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Title: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: outoftime20 on August 24, 2012, 02:07 pm
One weekago today I suffered through the most horrific mxe overdose. I had about 900mg in a bag. I started with a couple xanax bars and some weed. Then I thought, lets try some mxe. So I did a normal amount and for some reason it didn't feel normal at all - Instead of feeling good my mind felt warped; insane. I was so clueless I decided to swallow the whole bag. From here, I sort of blacked out in a semi-conscious, torturous state of mind. I was suddenly suicidal. I kept smoking weed to feel better, even that didnt work. I flushed my system with water but it nothing would hydrate me, not matter how much I drank. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to explode in my chest. I was convinced this is it - I thought about seeing a girl at my school who had recently committed suicide in the afterlife, and was tripping really really hard. I went in and out of consciousness all friday and saturday. Sunday was when the paranoia, anxiety and torture REALLY kicked in. I still wasnt down and felt insane. I begged my parents to take me to the hospital. I went into a panic attack and started convulsing and crying - If I remember correctly one of the assistants laughed when I said what I took. They drew blood and gave me some IV fluids. Finally I felt hydrated, but still high in a very bad way. They released me a few hours later and said I'd recover. I believe I have because I've had no lasting effects - but I'llnever again fuck with research chemicals of any kind. Any drug use at all scares me and I have a sort of flashback - very terrifying. Tis was a life changing experience for the better. The only drug that doesnt send me into a panic attack now is opiates.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: lovestotrip on August 24, 2012, 02:37 pm
its strange what benzos can do when mixed with other stuff  damn
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Joey Terrifying on August 24, 2012, 03:16 pm
sorry to say, but you sound like kind of an idiot. 

first, "a couple of xanax bars" is a fucking lot of xanax.  i can't imagine what made you think to combine a 2 year old research drug with that much of a benzo.
second, why the fuck would you swallow 900mg of MXE????  dude, thats fucking insane.  you felt "not good" and "insane" and then decided to take the whole bag?  what the fuck is wrong with you?
third, you live with your parents???  are you in high school?  get a life, kid...sitting in your parents' basement doing hard drugs is a rather pathetic image to paint.
fourth, this statement: "Tis was a life changing experience for the better. The only drug that doesnt send me into a panic attack now is opiates." made me throw up in my mouth a little.  have fun turning into a junkie.

have you thought about getting into martial arts, or even military training?  it sounds like you have absolutely no sense of self-discipline.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: outoftime20 on August 24, 2012, 04:37 pm
sorry to say, but you sound like kind of an idiot. 

first, "a couple of xanax bars" is a fucking lot of xanax.  i can't imagine what made you think to combine a 2 year old research drug with that much of a benzo.
second, why the fuck would you swallow 900mg of MXE????  dude, thats fucking insane.  you felt "not good" and "insane" and then decided to take the whole bag?  what the fuck is wrong with you?
third, you live with your parents???  are you in high school?  get a life, kid...sitting in your parents' basement doing hard drugs is a rather pathetic image to paint.
fourth, this statement: "Tis was a life changing experience for the better. The only drug that doesnt send me into a panic attack now is opiates." made me throw up in my mouth a little.  have fun turning into a junkie.

have you thought about getting into martial arts, or even military training?  it sounds like you have absolutely no sense of self-discipline.
I'm actually preparing to enter a highly respected carreer field but I want to stay anonymous. At this point all I do is study and workout but I do have a drug problem...
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: lovestotrip on August 24, 2012, 04:49 pm
joey stfu lmao who cares where he lives you sound like a keyboard warrior kid get real.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: snipeemfl0 on August 24, 2012, 05:16 pm
You sound like a fucking idiot. No offense, but how do you manage to take 900 mg!?!?!?!?

Did you research it at all? What in the sam hell was the idea of taking 9x the recommended dosage. Also, xanax is a bad idea at any peak/before trip experience. I took 3mg of xanax at the peak of a MDA trip/roll and only went into a fully delusional state.

Don't mix drugs unless you are 100% sure what the combo will do to you.

