I was 7 months sober, I found some very good coke which I lost ages ago and in stead of throwing it away or selling it to friends I decided "I can have one little line, just to see how good it actually was" and I needed up sniffing about 0.4g of high purity cocaine. I am asking help here because I have been a member here for about 2 years (posting on burner account) and you guys are fantastic. I came out of rehab and felt great and still did up until today. I feel like I have let myself down deeply and also my family, I don't know what to do I am so confused :(:( cocaine was a big problem for me, even up until before I sniffed this I always said I loved the taste of it. I need advice I was in such a dark place before and really can't afford to go back there :(
This is going to sound corny...but here it goes...
Many of us have done what you did. Relapse is part of recovery my friend.
What you need to think about and remember going forward is...how bad do you feel right now about your slip?
It stings like a mufuckka doesn't it. Shame, regret, disappointment, hopelessness.
If you slipped up once and didn't go on a run, don't let it set you back. Acknowledge it, remember how you feel about it, and use that memory as a staunch reminder of how you don't want to ever feel again!
7 months clean is excellent progress. 1 slip up is a minor setback. Shake it off and forge ahead using the 7 months of clean time you have under your belt.