How many of you have picked up a hard drug habit due to the ability to buy drugs online with no connections? I'd used opiates here and there before the DNMs, whenever I could steal them out of medicine cabinets or had a surgery I could milk a scrip from. The ability to order heroin online with no connections or social interaction really kickstarted my habit, though, and I got high for a long time solely on dope I bought through SR2 or Evo. After that I figured things out on my own, and moved to buying in person because I could call someone at any time and not have to be sick waiting on a pack that might never show up.
In rehab people used to joke that you could instantly tell who was using the internet to get drugs or research chems because they were too anxious or awkward to do it in person. I got sniffed out pretty fast, and there was one other kid who was addicted to synthetic cannabanoids and had really bad panic disorder. I guess it's becoming a lot more common for people who are basically shutins to go through rehab now, from what the staff told me.
I've thought about writing a short article about it; the trifecta of mental illness, internet addiction, and substance addiction made possible via the internet. I always thought about how confusing it would've been for my parents if they found me dead of an overdose. How can my son be a drug addict if he never leaves the house?
I kicked a heavy opiate addiction that I'd had since I was about 14 thanks to the darknet.
I never went to needles, but I took high doses every single day for the first decade of my adult life and quite frankly never saw myself getting off them -- or living past 30, for that matter.
I'm staunchly atheist and I don't like listening to self-pity, so NA was a terrible fit for me. Being able to buy suboxone, gabapentin, and clonidine without anyone knowing made it possible to have the struggle to get clean become something entirely personal instead of something that everyone else was aware of and trying to insert themselves into.
After 3 months without opiates I bought "liquid psilocybin" from TripWithScience and figured out that I might have the ability to parse through my history of addiction and come out a happy person after all.
A couple months after that experience I bought LSD for the first time and had what I consider an absolutely life changing breakthrough and probably one of the the most significant moments of my life so far.
The last 18 months or so have been the absolute happiest of my life and for the first time since I was 11, I have had no need for antidepressants and no desire to do opiates, alcohol, or other drugs that I used to use to mask the pain of daily drudgery.
People around me really like me and I'm finally able to accept that and appreciate all the wonderful things in my life today even if it was often a painful road to get here.
Drug availability can certainly feed addictions, but freedom is the only answer to the mental prison of a heavy habit. I'm convinced that being able to choose when/where/how/why you want to get clean is the key to not just achieving a clear mind but finally being able to enjoy it.
None of this would have been possible for me without the markets and it seriously pains me that such breakthroughs are out of reach for most people who need them simply because of our backwards laws and need to punish those who are already hurting.