It is stupid behavior like this that causes us to get drugs banned.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: lovestotrip on August 24, 2012, 05:22 pm
oh no negative rep my life is so over now you guys
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: mito on August 24, 2012, 06:49 pm
Darwin comes to mind..........
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Kundalini95 on August 24, 2012, 07:03 pm
Is that you Moonbear? :D
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: chil on August 24, 2012, 07:56 pm
Darwin comes to mind..........

This guy deserves a Darwin Award   ;D

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Darwin_Awards
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: krigger on August 24, 2012, 08:39 pm
I know exactly how you feel. MXE is a weird drug. In my experience, people either love it or hate it. I hate it.

MXE makes me stupid and question every aspect of my life in a negative way. And it makes me go to alien hell, which isn't very fun. I felt like I was dead while in an M-hole. I think part of it is that I have an anxious-type of personality, so I kind of freak out on MXE. Each time I tried it, all I wanted is for the trip to be over.

Now ketamine? I love me some k!
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: JForce on August 24, 2012, 08:43 pm
I know exactly how you feel. MXE is a weird drug. In my experience, people either love it or hate it. I hate it.

MXE makes me stupid and question every aspect of my life in a negative way. And it makes me go to alien hell, which isn't very fun. I felt like I was dead while in an M-hole. I think part of it is that I have an anxious-type of personality, so I kind of freak out on MXE. Each time I tried it, all I wanted is for the trip to be over.

Now ketamine? I love me some k!

Exactly my thoughts.. although I did like MXE for the CEV's.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Joey Terrifying on August 24, 2012, 08:44 pm
I know exactly how you feel. MXE is a weird drug. In my experience, people either love it or hate it. I hate it.

MXE makes me stupid and question every aspect of my life in a negative way. And it makes me go to alien hell, which isn't very fun. I felt like I was dead while in an M-hole. I think part of it is that I have an anxious-type of personality, so I kind of freak out on MXE. Each time I tried it, all I wanted is for the trip to be over.


how much did you take?

i personally find that with MXE, "less is more"
not the same with ketamine
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Adrianexi on August 24, 2012, 09:41 pm
One weekago today I suffered through the most horrific mxe overdose. I had about 900mg in a bag. I started with a couple xanax bars and some weed. Then I thought, lets try some mxe. So I did a normal amount and for some reason it didn't feel normal at all - Instead of feeling good my mind felt warped; insane. I was so clueless I decided to swallow the whole bag. From here, I sort of blacked out in a semi-conscious, torturous state of mind. I was suddenly suicidal. I kept smoking weed to feel better, even that didnt work. I flushed my system with water but it nothing would hydrate me, not matter how much I drank. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to explode in my chest. I was convinced this is it - I thought about seeing a girl at my school who had recently committed suicide in the afterlife, and was tripping really really hard. I went in and out of consciousness all friday and saturday. Sunday was when the paranoia, anxiety and torture REALLY kicked in. I still wasnt down and felt insane. I begged my parents to take me to the hospital. I went into a panic attack and started convulsing and crying - If I remember correctly one of the assistants laughed when I said what I took. They drew blood and gave me some IV fluids. Finally I felt hydrated, but still high in a very bad way. They released me a few hours later and said I'd recover. I believe I have because I've had no lasting effects - but I'llnever again fuck with research chemicals of any kind. Any drug use at all scares me and I have a sort of flashback - very terrifying. Tis was a life changing experience for the better. The only drug that doesnt send me into a panic attack now is opiates.

I feel you man, I have only tried MXE once, accidentally when I thought it was Ketamine. Since after 500mg i wasnt K-holed i thought it was cut, so i took another 500mg. A whole gram of that shit left me tripping till the next day evening, the morning after taking it i had to get home somehow, it was the most depressing journey home i had in my life. Everything was grey and dull, especially with our London's weather it went like a perfect suicidal time. I somehow managed to get home walking like a penguin around, jumped in my bed still in my clothes and hoped it will be over soon. Never going to touch that shit again, I know you are not supposed to take this much but I thought it was ket...
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: outoftime20 on August 24, 2012, 09:43 pm
Darwin comes to mind..........

