First two to three sessions were using 20-23mgs. Messing around, getting mushroom-like buzzes because I was a bit worried about breaking through. Used a bottle vape with what I feel like was 50% efficiency at the time.
A few days ago I upped the dose to three caps, a total of at least 70mg. Finally used tape on the foil wrapped around the bottle. I melted the crystals but they weren't vaporizing like with my other DMT sessions. I was worried I didn't bend the foil at the bottom properly.
After some vaporizing I took a hit. I could feel the walls like I could feel my consciousness, my head had expanded to encompass the whole room. Things would work it felt like, so I lit it again and it did. The smoke was billowing inside the bottle and it looked stunning. I took another hit. Now things became really difficult. I felt like I would burn the DMT with a third hit or not melt it properly. Somehow I managed to get another hit in (although I would later confirm that there was about 30mgs of unvaped residue left on the foil).
After the third hit I tried to look at the person with me but that was confusing and the floor was calling me to it. I layed back and closed my eyes.
I could feel the other person in the room, and everything within it. I could also feel just about everything in a 10 mile radius. I don't know how to describe it really. It's hard to put into words.
When I've done DMT in the past and broken through I never spoke with beings or teleported into other places or any of that stuff as many people report. I saw landscapes, and water, and scenery and I was in those lands walking through them. Everything was peaceful and there was no experience of death as I experience on any dose of LSD and high doses of mushrooms.
With my eyes closed I continued to look at what I was seeing, besides what I was feeling. I felt like I was trying exceptionally hard to download those scenes and knowledge, like I was trying to profit from it once my DMT trip would end. So I made a promise or vow to myself to never do that. Everything in this universe exists, and if I just teleport to a being and record it to sell it back here, whether it be through art inspiration or getting people interested in what I have to say, I would feel like a dick. Everything is an illusion, yes, and I am God, yes, but nonetheless it wouldn't be something I enjoy: bringing back information about those beings just to entertain myself.
At that moment I felt extreme empathy with the universe. I won't go into the details that I experienced because I hope to write about this one day, non-anonymously and I am a little paranoid it will be connected to my DNM use. Which isn't really a problem for me but I feel like some people would misunderstand my spiritual journeying and acquiring the strongest psychedelic known to man as idle time-wasting. Not that idle time-wasting would be wrong, considering that everything is an illusion and we are eternal beings. It's just not something I want to experience, explaining myself because honestly no one will listen far enough for me to actually finish giving them an answer as to what I am doing with my consciousness and why.
Suffice to say, this empathy changed my entire life. Not just my outlook on it. Within the few seconds it took to experience what I felt for all beings of the universe, the universe itself, and myself included, I was changed and I knew it. I know that everything is an illusion now, as I always have, but I feel like a child at play again: instead of a depressed eternal being. This DMT trip has freed me to play without worry, to think without depression. It's a tough thing for me because that's all I'm used to and I've kept up the act of being depressed for a little bit longer since that trip, but I know it's an act now. I'm completely detached from my previous feelings of suffering.
I wouldn't say I broke through into hyperspace, as far as I know, but it doesn't make a difference for me. I would love to teleport somewhere else for a bit and experience the DMT realities some have explored, and to live entire lives there, but I am not as sad that I didn't with this trip. I thought I would be if I didn't break through.
After the empathy came a lot of visuals and downloading of information, and it was so overwhelming that I forgot about all of it. For all I know, I could have broken through and not been focused or interested in bringing back that information. I may have decided my trip there would have been more fun if I never remembered it, sort of like how we incarnate and enjoy it because we don't remember what came before it.
All in all, this was a beautiful trip. Within ten minutes it was complete, and with a small buzz I got up and kissed the person who was there with me. I held their hands and was perplexed by the beauty of this reality.
This is one of the best trip reports I ever read. Thank you for that. It makes me proud to be able to provide people with the tools necessary for such deep experiences.
Cheers, Noumena