I may be done with the markets, feel like I just dodged the infamous CD threat and im almost mypositive my address is burned.

Its going to be really difficult for me to tell this story without totally blowing any chance of keeping my online identitiy anonymous in case the LE involved in my situation dont read the boards. And if they dont they are not very smart. Although at this point I dont evven know what was real and what was pure shard delusion which is how the past probably 10 to 15 times of getting spun have been, a few days in the psychosis is SUPER intense i feel like the luckiest man on earth to come out relatively unscathed with zero felonies. It never used to be like that for me, i used to do it all the time at least 4 times a week for about 2 years and sure there were some very mindblowing psychosis trips but they were few and far between and only when I Overdid it like totally obvious did way to much way to quick.

So once upon a time there was this relatively young drug connousuer who found out that you could actually purchase Federally enforced chemicals of virtually anything you could want shipped straight to your mailbox. Yeah fuckin right, on what planet? No I am going to go pick up my $7 barz all these people online are litterally just feeding each other a lie that drugs actually came and everyone just keeps giving a good review because they fee like since the other person did I should to. No drugs were actually being sent, similar to Topix. I got a lady from Maine to overnight me 8 crisp benjamins just because I showed her a picture I found on google images of a legit like it was taken from a digital camera pile of at least 700-850 OC 80s.....fucked up I know but it was WAY to easy I put a post saying I had them next thin I know this lady is offereing me cash in the mail for as many as i have i could have said wayy more so before you call me the worst name we can be called here just know i might have saved her life from a oxy ovcerdose did you ever stop and think about that? some call me Topix Scammer I feel Human life provider has a little nicer ring to it.This was back when they were The real ones, this was WAY before those dumb fuck OPs were ever even conceived Purdue Pharma was making money hand over fist and basically were printing ther own money at the respect and the behest at the same exact timew of the typical suburban pill fiends.

So I went over to Reddit.com forund this sub and created my username. I still to this day do not know the reason for the name, Im not even that big of a batman fan. I liked the dark knight movies as much as the next guy, they were pretty fuckin goood but to base my username on? I dont know I just rationalize that I was probably on a Xanax black out at the time and i Probably was.the 1111 was just becaise i see 11:11 all the time on the clocks and my phone and I can convinced it is a sacred thing and if you are seeing it to be happy it is happeneing and make a wish every time. I do no matter what its second nature at this point. Any ways long story short i made an order and expected to be scammed and was ready for it to happen because this shit doesnt happen. Do you realize the time and effort I put in to finding or just extracting it myself? A good 8 fucking solid years of dealers nerver coming through friends of friennds who would NEVER asnwer there phone again this litterally was the search of my drug using life i NEEDED to find it somehow because although people say its east to extract I dont trust my absolute zero base knowledge chemisty non skills to actually provide me with DMT at the end. So DTRH to the rescue click to door 3 days I think a part of me was actuallly in shock when I first went and opened it up in my bathroom and that stealth he had, it was a great experience for a first order I am pretty dissapointed honeslty about his operation right now and maybe never putting up listings again, it feels like the death of a friend in a way.

So fast forward a year and a half I place an order from a very reputable vendor who I have used beforwe and had a great transaction and trusted him fully. I decide to order half a sheet from his Bycycle Day Sale 3 days later my order from 2cbking comes right on time but no LSD. Nor a huge deal at all. after a week kind of getting a little panicked. After 2 weeks I was at the point of calling it a loss and accepted that my very first non arrival had just happened out of many orders, so yeah, i would call that a win, esecially afrer reading my background of how I thought these markets really were. I went to Sheep when it was up ans I was very underwhelmed with it to be honest SR looked Pro, Sheep had a retarded name and when I was there abput a week or 2 afrer it went live it had very few listings.

So I start posting pretty regularly at TMG and start reading the threads about AL and that crew and how its basically common knowledge at thid point that he/she got popped. Who knows it there was any proof to these claims but I have been reading the threads since all the drama started and It VERY much look to me like he was arrested. Lo and behold Nuke exit scams while my LSD order was still in escrow mind you. So FUCK you Nucleus, I hate that those fuckerrs got my coin litterally anybody else could have thhem and I would have been able to sleep a little better because of it.