This guy deserves a Darwin Award   ;D

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Darwin_Awards
That site is kind of fucked up, making jokes out of people ending up in horrible situations and get themselves killed, what they did doesnt describe them as a person
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: chil on August 24, 2012, 10:36 pm
I know exactly how you feel. MXE is a weird drug. In my experience, people either love it or hate it. I hate it.

MXE makes me stupid and question every aspect of my life in a negative way.

Me too. I took 80 mg, never been so bored, whether on drugs or not. Short term memory fucked up, and the only few thoughts I had in 3 hours (?) were pretty negative, like suicidal thoughts and contemplating the supposed emptiness of life. And I wasn't depressed at the time or anything, it was just the MXE. Plus, on the comedown, it felt toxic in my body.

I've been recently experimenting with low doses (5-20), much better. 
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: chil on August 24, 2012, 10:39 pm
Darwin comes to mind..........

This guy deserves a Darwin Award   ;D

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Darwin_Awards
That site is kind of fucked up, making jokes out of people ending up in horrible situations and get themselves killed, what they did doesnt describe them as a person

I understand you don't think it's funny. And yes, what they did does describe them as a person: it shows how stupid they can be.

Quit drugs, brother. You just can't handle them.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: harryanslinger on August 24, 2012, 10:48 pm
MXE can be pretty dose sensitive, huh. (I recognize 900 mg is a massive overdose) I found myself in an mxe hole far more confusing than any k hole I've had. That effect lasted 8 hours. This was all from an insufflated dose that filled up the recessed filter on a Parliament cigarette.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: outoftime20 on August 25, 2012, 02:00 am
Would it be a good idea to try ketamine if i despice mxe?
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: JForce on August 25, 2012, 02:07 am
Would it be a good idea to try ketamine if i despice mxe?

Ketamine will show you the light :)

Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: harryanslinger on August 25, 2012, 06:21 am
Dissociation is about where the similarities end between Ketamine and Methoxetamine. MXE lasts four times as long, the drip is pretty heinous, and it's much more confusing. I've found ketamine to be more euphoric and more drunken feeling, but also a bit moreish. It's hard to put down when it's around, but most dissociatives tend to be that way.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: mito on August 26, 2012, 09:08 pm
I was thinking, 900mg would have sent you straight to ER in a coma.

Are you sure you didn't end up in ER?

People trip hard with less than 50mg of MXE (oral or nasal).


Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: outoftime20 on August 27, 2012, 03:03 am
I was thinking, 900mg would have sent you straight to ER in a coma.

Are you sure you didn't end up in ER?

People trip hard with less than 50mg of MXE (oral or nasal).
Yes, but only after being passed out for 2 days did i get to the ER
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Johnson92aL on August 27, 2012, 06:01 am
I'm sorry that you're a complete moron.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: mito on August 27, 2012, 10:12 am
I was thinking, 900mg would have sent you straight to ER in a coma.

Are you sure you didn't end up in ER?

People trip hard with less than 50mg of MXE (oral or nasal).
Yes, but only after being passed out for 2 days did i get to the ER

So what happened during those two days after you ingested almost 1gr of MXE?
Did you pass out in your bed or couch?
Were you alone?
No one called 911?

Did you wake up with a headache?
No brain damage or anything?

Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: 12345 on August 27, 2012, 11:15 am
no fucking way I believe this. Come on 900mg of MXE?!?!?! 

YOU SHOULD BE DEAD!

and yes this is the way to go if you want the Darwin Award ....   Oh my goodness the stupidity of people obv. knows no limits...  :o

and on a side note, if you want to commit suicide then take opiates or a gun but a disso?!?! wtf.... sad SR-World this is. 


EDIT:  Darvin Award = Darwin Award
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: mito on August 27, 2012, 11:21 am
this is what I believe you experienced while under the effect of 1gr of MXE

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wernicke%E2%80%93Korsakoff_syndrome

your brain basically shut down.

Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: CX on August 27, 2012, 09:58 pm
900mg is just down right insane and ignorant. FFS people research your doses and drugs...

