In short: I ordered 100mg of Alprazolam from JunoTempleh, a vendor with very positive reviews who sells on darknet markets. I had never used alprazolam before but since other benzos (lorazepam, diazepam) sedate me, I expected this benzo to sedate me too. Main goal was to get to sleep after stimulant use, since Phenibut doesn't work that good anymore. Dosed around 50mg alprazolam in 2 days but didn't really get desired effects. Not sure if I should be angry at the seller or if I should be happy I'm still alive. Very confused.
The story in detail: I opened the package and eyeballed half of the pack (which was 100mg, so about 50mg alprazolam) in a 50cl water bottle and shook it to get a mixture of 1mg alprazolam/ml. With a marker, I put "XANAX" on it. Weighed out 10ml (=1mg) with a cough syrup measuring cup, took it sublingual for 2 minutes and then I swallowed it. Waited 30 minutes, didn't really feel anything. Dosed another 2mg and waited 30 minutes. My mood didn't change. Actually, I was not really anxious - I was just energetic before dosing and that didn't change after the dose. Just experimenting with alprazolam because I never tried this benzo. This all was around 10pm in the morning and I had to go to school in the evening. Everything was okay.
That evening, I went out partying. Before I went out, I shook the bottle and took 5mg Alprazolam and 2 grams of Phenibut (I always take this when going out). It's weird to say, but I think I felt some effects from the Alprazolam. I say think because the only effect I got was that I had some difficulties to remember the names of people I didn't see a long time ago. Went home by bike 5am, remember the people I saw there, woke op 12am and felt okay.
The evening after that I went out again and I skipped the alprazolam before going out because it seemed like it didn't work. Took 2g Phenibut, along with a 200mg MDMA capsule and 60mg methylphenidate around 10pm Talked a lot (too much lol), had a good time. Went home 6am by train and really couldn't sleep. For me it's 'normal' that I can't sleep the night when I take stimulants - this is actually the reason I ordered alprazolam... The reason I can't sleep is that I still have to much energy and I can't lay still (so it's not because I'm anxious). So what I did, I measured out 7.5mg alprazolam, together with 400mg magnesium, hoping it would knock me out. Checked facebook for 45 mins, didn't become sleepy, I laid in bed for 15 mins after that, lights out, but couldn't sleep. Good news: my crash from the mdma & methylphenidate was relieved and I definitely felt something, but it was uplifting instead of sedating. So desperate as I was, I drank the rest of the 50cl bottle - this must have been around 34.5mg alprazolam. Along with 100mg 5-htp, green tea extract and a glass of wine. Laid in bed and I instantly slept (around 9am). I remember having VERY vivid nightmares, I had nightmares about real life situations who could happen to me, saw my room (not sure if my eyes were open or if this was in my dreams) saw myself laying in bed, sleep paralysis, really weird. Couldn't move when I wanted to wake up. Now that's nothing special for me since I used MDMA 4 times in the last two months and this is a known side effect of 5-HTP. Woke up without alarm around 6pm. Felt foggy, but was not extreme. Took a cap of 20mg Equasym (methylphenidate extended release). I never take this, but since I was tired and had this laying around I took this.
Typing this now at around 3am next day. Didn't take any of the alprazolam. I took 5-htp, Acetyl-tyrosine, vitamin/mineral supplement with rhodiola, green tea extract and my 2g Phenibut when I woke up. I feel a little stimulated now... Also a bit paranoid to go to sleep, afraid of having sleep paralysis again.
SOOOO... A very long story only to tell that the alprazolam I got didn't work...
Of course I have a lot of questions...
Is Phenibut cross tolerant with benzos? If yes, is it possible that a 3 year Phenibut habit (sometimes 1 gram a day, sometimes 5 grams a day) causes a benzo tolerance like this? Huh? EDIT: not possible, because benzos like lorazepam and diazepam work in low doses for me
- Has JunoTempleh sent me a wrong powder?
- Can these supplements block the effect?
o 5-HTP (50mg a day, at night)
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o Acetyl-L-Tyrosine (150mg a day, in the morning)
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o Vitamin/mineral supplement with low dose rhodiola and ginseng (every morning)
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o Beta-Alanine, a GABA reuptake inhibitor. I took this from july 2016 until end of October to taper from 5grams Phenibut to 2grams. But this 'beta-alanine' has a half life of 3 weeks or something. Could this have something to do with it?
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o Ibuprofen (600mg, only took this once for my sore throat)
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- Does it have something to do with the liver, because I see alprazolam is converted by CYP enzymes in the liver, is this the case with all benzos?
Does alprazolam lose effect when you put it in water? There was no white powder at the bottom of the bottle, I have shaken it enough.
Are the effects of Alprazolam that weak?
Is it possible not to react to this high of a dose of Alprazolam?
I'm confused.
I really want to try a Xanax bar from a pharmacy now, to know if the problem is me or the seller/the powder.
Thanks for reading anyway.
I didn't read it.