The needle and the damage done.

I lost a really good friend to heroin addiction today, 25 years young. One of the funniest men I've ever met, and a heart to match.

We've all heard the story before. It sucks when it touches down in your family.

Please seek help if you need it before it's too late. The drug world isn't all fun and games. The problems are real, and it will hurt those that love you more than you could imagine.

Everyday will be a little more grey without you buddy. We love and miss you. Sincerely.


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[49 Points] rez667:

Thank you for posting this. I am truely sorry for your loss. I had 3 friends either commit suicide or OD this summer. And me in my infinite wisdom decided to start doing it again, after a hospital stint. I do not know why, but this post made me not wanna do dope today. I haven't done it in a few days, but I was making bitcoin moves, to buy some.

thank you again for sharing, and I hope you can find peace in these tough times.

Respect,

Rez


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[9 Points] Vendor_BBMC:

I have a girlfriend who comes and goes amongst the other women, she recently got out of prison for shoplifting then breaking her bail conditions in the summer.

She turned up at my place with an ankle tracker with an expired battery at the end of one of her long, beautiful legs. I had to file through a braided steel cable within rubber like a kensington laptop lock, then smash the nasty black scorpion of a thing up and dump it in the trash half a mile away. A typical day in a meth lab.

She couldn't be seen on the street. We went to a 24 hour grocery one night and there were police cars all around my place. I told her this is one of those times we talked about, where she needs to follow my instructions exactly and I will keep us safe.

We pretended to be waiting for a bus and watched, but she was starting to withdraw. I said, "stick by my side, hold my hand. I will get us out of here".

"NO! I'm calling my Uncle to come and pick me up".

I took the backroads, which were also swarming with police. There was a helicopter. I ended up in a McDonalds watching it out of the window. She got picked up and went directly to prison. Do not pass "GO". Do not collect £200. A heroin addict had been stabbed close to my flat, I hadn't been raided.

Now, she's on methadone AND using heroin. She can take or leave meth. "That's not an addiction". And she's right, relative to heroin.

With ready access to bitcoin, I should be an ideal boyfriend. But she's addicted to the street. She just texted me as I wrote that last sentence.

Unfortunately, I can spot when somebody is telling lies, and she's not very good at it. I've also seen every meth whore trick in the book, heroin users seem like amateurs when they try them.

Heroin users are hardcore. Its a full-time job. Unfortunately, she's sexy hardcore too, and she's made 100g of meth I'm working on late.

EDIT

She's texted me, pretending to be her own mum, saying that her daughter just cut her wrists.

Stupid cow. She still can't come round. Even if its true, I HATE suicidy women. Like many heroin addicts, she's too afraid of ANY pain, and completely self-serving. She would never attempt suicide. It wouldn't be good for HER.


[8 Points] firstreddituserever:

It pains me to read about your loss, I'm sorry. I suppose I'm lucky in that I'm one of the only people I know in my circle of friends who uses. I guess it's because I chose to cut most of my friends out of my life since they were starting to use heroin simply being around me. Now that I'm not around, two of them have quit drugs altogether and all of them are working 9 to 5s.

I'm working an alright job while going to school part-time but I wouldn't say I'm "functioning" because I push people away. I even went on a few dates in the past month or so with a couple different chicks I met in college but I stopped replying to their texts because how would I explain to them I'm addicted to heroin. Fuck that.

It must feel fucking horrible to watch your friends go knowing you couldn't really do anything. I mean, I think all you can really do is accept people for who they are and that's it. I'll be thinking of you for awhile my man so take care.

edit: also, heroin is a relationship wrecker if you're already dating a chick. Especially if they get addicted also. don't try that shit.


[7 Points] octomarvel:

Too true. Had 2 friends OD this year alone and over 10 in total.

This doesn't include suicides due to psychosis from meth...which was 2 friends last year.

I'm sorry for your loss op.