Here's my experience on around 150mg

Entering the vibrational platue.

I was bored one night and decided to try, what, in retrospect was a large to very large amount of MXE. I was hoping it would help me get to sleep. Boy was I wrong.

This was my second time taking mxe. I really underestimated the purity and the power of this chemical.

Around 9:30 I took around 100mg followed by another 50mg approximately, eyeballed. Possibly more. (Snuffulated)

Given that this stuff takes a relatively long time to come up on I was unwise in redosing and have definitely learnt a valuable lesson and gained a strong
respect for this compound. Be patient, let it work. It will work.

So it's coming on, everything has a very sci-fi feel to it, what's that buzzing? How could anyone sleep with all that buzzing. All the multicolored lights from the computer components in my room give me a very space age feeling. There's a cool, calm, weightlessness to everything, this is incredible. I have a great sense of well being and euphoria.
I feel as though I have a profound purpose on this planet, and everything that has happened to me in my life has happened for a reason, to shape me into the person I will become and am meant to be, I feel profound purpose.
Please know that I am Agnostic in my view of religion and spirituality but this experience has given me a hope that everything will be OK like I've never had before.

I spend about an hour drawing but keep coming up and up. Eventually I am unable to draw as the feeling is becoming very intense.
I have to close my eyes and ride it. I allow myself to be taken, I know that trying to fight it would be unwise.

I keep coming up still more, I'm beginning to get slightly afraid. I don't know if my eyes are open or shut. There is no contrast, the hallucinations are so real. I turn off my light, BOOM!
I'm getting warped through all kinds of wonderful places and abstract realities. I remember getting to a place where I feel as though I am in contact with a god or gods, beings of pure light and energy and either dying or dead, this feeling is fleeting and comes and goes. The more I embrace it the more fearful I am I will not come back from it. I am cautious not to stay in this place for too long.

It's difficult to describe all the places and incredible things. It was organized chaos, like a tsunami of objects, things, feelings and thoughts crashing in, on, and around
each other, churning to form an incredible storm of vivid imagery in the minds eye.
I spent a lot of time flying through the universe, visiting other plains of existence, odd dimensions, witnessing unfathomable things. I must of been a drooling mass in the corner of my bed in reality, but in my mind I was a journeyman, traveling through the unseen, plotting the unexplored parts of a rarely seen realm.

At its most intense point I was able to break through like what seemed the roof of my existence where I was met by an energy or presence not unsimilar to the other beings, but more profound. It held no physical form, it was warm, pure loving energy.
I felt its calmness and sense of perfect being or existence. I asked it for help, now thinking that I had gone insane or retarded myself as I was unable to pull myself out of this place.
I felt I was schizophrenic in some sense of the word, I probably was.( I had been watching HBO OZ earlier that day and was having moments where I thought I had become Cyril O'reilly)
The energy seemed to care about me, it embraced me,  reminding me of my mothers hug. It didn't talk, but we understood each other.
It poured into me and gave me its love and a sense that everything was going to be alright.

I kept reminding myself everything would be alright and that it would end. Eventually it did.


This happened over the course of 6-8 hours I theorize, but felt like much longer, more like lifetimes.
I don't remember ever checking what time it was. Time was not relevant in my strange lucid, drug induced, sleep deprived state.
I'm sure trying to grasp the concept of time or even looking at a clock would of been completely lost on me.

I awoke at 12am the next day. With a mild headache and slightly dilated pupils, both symptoms subsided soon after waking.

Anyhow, I am glad to be back and have been left with a new sense of wonder in all things. I also appreciate life a lot more since I feel I came to the brink of destruction.
I was quite sure I was dying at points in the trip and was honestly really scared and curious all the same.

Also please note walking was quite difficult if not almost impossible as I could feel every muscle expand and contract and they all seemed to want to work independently with a mind of there own. I may of pissed all over the bathroom floor.

The fact that I turned the lights off and denied myself of outside stimulation I'm sure added a hell of a lot to the feeling of losing my mind and overall intensity of everything.

This is brief summary or the more indenting parts which I can recall. For my own well being and reflection. I hope others may gain something from it as well.

