . . don't make it all about you . . . many with far less tools have done far more . . . it's a simple choice
You can choose to change others lives by shifting your thinking from poor, poor, pitiful me to how can I change some outcomes.
NCK
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Great advice from NCK I recommend you take it. But if you are set on killing yourself then I recommend using this: http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/silkroad/item/62806edf01
This is not a decision to be taken lightly. I know I'm a random from the internet but take my advice and read that book that comes with the cyanide. Also I would recommend reading the tibetan book of the dead.
It's your choice and your life but by me showing you how to kill yourself it also becomes my problem.... just promise you will read those books. If there's an afterlife I would love to have a conversation with you in about a hundred years. Don't forget me.
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friend do not do it!!!! just realize the damage on your brain that has the Television/ media done. You cant seriously believe that sex is the number 1 MUST rule in life. go fucking masturbate for fucks sake.
If you are from the guys that used to make fun of disabled people, and now you are one of them, and cant stand your self, please be my guest and die.
like all said, everyone has his ups and downs in life. you propably are too young to think with your own mind, see with your own eyes etc...
Being yourself is the coolest thing you can do in life... but you have to find him first, not to mimic a fucking character, or ending being a combination of characters.
Please, let time pass.
In anycase, go see a fucking doctor or something.
Oh, and have you tried salvia?? i really had a "near-death experience" and i never did salvia again, i got my lesson and was simple as that: You can be whatever you want in this life. You just need to take a decision.
So if you think that you would be more useful for yourself (u know, fuck the society), you could try find something that feels your empty time, and your spirit.
I think you should really start playing an instrument like guitar or sth. If the society will make you kill yourself, why dont you make the society kills itself instead?
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I'm physically retarded. Not mentally... My legs dont work, and I'll never have sex. High school was a living hell. College is sure to be hell as well. Ive wanted to kill myself for well over a year now.
The difference between you helping me and not helping me, is about 3 months time. In three months Ill be able to afford a shotgun and Ill shoot myself. If you help me now, youd act as a catalyst for whats already inevitable.
And for what its worth, Ive tried lsd, shrooms, and dmt. All very interesting, but didnt change my mind. Only enlightened me. My psychedelic use isnt really related to my suicide.
The line "High school was a living hell. College is sure to be hell as well." leads me to believe that you're fairly young, probably graduated from high school, somewhere from 18-20 maybe? Correct me if I'm wrong.
But if I'm right... dude. Why would you want to kill yourself right after the worst part of your life is over? High school fucking sucks, I thought about killing myself for a while too. It's full of assholes. Killing yourself now would be like starting a game of Monopoly and then rage quitting because your friend picked the racecar before you could (for anybody who isn't aware, the racecar is by far the best game piece).
I don't know what you mean by "physically retarded" but keep in mind that modern medicine is getting better all the time. About fifteen years ago my cousin was born severely mentally retarded, and they thought he would be confined to a wheelchair for his life, and that he would never be able to talk like a normal person. Fifteen years later he walks on his own and communicates with us greatly. His life is really hard, but god dammit that kid is so fucking awesome and manages to put a smile on his face every day.
In life you're going to meet people who won't give a shit about who you are physically. Those are the majority of people. There's always assholes, sure, but that's just an easy way to tell who to avoid. People care about your attitude. If you've got a shitty attitude that revolves around "my life sucks", people won't want to be friends with you. If you've got an awesome attitude that revolves around "it's a bummer my legs don't work but that's not going to stop me from living my life", then people will want to be around you, you'll make friends, and girls will be attracted to you. You just don't know this yet because you're young and kids are assholes so you've only been surrounded by assholes. Plus the fact that you're going to college is awesome, regardless of what type it is. Anybody in a college setting actually wants to be there, whereas nobody in high school wants to be there. So things are only going to get better from here.
So yeah, don't kill yourself. Unless you're a little bitch. But you're not a little bitch, you're a winner who's gonna say "fuck you life, I don't give a shit if my legs don't work, I can do whatever the fuck I want."
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I'm physically retarded. Not mentally... My legs dont work, and I'll never have sex. High school was a living hell. College is sure to be hell as well. Ive wanted to kill myself for well over a year now.
The difference between you helping me and not helping me, is about 3 months time. In three months Ill be able to afford a shotgun and Ill shoot myself. If you help me now, youd act as a catalyst for whats already inevitable.
And for what its worth, Ive tried lsd, shrooms, and dmt. All very interesting, but didnt change my mind. Only enlightened me. My psychedelic use isnt really related to my suicide.
The line "High school was a living hell. College is sure to be hell as well." leads me to believe that you're fairly young, probably graduated from high school, somewhere from 18-20 maybe? Correct me if I'm wrong.
