I'm not sure if this is the right place to post, but it seems like it is, if not let me know. I'm looking to buy (a small amount of) potassium cyanide. I searched through sheep and bmr and as expected didn't find anything. Does anyone know of a way to get hold of some? Thanks in advance.
Note: I'm not gonna bs you guys, I'm trying to get it for suicide. I'm going to do it either way, but I thought this would be optimal for me. If you're thinking of giving me a lecture or trying to talk me out or tell me to go to /r/SuicideWatch please don't. I've thought about this very carefully and for a long time, and I'm not looking for a discussion. Please only respond if you can help or have other legitimate advice. Thanks!
Edit: alright, there seems to be some confusion here. I'm not a depressed 13-year-old. I'm 48 and have been suffering from an illness. I have just a few years to live naturally, and those few years will likely be very painful and ugly for both myself and my loved ones. We've talked it over thoroughly and the decision we came to was that suicide would be the best option (no assisted suicide where I live), so that none of us have to suffer through this. If you try to convince me using insults, some sort of religious argument, etc, you are wasting your time as my situation isn't what you imagine. That said, I'm sorry for any confusion caused, I thank you for your concerns and I apologise if I have caused anyone to be offended.
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