So fast forward some weeks the LSD at this pont was declared a loss lonng long ago, at least it felt like long long ago it was probalby a a few days the time distortin struggle is real sometimes for me. So DHL opens registrations, im stoked becauas I can finally message my vendor and maybe he will do a reship of 2 tabs I would have been happy with at this point but to my extreme dissapointment just like on Nuke the last week it was running every message was ignored though the vendor was still signning on daily, and at this point im sure to anyone who spends has a small prescence in this sub know the vendor Im talking about but per his wishes he will not be named by me on Reddit.

So over there at TMG and even the DHL forum, aa few members here It is a given that he has exit scammed or been arresteds and do to AL's supposed factually stated arrest it would onlty makw sense this vendor was popped, this odd behaviour from both at the same time?? thats a little suspicious I thought and at this point Im actually pretty scared about my addresss being in his stack of orders I am not goiing to lie that shit really freaked me out I figurewd the only way I am going to come out of this is maybe he has a WHOLE shit ton of buyers for tthe sale and my small order would be overlooked, it felt like the only thing I could hold onto at that point. I have SO much to lose in my life from this, I wish I could really explain to you guys the truely fucked legal situation I am already in but I cant. I have mentioned it here and ther to some of my homies here but its something i keep quiet for my own peace of mind

So all the sudden signs of life start emerging from the vendor, threr are whispers of rumors of him replying to a message or whatever but I didnt beleive it, hes gone in my mind with my info just waitiing to be uncovered by LE when they launch there investigation so to make things a little more interesting im in my room watching tv laying in bed its probably like 9 am somewhere aroubd there, see this is where I worry about breaking my anonymity bevasue I dont want to be to specific. from my room I have the viewv of a somewhat busy but not really highway so out of the corner of my eye I see the unmistakenable crown vic slowing down near my turn, im about scared at this point but hes still going fast enough to just keep going straight i thought, probalby not true at all just some last minute wishful thinking before Im on my way to the detective or wherever. Sure enough he takes the turn I live by about 40 other houses pretty small radius from each other (not even close to the correct number) so im thinking in my mind he could be going to any others house even though I knew right when I saw hm turn who we was there for immediately I just prayed he drove right by me. He didnt. he parkws DIRECRTLY outside my window and at this point I am cursing myself for not cleaning house before something like this inevitably was going to happen. I felony amounts of DMT, 2cb, LSD, mushrooms, Not to mention the gram scale and the milligram scale. At this point I was so scared my breathing started to get strabge and I started to feel a little dizzy, not to much but my heart was racing and im sure if you checked my blood pressure it would have been in the high hypterension category. so at few minutes go by hes sitting in his car with ity turned on parked in such a way that he can just kinda chill at stare at me through the window. I had blinds down but they were tipped up just a little for me to be able to see outside. I never made eye contact, i absoultey made sure that was not happening. all i could do is pray to my God over and over and over again "Please let me leave, Please let him leave" well about 20 minutes of this hes just chillin there didnt even open a door I would have heard it all of a sudden after about 25 mins he backs out and pulls away to the road that he came in on and just like that he was gone. So at this point im pretty scared shitless obviously but REALLY wondering why he didnt even knock on the door to mayve try and trap me into a confession or what, who knows what the fuckkers ever actuallly know and if they have enoufgh to knock and accuse. It was a weird experience and I fully expected him to return that day I was on guard for it all day long, my dugs were hidden pretty welll but still on my property which made a nervous wrreck. so 2 days I wake up to a very big presence of sheriffs and county cops in my little radius where i live, that same exact cop pulls up parks in very close to the same spiot but neverthweless a spot that is reserved f for people who come to my house so im being swarmed right now with cops, all the sudden this dude in a red Ford Raptor pulls up to yet another spot that is considered for company hanging out at my house im watching out the window horrified that its actually going down right now like this, it scared the shit out of me, why the fuck are there some many cops, this is way way over kill for a half sheet of acid the dude gets jumps out of the truck run to the back side of my house and pounds on my sliding glass door i run out to my to my family room because I feel kind of dead to rights at this point they obviously know i am in there when i get to slider dude is gone. WTF WHAT IS GOING ON RIGRHT NOW?? So im speechless in my living room i realze a weirdly long amout of time has passed since I was sitting there prretty mcuh trying to catch my breath from nerves i walk back in my room look out my window and I see an older woman crying, balling her eyes out while someone comforts her. Turns out she came over check on her brother in law at home and found him dead in his tv chaier from just a hard drinking and smoking lifestyle he was 56. I didnt know him at all In fact besides seeing him pull in to and from work i didnt even kno he was there. the dude in the Raptor was a paramedic who knocked on the wrong door. I got dressed real quick and with the strangest feeling of happyness, elated, yet feeling that obvious unmistakenable feeling that a human life was just lost and he is in there right now on his chair. poor guy. I actually really regret not ever going tbere and introducting myself at least once but he was not that tpye of dude at all from what I could gatherr just by watching his habits. So I went outside to get the scoop for lack of a better term and to really check and see if this cop the other day was acually here for me or maybe a welfare check of the neighbor evej tho he nevert left the car lol I dont know. but Outside he paid zero attention to me. one of the other cops came over to the 2 women and asked for there ids, right when I heard those 2 letters I stealthfully slid back into my house. I dont have warrants or anything that would come up but still, we all know what I am talkking about, thefe is always that chance, people fuck up on paperwork whatever the case may be. so at this point I elated. I convinced myself he was there the day before for somehing else, had to been becaue he would have asid something to me other wise right" Or showed any interest whatsoever/