But if I'm right... dude. Why would you want to kill yourself right after the worst part of your life is over? High school fucking sucks, I thought about killing myself for a while too. It's full of assholes. Killing yourself now would be like starting a game of Monopoly and then rage quitting because your friend picked the racecar before you could (for anybody who isn't aware, the racecar is by far the best game piece).
I don't know what you mean by "physically retarded" but keep in mind that modern medicine is getting better all the time. About fifteen years ago my cousin was born severely mentally retarded, and they thought he would be confined to a wheelchair for his life, and that he would never be able to talk like a normal person. Fifteen years later he walks on his own and communicates with us greatly. His life is really hard, but god dammit that kid is so fucking awesome and manages to put a smile on his face every day.
In life you're going to meet people who won't give a shit about who you are physically. Those are the majority of people. There's always assholes, sure, but that's just an easy way to tell who to avoid. People care about your attitude. If you've got a shitty attitude that revolves around "my life sucks", people won't want to be friends with you. If you've got an awesome attitude that revolves around "it's a bummer my legs don't work but that's not going to stop me from living my life", then people will want to be around you, you'll make friends, and girls will be attracted to you. You just don't know this yet because you're young and kids are assholes so you've only been surrounded by assholes. Plus the fact that you're going to college is awesome, regardless of what type it is. Anybody in a college setting actually wants to be there, whereas nobody in high school wants to be there. So things are only going to get better from here.
So yeah, don't kill yourself. Unless you're a little bitch. But you're not a little bitch, you're a winner who's gonna say "fuck you life, I don't give a shit if my legs don't work, I can do whatever the fuck I want."
2marijaunaman, yours and Cheetos life story read much like my own and I'm sure like many others. Don't let the demons in your mind win, because maybe it doesn't seem so but THERE is a light at the end of the tunnel and I'm not talking about the one you may or may not go down when you die. You need to clear your mind and really meditate about what life is all about, because it's not about others perception of your and it sure as hell isn't about money. Some of the happiest people I've even known in my life are broke as hell and come home smelling like shit everyday.
It's apparent that you are very young, if you haven't even experienced college yet, you have so much life to live and dont' even know what you are missing. I know the old arguement about who you will let down sucks and really doesn't mean shit when you are that low, and again like so many others, I've been there bro. But my life is better now that I could have ever imagined, great family, great job, more things to live for than I could have imagined and when I was your age I woudl told someone your a fucking liar if they told me I would have what I do now.
Not to mention just look at this forum. There are people here with such big hearts that just knowing you are fellow human wanting to end his life calls for them to reach out to you. And just think, if these strangers who don't even know you care, how much do the people who really know you care?
Bottom line is you need to clear you mind, get off whatever drugs you are on for now, and if you still really feel that way, get some help, even just a suicide line. Sometimes all we really need in this world is to know that someone cares, and believe me, those folks running those lines aren't there for money, they are there because they care and you will feel better.
And don't discount your life situation for love. I'm not the best looking fella IMO and scored a HOT ass women who was the biggest slut I ever knew and generally made my life hell. Kicked her ass to the curb and found me a thick one and she's straight out of heaven as far as I'm concerned.
She ain't exactly pretty
Ain't exactly small
Forty-two, thirty-nine, fifty-six
You could say she's got it all!
Keep hope alive!
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play world of warcraft and marry an elf
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Hi, teddy :)
How've you been?
Hugs to ya 8)
Chem
+1! Someone actually gets it!
OP, all you really need is an attitude adjustment. No matter how fucked up life is, or seems to be for most, you can always find someone else that has at least as many or more problems than you & have learned how get beyond them without being a whiner about it. Many go on to become huge inspirations to others & even some awesome motivational speakers. Check out http://www.ted.com/ stimulate your mind . . . remove it from the safe, warm, smelly environment & start expanding it & try to figure out how you can help someone else . . . make a difference in someone else's life. . . . don't make it all about you . . . many with far less tools have done far more . . . it's a simple choice
You can choose to change others lives by shifting your thinking from poor, poor, pitiful me to how can I change some outcomes.
NCK
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Great advice from NCK I recommend you take it. But if you are set on killing yourself then I recommend using this: http://silkroadvb5piz3r.onion/silkroad/item/62806edf01
This is not a decision to be taken lightly. I know I'm a random from the internet but take my advice and read that book that comes with the cyanide. Also I would recommend reading the tibetan book of the dead.
It's your choice and your life but by me showing you how to kill yourself it also becomes my problem.... just promise you will read those books. If there's an afterlife I would love to have a conversation with you in about a hundred years. Don't forget me.