Life is magic, flowing through us...
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: CaptainTrips on August 27, 2012, 10:29 pm
"a couple of xanax bars" ...... the Darwin Awards thing made me laugh out loud  ::)
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: mito on August 28, 2012, 01:51 pm
... I remember getting to a place where I feel as though I am in contact with a god or gods, beings of pure light and energy and either dying or dead, this feeling is fleeting and comes and goes.

It's difficult to describe all the places and incredible things.

I felt the exact same thing.

In the beginning I was scared, but I immediately realized it was a nice and cozy M-hole.

The problem is that lately I've been building quite a tolerance to MXE, so reaching M-holes is dangerous because you need to increase the MXE dose everytime.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: outoftime20 on August 28, 2012, 02:04 pm
I've since decided to quit all drugs except weed. I've had plenty of psychs and other shit for awhile. But ketamine was the only one I didnt try, am I missing out? Should I try this drug if I can do it in a mature way? If its anything like MXE though I dont want to. Can anyone explain what its like in the most detailed way you can? Thank you.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Budtender01 on August 28, 2012, 02:37 pm
One weekago today I suffered through the most horrific mxe overdose. I had about 900mg in a bag. I started with a couple xanax bars and some weed. Then I thought, lets try some mxe. So I did a normal amount and for some reason it didn't feel normal at all - Instead of feeling good my mind felt warped; insane. I was so clueless I decided to swallow the whole bag. From here, I sort of blacked out in a semi-conscious, torturous state of mind. I was suddenly suicidal. I kept smoking weed to feel better, even that didnt work. I flushed my system with water but it nothing would hydrate me, not matter how much I drank. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to explode in my chest. I was convinced this is it - I thought about seeing a girl at my school who had recently committed suicide in the afterlife, and was tripping really really hard. I went in and out of consciousness all friday and saturday. Sunday was when the paranoia, anxiety and torture REALLY kicked in. I still wasnt down and felt insane. I begged my parents to take me to the hospital. I went into a panic attack and started convulsing and crying - If I remember correctly one of the assistants laughed when I said what I took. They drew blood and gave me some IV fluids. Finally I felt hydrated, but still high in a very bad way. They released me a few hours later and said I'd recover. I believe I have because I've had no lasting effects - but I'llnever again fuck with research chemicals of any kind. Any drug use at all scares me and I have a sort of flashback - very terrifying. Tis was a life changing experience for the better. The only drug that doesnt send me into a panic attack now is opiates.

Soooooo.....I'll be THAT guy!  Hey OP, so in another thread you just posted you ask "is it bad to do drugs all day everyday?"
You say you sit around smoking weed all day and have no friends while your family shuns you.
Felt kinda bad for you as a fellow pot smoker.

Then, I come and see this thread. Stay off the crazy mxe binges and opiates and shit might be ok.

You pretty much answer your own question if you look hard enough.

Peace
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: mito on August 28, 2012, 02:45 pm
I've since decided to quit all drugs except weed. I've had plenty of psychs and other shit for awhile. But ketamine was the only one I didnt try, am I missing out? Should I try this drug if I can do it in a mature way? If its anything like MXE though I dont want to. Can anyone explain what its like in the most detailed way you can? Thank you.

Do not give up on MXE yet.

Try a tiny small bump, like 10mg.

Sit on couch and relax, get comfy.

MXE is a gift from our almighty God, may he be blessed.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: lovestotrip on August 28, 2012, 04:41 pm
yeah mxe is great but dont go any higher then 100mg at a time
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: 12345 on August 28, 2012, 05:43 pm
yeah mxe is great but dont go any higher then 100mg at a time

I would not even got this far. I tried salvia first and only once. This "holing drugs" scare me.
Moxie is nice at 25mg oral and 2 beer. Ket I sniff 20-35mg lines til I have enough.

But up to this point I am not ready for DMT or any hole trip.

