I'm not a regular xanax user - occasionally partake when I go drinking because it gives me insane confidence without drinking to excess.
Anyway, I received a package of bars today and I decided to take one (they're the supremegg supposedly 3.5mg). The last few weeks of my life have been such a burden on me - huge deadlines at work and it was driving me mad thinking that I wouldn't be able to make my superiors happy nor live up to the standard that I hold myself to. But you know what? With a clear mind it became obvious to make that I'm not the constraint in my team's effort. Realistically I was succumbing to thoughts of inadequacy that were unfounded.
This doesn't feel like a drug that has a direction linear relationship between increased dosage and increased sense of well being. The bare minimum is quite literally enough. Where is the appeal of taking a crazy amount to forget reality?
On a side note my employer has been paying for classes to get my masters degree and I was so afraid to check my grade in one my classes. Fuck it. Checked It. A-. What the fuck was I worried about?
This drug is fucking awesome. Not to excess of course. But I have this sense of well being now that doesn't feel drug induced. Benzos done right can truly be an antidepressant. I'm going to be positively ecstatic tomorrow - while sober.
Most people I see are disgustingly passed out and drooling from it. Also most people I know who take it are low class and only use it in combination of oxycodone because they are poor and this makes it last longer/hit you harder. I honestly don't see the appeal and have never felt anything like you describe. Coke please