Here's a PDF of the Tibetan Book of the dead **Clearnet warning**** http://www.holybooks.com/wp-content/uploads/The-Tibetan-Book-of-the-Dead.pdf
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Don't talk about it, be about it..... Pussy
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Your getting some good/bad and otherwise advice here which is to be expected. I cant tell you how much most of the forum members want to be able to get a message through to you and in our own way we are all trying. We really are. But a title like this thread has will also attract non constructive advice (I have been guilty of this in the past).
Some of the posts in this thread use humor or similar experiences but everyone really does give a shit in their own way. I might be wrong but It feels as if guys like Pillfire, cheeto and jethro are speaking your language and have all had a very genuine concern for your welfare, perhaps read over their posts again if you are still reading this thread.
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There's one chance bro, no rehearsals or practice rounds, just one chance to make the most of what you have and do your best to live a full and happy life. I can't imagine how hard it is for you and to be honest your story has caused me to shed a tear. I don't think I would be the only one either. I'd say I'd be 20 years older but it seems like yesterday and I still remember. I didn't have an easy time as a young man either but there's enough good examples of that here without me needing to add mine. But mate I remember the feelings and it's real and I'm certainly not saying what your feeling is not. But I can also promise you that a lot of the things contributing to your feelings right now become so much less important as you get older. To the point where the focus of your life completely shifts from what is now to a totally different area which is difficult to explain, I know many a parent or mentor for young people have tried. The good news is this all starts for you now, your stage in life will be fast moving, people around you will grow up and so will you.
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You are the answer your looking for and you are here right now and I reckon for a pretty good reason. I hate religion, and I don't believe in god but I have a very strong belief in a universal energy we all share. You don't have to find it or wait for it mate, its already inside you and I think your about to find out how this life you've been given is pretty cool and how strong you are as a man. Don't disappear on us will you? drop a post and say gday < although we might only use this in Australia. Just say whatever it is you say in your country, that'll be fine. I feel like I should finish with a song but it's hard in an post.. ok just a few lines....
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You only get just one time around
You only get one shot at this
One chance to find out the one thing that you don't wanna miss
One day when it's all said and done
I hope you see that it was enough
This one ride, one try, one life to love
-33miles-
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1. A large dose of dilaudid or morphine substantial enough to cause severe respiratory depression (Uncut Heroin works too)
2. large dose of benzos (Valium or Phenobarb)
3. Carbon Monoxide poisoning, you just kinda drift off to sleep. (run the car in the garage.)
DON'T
1. Hang yourself
2. Shoot yourself in the temple or anywhere else that might leave the brainstem intact and you a retarded vegetable.
3. Use aspirin or tylenol. It's a long painful death over months after killing off your liver
4. Cut yourself
I'm not saying to hurt yourself. But if you do it and no one can stop you then do it right. My best suggestion is that you ask for help. I understand your predicament and I often wonder what I would do if dealt those cards. I'd probably lock myself in the garage with a running car and a full tank of gas or the benzos. CO poisoning is pretty much irreversible unless the paramedics find you quick. Benzos and opiates can be reversed with enough Narcan or Romazicon. If I had access to Propofol I might try that. A big enough dose will kill you peacefully. Just remember your family will be destroyed over it and feel guilty. Don't do that to them.
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Well Im still alive... on mood stabilizers which DONT help since going to the hospital... but Ive decided to live because, well theres a battle raging between hope and despair, and hope is putting up a good fight for an underdog.
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Well Im still alive... on mood stabilizers which DONT help since going to the hospital... but Ive decided to live because, well theres a battle raging between hope and despair, and hope is putting up a good fight for an underdog.
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Good! Now it's tome to go back & re-read
NCK
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Well Im still alive... on mood stabilizers which DONT help since going to the hospital... but Ive decided to live because, well theres a battle raging between hope and despair, and hope is putting up a good fight for an underdog.
Hey 2MM,
I'll chime in and say I'm glad you've decided not to put yourself down. I'm sure there's plenty of peeps on here that have considered or even tried to kill themselves. There are shitty situations and a lot of people seek out drugs to try and make their situation less shitty. I only know a bit of your story (what you've said) and sure it's tough but what relief will come from death? We don't know. It's possible to get a bit of a better life while alive though: maybe travel -- even if you got to catch rides across the country -- and leave everything you can behind. Some things you can't escape but then you can try to find people: there's websites to find people to talk to and meet up with who share thoughts/beliefs/hobbies like yours.
If nothing ever works suicide can always be a solution you put back on the table but there are so many other things that you can try before then and once you try suicide you can't put anything else back on the table to try.
That's what I always tell myself anyways.
Cheers,
Snoopish
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Well Im still alive... on mood stabilizers which DONT help since going to the hospital... but Ive decided to live because, well theres a battle raging between hope and despair, and hope is putting up a good fight for an underdog.
I knew you weren't a little bitch! Glad you're still here. PM me whenever if you need anything.