Holy fucking shit, I just read a comment thread that sparked something inside of me that I've never shared with reddit-let alone anyone else in my life but what better time than 3 in the morning PST? It all started with two very intelligent young guys going back and forth about some heavy and interesting subjects, and suddenly both of you just made me go down my own personal memory lane, you know the memory lane that is full of potholes and shit, the one that's filled full of suffering and awful bullshit you know with like OD's (both friends and myself), a whole lot of death, some more gruesome and painful than others (including a few of my best friends and those friends of friends who you know didn't deserve it due to their wives and kids at home or whatever the case may be), that sparkling lane filled with a shitty justice system sending millions of us to jail for copletely non-violent crimes like putting a substance into your body despite the fact that this fact alone makes is proof alone that we are indeed NOT in full control of our OWN fucking bodies and in American there is no such thing as TRUE FREEDOM if you can be free to ingest a plant like marijuana, get stoned and watch star wars alone with a large pizza to yourself? (this is referring to me and my closest homies getting stuck in the for-profit legal system where money walks/talks), and let's not forget the for-profit prison-industrial system (where only the "really crazy dangerous to society and desperate ones are locked up, or wait a second isn't it just mostly populated by non-violent drug inmates that violate on parole by PV's and failed UA's?), let us not forget that before obamacare and things like medicare hospitals-were an extremely mostly for profit industry JUST LIKE BIG PHARMA who doesn't make money inventing cures, they make money inventing TREATMENT and there's a HUGE difference. (me, my friends and people I used to get high with all agree that most of our loved ones could've stayed on this earth much longer if the goal was to elminate disease and take better care of ourselves by feeding ourselves with locally grown organic farm-to-table foods like we had back in the day with all the toxic pesticides, bovine growth hormones and herbicides not to mention herbicides and GMO's). THIS is no way of life to live, but take it from me, there is hope. There are answers all around us but we must demand change. Soon enough we will outnumber the asshole old fucks that got us into this mess to begin with - shit like war with countries for their resources - wars with countries over political posturing - war for the fucking hell of it because there literally exists a for-profit war industry that only stays in business if we keep spending more and more of OUR hard earned tax dollars on this bullshit that usually ends up in the hands of your LOCAL POLICE DEPTARTMENT.. Hmm I wonder why? Do they sense a revolution abrewing? Are they afraid of us? THEY VERY WELL SHOULD BE.. THEY'VE BEEN FUCKING US RAW DAWG FOR WAY TOO DAMN LONG. WE ARE TIRED OF IT and we want our country back! They let the drugs in - the recovery industry is unregulated and based not on science but hearsay and magical wive's tales. It's only going to get worse as they let the cartels/columbians/afghans/etc smuggle more and more across our borders while we sit here bored and addicted to TV, Video Games and other mindless pursuits. PUT DOWN THE CONTROLLER I SAY PUT DOWN THE REMOTE. FIGHT. GO TO THE STREETS AND COMPLAIN. UNTIL YOU DO THIS, THEY WILL KEEP YOU DOCILE AND LIKE LITTLE SHEEP HAPPY TO COSUME their bullshit products that do nothing for you mentally, physically or spiritually. REJECT THIS HORSESHIT AND GET OUT THERE AND FIGHT FOR YOUR RIGHTS! You can recover, recovery is possible when you truly want it. You can get better and things can turn around pretty quickly if you set your mind to it. We are smart guys, intelligent, college-educated, and have more advantages than most people in this fucked up work. I lost my mom, my rock, the only one who raised me to be a good person with morals and a heart. My dad wasn't there and when he was I hated him more than anyone else I have ever hated. My mother got cancer when I was 9 and you know what that selfish piece of shit did? He ditched our family to move to paradise aka hawaii with a teacher's assistant half his age. I didn't hear from him for 5 years until he decided to start calling us once a week every sunday and I literally NEVER wanted to talk to him. I never forgave him for the long fucking time until my mom got really really sick. The cancer spread to her lymph nodes, bone marrow, breasts, liver and brain. She became a different person. She wouldn't ask for help until finally she crashed her car on the way to work because her vision went out completely while she was driving to work. She wanted to make sure we going to be ok if worst came to worst because she knew she couldn't rely on my selfish shithead of a father so she tried her hardest to prepare for her death. The only shitty thing about that was that we didn't find out until a week before she died that she was actually going to die. She couldn't stomach sitting us all down and having that heartbreaking conversation with the people she loved the most, I don't know if I could in her shoes, could you? Death is regarded as such a mysterious and scary concept in western culture but it holds no water. There is no basis for that kind of thinking and so after many years of self-inflicted most of time time drug-induced pain on