Thanks for a pretty insane education and ride and I appreciate you letting me along for the ride.
Some of you are dickfaces of course but the VAST majority of you are some of the most helpful and decent folks Ive posted with over my years on the internet. Some of you astound me when you whip put concepts about advanced computer programing, chemistry, etc and make me realize this isnt some shitty shooting gallery with dumb junkies.
Its a microcosm of what real drug users are and I think a fairly decent representation of it at that. Ive gleaned so much useful info and hopefully given some back (this is another iteration of my reddit persona, opsec forces me to change every so often.).
Thanks to you all again and happy hunting, and please dont be the low hanging fruit for LE.
EDIT: For the record Im only sitting here toking some platinum kush and not on MDMA or some other lovey drug fuckers :P So this is from the heart.
Its amazing what the stereotype of a drug user is. Most people see drug users as the tweaker or homeless guy in the corner who is scrapping enough quarters to buy a stamp. What I've learned through my journey is that stereotype is a minority of the overall drug users in this country. The guy in the suit next to you could be a druggie. Your mailman, probably your congressman, the people you work with. I have somewhat of an opioid-radar. I can sometimes spot the closet pill junkie b/c I am one. The eyes rarely lie.
Point being you can be a successful person who happens to be a drug user. In this country we tend to want to define the drug user entirely as the drug they use. Everyone knows that opioids are so highly prescribed - where do people think they are going? To druggies often. Of course there are people who use them legit for an injury and so forth.
I konw that I do not project an image of a drug addict. My clients, my associates, would probably have their heads spun if they found out. Esp if they found out that I was high during ever interaction with them. That's the nature of opioid addiction - you are almost always high, or at least I am. I know there does exist those who use it on teh weekends and such, but not me. On any given day, I could be high on norco, oxy, dialaudid, or morphine. But one thing is certain, when those contracts were signed, when you wrote me a check, I was high and already had it laid out to funnel a certain portion of that money you just gave me to my "drug account" aptly named "Incidentals and Other Expenses".
Unfortunately there is a shame to it and you, this community, are the only ones I'm completely opened with about my addiction. But it does reinforce the fact that I live a very compartmentalize life and I lie to everyone sometimes - the different is the lie. To others, I lie about my usage. To you, I lie about who I am. I can never share my real identity. Thus I've known that I am in a constant state of lying to someone. I'd suffer greatly if my addiction were known to the normal, outside world.