P.S. Salvia is the only drug I flushed down the toilet, ever.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Joey Terrifying on August 28, 2012, 11:01 pm


P.S. Salvia is the only drug I flushed down the toilet, ever.

haha!!

thats too bad.  i owe my greatest powers of wizardry and greatest amount of occult knowledge to salvia.  i wouldn't have recommended that you do it in the first place, but since you already have and got scared to your core, i'll suggest that you should do it again in order to conquer your fear.  scaring myself shitless on salvia and then working up the balls to do it again was the most empowering thing I've ever done.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: sourman on August 29, 2012, 01:56 pm
Darwin comes to mind..........

This guy deserves a Darwin Award   ;D

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Darwin_Awards
That site is kind of fucked up, making jokes out of people ending up in horrible situations and get themselves killed, what they did doesnt describe them as a person

Gotta love insecure, condescending narcissists that make light of freak accidents by assuming that they are somehow superior to the victim because it didn't happen to them. Just because it didn't up to that point, doesn't mean that you won't go out in a silly way eventually. Everyone makes stupid mistakes, and these conceited know it alls probably make enough small ones throughout their lifetime to equal several darwin awards. At least the guy who died a funny death only earned one.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: SpaceAce on August 29, 2012, 04:01 pm
Fuccccckkk mxe. Too many kids selling it as ketamine at festivals.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Joey Terrifying on August 29, 2012, 04:23 pm
Fuccccckkk mxe. Too many kids selling it as ketamine at festivals.

so glad i don't have to buy drugs at festivals anymore

thank you silk road!!!!
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: DarTarus on August 30, 2012, 10:30 pm
I combined DOB (2x) and a hit of LSD with a few bumps of MXE one night and wound up having the most bizarre experience of my entire drug career

I was watching "My Name is Earl" and came to the distinct conclusion that the entire show was a giant metaphor aimed at me specifically and was communicating to me about where I am in my life NOW

Started to panic a bit at one point when I really thought I was going to die.....but made it through that bit

Later, when I laid down I had the most bizarre series of hallucinations where I felt like I had honestly found my way into a neurological "network" designed by the government and only accessible by using MXE.......I had a vision of 'memories being made' by these circuit chip looking components ..... I walked through a workshop that was inside my head where memories were made/assembled BEFORE they happened and everyone in "The Plant" was expecting me as I walked inside......I realized time was Spherical and was told (patiently as I recall) that many people knew this and it was just my time to learn of these things.....

I actually saw individual units of glowing green circuit cards and as I gazed on them I felt FRAGMENTS of the larger memories they composed.....these were MY memories and I was shown how they were assembled and put together

Strangest thing I ever felt and have never been "back there" with MXE since

(also have not mixed it with LSD and DOB since)

Agree what others have said about low doses of MXE being very nice

Reminds me of mild PCP at lower doses......
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Joey Terrifying on August 30, 2012, 11:28 pm
dooood, thats fuckin crazy!  thanks for sharing.

i have yet to combine MXE with any psychedelics, but you've piqued my interest...
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: mito on August 31, 2012, 11:04 am

I was watching "My Name is Earl" and came to the distinct conclusion that the entire show was a giant metaphor aimed at me specifically and was communicating to me about where I am in my life NOW

lol!!!

the same happened to me but under K, I started watching the movie Immortals while inside a deep K-hole.

I thought the actors were performing right in front of me and looking at me once in a while, like it was my own private theater or something.

Really weird and a bit scary, but fun nonetheless!

Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: Opiofile on September 02, 2012, 06:05 am
I smoked some DMT while on MXE and it was insane.

I felt the pure oneness of the universe and everything, but it started as an energy at the base of my spine and then it shot straight up to my pineal gland which exploded with the most godly euphoric energy feeling that was like 1000x better than an orgasm on ecstasy.

I couldn't move/talk/do anything while this happened, I just felt that I was one with everything and that I had touched the small piece of god(cosmic consciousness) that was inside me, and connected to everything else in the cosmos.

It was miraculous. Have yet to do the combo again.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: outoftime20 on September 02, 2012, 06:14 pm
I may have been one of th frist people to expierence such an overose. Looking back it was an intense mistake. I am on ketamine right now and feel better. i realize that I'll never be happy without weed,  and that i need to get my life together. If I cant get a girlfriend and a job within 6 months, I'll' inject heroin and ketamine and kill myself. at least I wont be feeling any pain after that happens...