SO i had some extra coin and I paid $11 for the shipping of a sample of Zerthebest shards on AB. He was getting great feedback about the euphoria of the dope and he wasnt actualy giving .5 samples but theyere leaning more towards gram, so im like hell yeah, keep in mind at this point I havent used meth for about a year and a half, after the first night of amazing euphoric speedy bliss my body starts to get ravished very quickly because I refuse to eat anything, I just cant, the dope wilk not let me, my throat even closses up when I try and swallow the food. so 3 days rolls aroubd and I get that little slip of death. I have NEVER had a slip, I have made a goood amount of orders never had a slip so this scared me at first. I thought My God this is how they are gonna get me fuck. I should also mention that by this point the LSD vendor had been leaving some signed messaged that pretty much said he took a long much needed vaca. I was still a little bit skeptical but happy as hell that he was replying to my messages that sat in DHL for weeks unasnswered. he said give him a week to get ready and a reship with extra would be sent I honeslty didnt beleive him at first because since Nukes exit he doesnt even have my order, what I ordered or anything to get a pack sent out to me but he said do not worry about anything it will be taken care of send me your shipping info and your order will be reshipped with extra just so I can gain your trust back as a customer. I agreed and sent it out. Well about 20 to 30 minutes afrer sending that info I instantly regretted it.WHY did I just do that my freedom from jail is worth so much more then just not sending that info to a vendor who at this point I was sure was compromised in some way, I dint know how, I didnt know why but it was SO uncharacteric of him to up and vanish for a month with no communication to anybody and then resurface with the promist of packs from preexit Nuke were he never even got my coin those fucks did. So after reading alot o fud about him and AL I was scared. I was shaken to my core honestly he basically in so many words confirrned that he cannot speak on the AL situation for the saftey of everyone involved. I instantly took that to mean AL got poppped and I was prettty sure that whole group is compomised because of it and I like dipshit afraid to eat a $125 loss juat gave my order details, full name full address with one little part missing adn trhat is the number that my hiuse is on on the lot. there is one mail bif mail box so what happens is there is a guy one of my neighbors who isa very nice nice guy who I really get along with great him and his wife they check the mail box aroubd mid day and deliver the mail

So I get the little slip of death and just stare at it a moment, dissapointed my shards were in my hand instead what could this vendor send his order in that owuld fit in my box its a sample that would be in the small envelope possible, so what Im thinkking at that point is FUCK that cop there the first time was for me and he profiled my address and checked the contents of this pack od shards So i message the vendor and tell him the sitch and im like did you send it in like a supe huge pack or what? and he said no it was a small parcel box so that made sense i have had clearnet packs that they just coulent get those boxes through the slot, its a locking mailbox and im not sure if the mail lady ever opens it I alwyys see her slide it in the slit, so this eased my mind just a little bit but not fully, i decided to check the tracking, there is nothing indicating anything shady going on at all on the slip or tracking so I decide its ptobably safe at this point even though I was still nervous as fuck to do my first po pick up of fucking methamphetamine, it was actually a huge rush but I hated every second of it until i saftely had it in my possession. also at this point I cant drive do to reasons im not going to go into so the next day I have to walk to the PO its about a hour walk each way (its really not, for all you know i could live 10 minutes away)