everyone who cared about me, I realized how extremely selfish I had been. Life isn't about YOU or how much fun/money/success you obtain. Life is about reproduction and then making sure those kids grow up to be slightly better than you if at the least. The better than you, the better off they are. Death isn't scary or something to be feared. It's something to be celebrated and a joyous event attended by the people who loved you and who's lives you touched in a positive way. The only reason these people who are still alive and grieving is for completely selfish reasons they WISH they had more time on this earth with you but that IS NOT GUARANTEED. Shit a good mother or father brother or sister etc is not guaranteed in this life. THE ONLY THING GUARANTEED IN THIS FUCKED UP LIFE IS DEATH. SO GET THE FUCK USED TO IT and STOP BEING SO DAMN SCARED OF IT. Yes, I know, the mysterious can be frightening but usually once you experience it it's no longer scary and you feel stupid for even getting frightened in the first place. That's how I felt the first time I did a breakthrough dose of both LSD, DMT and Shrooms at the same time. I had a long talk with the holy trinity (I don't believe the world being black and white, that's for simpletons, the world is made of 3 - black, white and grey) grey is a combination of the two - think about it the next time you trip. Let go of all that bullshit pain and suffering that YOU, YOURSELF are deciding to hold on to. It feels so good to just let go. Kill that ego, I know at first it's a daunting task giving up everything that you think makes you "special" your mediocre soccer skills, your computer skills, your good looks, your "game" or lack there of, the relationships you've made all that means ntohing in the end and the longer you hold onto these meaningless human traits the longer you will stay in purgatory with is that devilish place between heavena nd hell where you're just stuck in a sort of limbo state where you it's easier to let go but the human side of you doesn't want to. JUST DO IT. DO NOT and I repeat DO NOT HOLD ON TO THESE THINGS FOR DEAR LIFE - This is where the idea of "hell" came from because it is literally the worst state of being you can imagine. If you just let go of all of that you ascend to the higher plane of existence and get to be reunited with all the pure love, truth, beauty and it's the most beautiful thing you'll ever experience post-life. Trust me on this. Kill that ego - it's worthless and it's a very simple survival tool that got us this far as a species but it's no longer needed especially after death. The Last time I had a high-dose psychadelic trip I actually got to talk to "GOD" or "LOGOS" or however weak human sound describes him/her and it explained to me everything. We chose to go back into the human experience. WE MISSED IT for whatever reason I guess because we got to the point where we knew everything and could manipulate space and time and matter and did everything there was to be done so what do you do when you've done it all? YOU FORGET. That's the fun of it all. Starting back from scratch it's just like an RPG or video game. Do you really wanna go through the same game on GOD mode? Sure it's fun the first couple of times but it quickly gets boring so you start over. SO don't you ever mourn death it's simply just the return to the source that we're truly used to full love and non-judgement and pure truth/beauty/love, You're surrounded by it, it's the greatest feeling in the world. Be happy for them. The human existence is full of beauty and truth and love as well but you can't know those without knowing the opposite as well...You have to appreciate the sour to know to sweet, you have to experience pain to know joy, you have to endure pain to fully appreicate pleasure, what is pretty without ugly? what is death without new life, what is struggle without success, what is wealth if it is not earned? Is it really the point of existence, to spend other people's money that you had no part in getting? That's a very pathetic way to live! Seek out the truth and the truth will come to you, trust me I had to look for it before it found be and I couldn't be happier about the outcome because no longer fear failure or disease or death etc. In fact I welcome it! It's the only for one to truly grow as a person. You must lose first before you can train and train to become the best and win. The winners learned this early on. They were the first one on the field/court and the last ones to leave. That is the key to excelling at anything. DO IT. JUST DO IT. IF YOU TRULY LOVE IT THEN DON'T STOP UNTIL YOU'RE THE BEST BY YOUR OWN STANDARDS and if you've done your homework and due diligence you'll know exactly what that means and exactly what that is.
/end rant
Much love brothers and sisters now go out there and rule the world!
Soon enough we will rule it/run it. I couldn't be more excited about it. We are such a gifted generation with great potential. Much Much more than the ones who came before us. Let's show em' how to do it right. Cool? Cool. Until then let's use their bullshit capitalist system against them by spending our money on GOOD ideas, ideas that help the poor by feeding them, putting them to work, cleaning them up, giving them a reason to live. Let's help each other achieve instead of watch our world destroy itself like the virus it's turned into.
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Paragraphs. Entertaining rant though; consider eating a benzo and sleep if you're on stimulants.