But yeah, the guy who posted above is right, I just get high in my basement all the time. I'm tired of this. I've explored my mind plenty, I've tried just about every drug on this site....

Where do I go from here? igh on ketamine in my basement. I've fucked up my head beyond belief. I've overdosed on so many different drugs until I pass out because my goal is to be unconscious, unfeeling, Cause my life is too painful. To my family I'm like that half-dead ghoul who lives in the basement who is almost always 'asleep'
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: anex45 on September 10, 2012, 03:20 am
I may have been one of th frist people to expierence such an overose. Looking back it was an intense mistake. I am on ketamine right now and feel better. i realize that I'll never be happy without weed,  and that i need to get my life together. If I cant get a girlfriend and a job within 6 months, I'll' inject heroin and ketamine and kill myself. at least I wont be feeling any pain after that happens...

But yeah, the guy who posted above is right, I just get high in my basement all the time. I'm tired of this. I've explored my mind plenty, I've tried just about every drug on this site....

Where do I go from here? igh on ketamine in my basement. I've fucked up my head beyond belief. I've overdosed on so many different drugs until I pass out because my goal is to be unconscious, unfeeling, Cause my life is too painful. To my family I'm like that half-dead ghoul who lives in the basement who is almost always 'asleep'

I'm sorry to hear you feel that way about your life but just hang in there and it will get better. Trust me, I know that feeling...I had been IVing heroin daily for 8 years and had some of the lowest days of my life during that time, and then I lost both of my jobs due to some felony arrests and lost my apartment because of spending so much on heroin. 3 years later and I'm doing much better, I still occasionally use every few months but I now look forward to things in my life and have met some new friends that I know are there for me. I did a lot of fucked up things when I was younger but once I grew older I kinda grew out of it all and started appreciating the small things in life if that makes sense.

Just hang in there man!
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: AnOn.edu on September 10, 2012, 04:18 am
I've explored my mind plenty, I've tried just about every drug on this site....

You actually make a great point here.  All psych's, especially Shrooms and LSD, are fantastic as a tool to understand perception and the deeper reality, including your place in it.  The key here is that you actually need to be perceiving things, you need to actually be engaged with reality to be able to dig into the deeper depths of it and your perception of it.  I love psych's but to use them just to explore your mind, and not your mind's relation to the other is a path to either insanity, by spending WAY too much time in your own head, or simple sadness.  How are you going to open the doors of perception when you're really not perceiving anything. 

I've overdosed on so many different drugs until I pass out because my goal is to be unconscious, unfeeling, Cause my life is too painful. To my family I'm like that half-dead ghoul who lives in the basement who is almost always 'asleep'

I feel you man, but there is a way out and I'm not talking about rehab (though if you're too far along the H highway that might be needed).  You need to get out of your own head and familiar surroundings.  Go buy a plane ticket to Peru, or Equator, or Kenya, live out of a cheap run down hostel and volunteer at a clinic.  Don't OD yourself into oblivion but rather go and do something radical, totally outside your comfort zone and your own limited reality.  Then come back and enjoy your drugs until you start getting down.  Rinse, lather and repeat.
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: duffzilla on September 10, 2012, 09:32 am
I know what you mean about the benzos first.

A few nights ago i took 4mg and smoked some weed, then went through my stash.

For the next few hours i vaped 2-300mg of nn dmt and 250mg 5-meo-dmt. Mixing the 2 together with scales at first then just eyeballing.
To no disastrous effect, but i still know where you're coming from ;D
Title: Re: A horrific MXE overdose - never again. This is a warning
Post by: carlos guachiturro on September 11, 2012, 04:31 am
First time I've ever posted on the internet but the suicide line compelled me to say something. Try cannabidiol (CBD) if you have access to a high cbd strain of weed: antidepressant, antipsychotic, anti anxiety etc etc Also very good for all types of addiction, be it alcohol, heroin, meth. You've tried everything else under the sun how bout some happiness, can't OD on that.