So the next day comes i throw on my ipod my backpack and make my way to the po, when I get theree I obvioulsy do the once over and make sureeverything looks good. and It does keep in mind with that slip I could have gone in at any time from when they opebned to close. Kinda hard for them to plan something to get me with a 8 hour of possiblitlys of me walking in. so I walk in hand the slip the pack is in my hand and im out in about 35 seconds I get homes weirgh product, it is a heft .75 not bad fora sample thsat was sipposed tp be .5. So I go home crack my brand new pipe I have had since buying it for DMT months before this, I bought 2 and the other has always worked fine so why dirty up another pipe? It wokred our great I had a brand new one just sitting in my room waiting to be christened. And oh did I christen it. I was hitting thst shiiit hard and the sharz were decent, possible even good but I have had better in the past for sure, bit im not complaining you smoke enough your gonna get to where you wanna be.

So the whole night I am smoking shard after shard just getting spun done and one one. by day 2 I was feeling that eery feeling of paranoia tthat starts for me before a psychos occurs but I dint really pay to much attention to it. I am just smoking this shit like its candy. So i messafe the LSD vendor and asked if he had shipped out yet and he kept putting it off for another week and this happend twice , keep in mind he has been back to DHL off vaca for close to a week week and a half and not even one feedback has come in. This was worrying.for me. I talked to a few people and after comparing out individual situations i came to the very real possibilty that LE has full conrol over his account right now. He gave them evetything probably to keep his sentence lighter and honeslty I would do that same I think with the time hed be looking at hed die in there. so I forgot to mention when I was enquiring about shippping I asked if my little extra he was giving could be some Indian Rose xtal as I had walys wanted to try it he said thats fine man no problem. So hes saying sll the right things just not delivering on them at all and putting thins off for weeks. I figuured it was LE to grab the customer info from buyers like they do to vendors it seemed they were switching tactics and noww going after small time buyers as well. I was scared. Verry scared. atthis point I am postive this a honeypot and ALOT agreed so anyways I ssmoke meth all weekend long just get so spun out of my mins because I am probably going to jail in the near future, i basically handed my infor and the ffact that i was buying drugs over internet straight to the police I dint know how it was gonna happen but I knew that something bad was in the making even though hes acorss the country I juyst new that wasnt going to save me, they will alert my town policxe so after the weekend of having one of the most spiritual meth experiences I have ever had (who am i kidding its always like that for me) I am in direct contact with the drug demon cartel, these motherfuckers run EVRYTHING. the reason it ruins lives and kills and maims they make sure it gets put into the hand of ANYBODY who will take it. These motherfuckers got spiritualy technology that had my mind absolutely fucking blown. its fuckin nuts and its all to keep us on drugs to ruin out lives and those around us, they are master manipulators at the finest. I wrote a super long diatrible about it on a youtube vid and that was badcially when I was in tgere presesnce becuase at that pint I rebellwed againt them becasue the evil and torture of it all didnt sit right with me at all. but anyways, super trippy, I wll never forget it, I got right with God, well as right as you can spun out on meth, it was made clear to me that under the influence of meth miracles or anything from god cannoy break through it. Meth is Satan's masterpiece. Its the most even drug on the planet and if you dont know that yet you will learn it time if you give it a try. So i am going to wrap this up. this has taken me FORFUCKINGEVER to type and im a fast typer. I have also been away since thursday afternoon sleep so far has not blessed me and my last hit was yesterday morning. I over amped though and had the most uncomrotably body shake and twitches I couldnt even sit on my couch because i kept rolling off starting at the top then be on the flor with my hand and legs contortedd inb tge most awkward ways, I was speaking comtepl and utter gibberish to myself all day it eventually turbed to english but I talkted to myself all day and all night for a solid 24 hours, i have never in my life done that, thats the first time I have ever been over amped and its becvuse I wanted to get rid of what I had break my pipe and never do it again. I renounced the demons and called for a god that is the complrte opposite of what i was being commucated by these sick fucks. it