=,(


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[5 Points] bobbiggs69:

Until we get the rest of society to understand that losing people to drug addiction isn't a case of "they got what was coming to them," we won't have proper treatment or a system for people to return to work after addiction so they don't relapse. Losing someone to the illness of addiction is no different than losing someone to cancer. Your friend had just as much control over his illness as someone with cancer. Just like with cancer, if you catch it early enough and get the right treatment, it can be managed.

We're not going to arrest our way out of this problem. How is assigning a scarlet letter to sick people that will follow every job application they ever submit going to fix this problem? The world needs to wake up and realize that we need to start focusing on saving lives.

I hope your friend has found the peace he could never find in life.


[4 Points] agorathrow8080:

Sorry for your loss


[4 Points] SecondChanceUsername:

Accept my sympathies OP. I lost a best friend 8 days ago(the funeral was this past friday, i went to see him and everyone else) I had seen him 3 days before he OD'd. He asked me to help him score. I denied him because he's been clean 2 years(with only 2 relapses) and i am also facing drug charges so i can't go outa my way for him or anyone else. So he tustve went to cop from someone else. Did a half a bundle(1/2G) of East Coast H and already had xanax in his system. He was 18 and 2 years clean. And we made plans to chill again 3 days after he would end up dying. So sad. Especially when its young people and could be prevented.


[5 Points] anothersip:

it's a battle out there, the fight against addiction. i lived in a halfway house for about 6 months and in that short time i made friends for life, lost 4 friends to heroin od, fell in love, lost my love and pulled myself out of a very bad headspace that i was in. my sincere condolences, friend. heroin addicts are some of the most genuine, intelligent and empathetic people i've ever met. it is soul-crushingly sad to lose loved ones to addiction.


[3 Points] whatsoulfood:

The most infuriating thing about people lost in the Big White Silent Planes of H. is that you can't change it until they start wanting a change for themselves. It's sad, imo, even because H isn't even that interesting as high or some mindfuck drugs go.


[3 Points] psychopathLOL:

You know, recently i thought about trying heroin just 1 time,

So i started on my research and what i found from many user experiences was, heroin would never be a 1 time thing, despite you thinking that, it wouldnt happen

Many users reported that your first time on heroin will be the best feeling you will ever experience, the reason many people overdose is because they try to achieve that same first experience they had

That alone made me step back and re-consider trying heroin, how suckish would it feel to know that you have basically felt the absolute best feeling you could ever achieve and to know that you'll never achieve it again?

I hope someone who reads this post will reconsider trying it


[2 Points] coffeencreme:

I'm so sorry for your loss. RIP.


[2 Points] DrugsAreEdgy:

Stay strong brother. I'm sorry for your loss


[2 Points] NahFooll:

Plus one for Neil Young


[2 Points] PrinceKael:

Fuck man I feel bad for you, the deceased and related family and friends.

I'm merely a teenager yet I've been addicted to heroin for 2 years. I finally sought therapy and trying to quit. Bupe helps me cope with withdrawals. Some take methadone which I guess would help too but give more of a high maybe and can be slightly more addicting than bupe. But anyway, if you're an addict like me, go seek treatment. Bupe/methadone can really help you. Even to just see a therapist and talk to them, it can be really hard lying to your family for years and worrying about your health, financials, future etc.

I've been taking like 4 strong hits a day for 2 years and my body is okay (I practice harm reduction well) but it still hurts my mind and bank account. Bupe helps me last a few days per week off it so I can at least minimise the addiction a little.

If anyone needs to talk, I'm here. If you want to unload or seek advice, I can help, but I advise to seek professional help ASAP. From a proper drug counsellor or psych with qualifications.

The two worst feelings in my life are heroin withdrawals and the moment my mum saw me passed out on the bathroom floor with a syringe in my arm. No mother wants to see their teenage son - or any child for the matter - in that state.

