I'm just talking about myself. I am not sure about those dozens upon dozens of other long term vendors who are out there. I have been vending for 4-5 years now, and it has been my only source of income. A long time it felt like something I should be ashamed off. Growing up you're told that drugs are bad and drug dealers are even worse, maybe even worse than thieves; definitely worse than corrupt cops and politicians. But after a while that shame just turns into disappointment in the system. And you start to slowly grow up and realize that nothing in the world is exactly black and white like it is always made out to be.
After all these years I have started to ignore that sense of shame and disappointment. Vending has become like running any e-commerce store minus the subtle paranoia of being busted being temporarily lodged in the back of my head. But having to choose between a nine to five; I really feel like the choice couldn't be any clearer. I feel like vending has become much more than a job, it's a lifestyle of OPSEC, Cryptocurrency and the waiting game which is called "Please Finalize your order already". And I got to say, even with the possibility of me ending up in jail, I'd rather still keep vending. Because of all the possible jobs I could get, even with a college degree, I don't think anything would ever beat sending drugs through the mail and reading peoples excitement after receiving their pack. Nor the interactions I have with customers who are eager to try a new substance, people who want to be educated about purchasing, the pro's and the cons. Screw the money I get from this, it's more about having a purpose, and I really don't think I'd could feel anymore at home than on the Darknet.
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Keep it about the money. Ideals are dangerous and make you do stupid shit. You'll get caught eventually. Always have an exit target.