Had a bad addiction to opiates for a while. Started almost a decade ago with Vicodin. Then the Roxis (damn they were so cheap at the time!), OxyContins, and finally EC Heroin. Stuck with the dope habit for a couple years, tried doing many things to get clean: Psychs including ibogaine, detoxes/rehabs, opiate replacement with RX, suboxone for a few years (would always chip however (while on sub)). Nothing seemed to quite work. Guess I didn't want it enough.
Fast forward, and after being on a methadone maintenance for roughly 8 months, I got off it (thanks to the help of Heroin actually - this time tar (no beuno IMO, having done EC the rest of my endeavor)) and have managed to stay clean, with the occasional Subutex vacation and 2 percs during this time frame. It has been about 4-5 months now since my last use of Heroin or Methadone.
My question is to any other opiate lovers: How do you deal with seeing pictures and reviews of dope? Do you still crave it? I'm not going to lie, every once and a while when someone posts an opiate review, I kinda salivate a little bit and miss that warm cozy nod. If I take a little subutex, it brings back a reminder of that feeling but I know it's not really close.
If this is applicable to you, or some other drug that you used to be addicted to, I'd like to hear your stories on how this affects you, what you do to cope, and your thoughts on chipping / 'moon bouncing'.
I salivate on the coke/speed reviews, since where I live you can't get shit! Never tried H or benzos.