Take care of yourselves brothers. I can't help much, it's mostly down to you, no matter who you ask or see, they can only show you the door, you have to walk through it. It will take time, you will probably relapse - many times, but keep trying. I believe in you. It's possible. Even if you taper off and lower your dose. Be clean, practice harm reduction and keep trying.

Some people in the world will think of addicts as lost causes who have hurt themselves, but it's not always their fault, many like me started from an underlying cause like depression, others may be due to trauma etc. Whatever it is, seek help.

I believe in you. Anyone can do it. It's a motherfucking hard challenge. Probably the hardest challenge in the world. If you conquer this you're a legend, don't let failure demotivate you. Failure WILL HAPPEN, persistence is key.

I don't think you (the addicts reading this) are useless or a lost cause or scum. You guys are just normal people with dreams and feelings and loving family/friends. You've just made a mistake, and that mistake had dire consequences. If things get dark, follow your light. Music, programming, art, acting, porn directing, architecture idgaf what your passion is. Pursue it and don't let this bring you down. But first you have to try. At least try.

You can do this. I've attempted suicide many times and still think about it, I've hurt my family and friends which I love dearly and I couldn't feel worse about it. But I try my best now. Things can get better, even if they're getting worse and worse. When you hit rock bottom the only way is up. Don't end yourself, so many bright minds and kind souls die to addiction. Live. The world needs nice people. If you're an asshole (unless you want to change) and hurt people, ignore this. This is for the nice people. For the kind people. For the people who want to help, who want to be normal, who want to fit in society and make positive changes.

With regards, PK.


[1 Points] Wtfthrowawayyyyy1:

Sorry for your loss. Lost a few friends the past year


[1 Points] DinoNeedsMe:

Addiction sucks some serious ass. Sorry bro


[1 Points] veblensf:

I'm sorry for your loss!

Sadly, this has become a daily reddit event and on some days more than once, like today.

Hang in there!


[1 Points] DHLMarket:

I feel your pain. My brother and were heroin addicts for a little more than a decade, over which 9 of our friends and 4 of our dealers (which were kinda of friends too) passed away.

It's not easy, but I know what it's like to be the one using. It's rough for everyone involved, that much is certain.

Sending peace of love <3


[1 Points] lukeptba:

hammer is some nasty shit once you're deep enough, sorry to hear mate...


[1 Points] fezzic573:

Love and condolences to you, brother. It is so true what you say about us all having heard (or experienced) this story before. Just the same as everyone has that beligerant drunk uncle at family gatherings, or the fact that everyone knows somewhone who has been affected by cancer, the same can be true for lethal heroin overdoses. It is so sad, but even "regular" people who walk the line and don't stray from the path still all seem to have at least that one friend who they lost contact with and then later on heard that they had passed away from that sickness.

I am sorry for your loss. I myself have lost my absolute best friend in the world to it, 4 other dear close friends, and many more (less than ten though) friends of friends or casual aquantices. This has all been spaced out over the course of the past 20 years.

Fuck that terrible shit. To each their own and I don't judge people who use the drug, but I sure as shit judge the drug itself for the way it wraps itself around it's victims' souls.

Love, Condolences, and Respect. Stay safe out there brother.


[1 Points] None:

"On the day my best friend died I could not get my copper clean" Lost 3 friends (all under 20)over the summer aND ended up in icu for the same reason a month later


[1 Points] None:

Omg man, I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost 7 friends due to heroin overdoses(i only have ever done a tiny ass key bump and went to sleep). But as soon as they take that plunge, it's extremely hard to get out of it without ruining your life and others around you.

I urge anyone who wants to help themselves, to try to get treatment please.. Please guys... Paging /u/b_l_i_s_s help these people out. I know your a fan of the drug but I'm also sure you know how bad it is.


[1 Points] pallmallman12:

MY condolences brother!


[1 Points] identiifiication:

:(


[-1 Points] noonehear:

Sounds like some badass heroin. What vendor did they get it from?


[-6 Points] toughmcbuff:

Retards


[-11 Points] None:

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