really struck a chord with me. they are the embodyment aof evil abd chaos and torture and care nothing about humans destructionm they get off on it because thye wish they full time human bodys. instead of having to use possesiion and yadda ydaa yaddda i was in constant communciatieth eiyh them for abouy 24 hours and after my brain was so warped i didnt know up from down. BUt anyways monday morning rolls around and wouldnt you fucking know it that SAME fucking cop comes and parks near my window, this is the CD, I thought You can only get lucky so many times. So he parks where he usually does and gets right out of the car and goes and knocks on the door of tbe house across from mine which ussed to be the "manager" of hte place I lice kind of like a motel manager type thing they just keep up on lawns, handing out mail, etc. so he knocks a few times and no ones there. thats not where the actual manager lives they moved a little ways down but its not marked anyhweww on there as manager so i Hear his partner over the radio say "are you sure you are at the right one?" and then a garbled response i couldnt understand eventually he keaves but I have a feeling this isnt thre end, something is going down today and im scared shitless. I beleive that he was going to find the manager to ask them who I am and which house i live because all he has with the addres I provided is the address to the community mail box. I nevert uee my number on my houaw, I dont need to and if I had he would have been at my door so this gave me the VERY crucial time of cleaning fucking HOUSE everyhing and boy did I do it. It took me forever but I cleaned evrything off my laptop DN related my phone, which did have some notes I would take of pnemonics and stuff like that just to keep it all in a pace I can always access it, probably bad opsec but it was coded alot of the time for where only I knew what it meant. so I got rid of my scales my drugs, EVERYTHING there is NOTHING ilegal right now in home my computer my phone, nothing. so as the day goes on I start to think you know what? I havent slept in 4 days I had one of the wildest meth binges Ive ever had where I was litteraly to the point that people were breaking in to my huse quick tid bit after the first night of meth I was coming down a little hard so I called a grl I used to get superr tweeked out with and just have amazing meth sex, shit is mindblowing the orgasm is almost to intesne and shit is litterally squirting like a fucking fire hose, graphic interrepation i know, but there is nothing like a meth fuck, its the bees motherfucking knees. So I call her up and tell her I need some H hella bad and she usualy has some or at least has the connect, i do not. I order of ,markets, i dont have IRL dealers anymore at all.so she says yea she can do that give her a few minutes to set it up im like fuck yeah great news. I also made what at the time wasnt a mistake but later became one as i leanred more about what was about to go down. I told her ive got alot of cash right now so money wont be an issue and shes like how much? And i had like $1400 she also asked if I had suboxone which I did ialways do so after like 25 mins she hasnt called me and im like wtf, thats not like her at all shes a down ass girl she a crazy half white filipino girl who is just a freak. So I call her back and some dude answers and im like hey is _______ tgere abd hes like shes in the other room getting dressed and shit and im like alright cool cn ylou have her hit me up when shes done and hes like for sure hangs up so the day just goes on and on without her call and im like man fuck you then and im thinkking who is this dude kibnd of coppiong an attitude, apparenlly its her new boyfriend who just got our of prison and I didnt knos it but at the time I guess both of them wwrre clean and going to NA and all that which before the shards I was to i met her in NA but I still use acid 2cb and DMT, things that do not show up on a UA. I dont know why I relapsed I just saw that sample and wanted it. So later on this guy calls me from her phone which was already a red flag, why woulfnt she call me, I dont know this motherfucker and I alreayd kind of dont like him because he was rubbin me the wrong way a little on the phone ealrier so he calls and says hey do you still need that? And like an idiot I was like yeah bro do you got some? He goes into this long diattibe about how he is clean but it just so happens his buddy called him for some so since he wasa alrready going to pick up he could hook me up to as long as i gave him a few subs for doing it which I would have no questuions asked, I am super lenient with my subs and always have been i am stocked with them at all times so he says hes getting the deal set up he eill call me in a few i saie sounds good. but felt the whole vibe of the call screamed robbery from the vwery moment i heard his fuckin voice. He doesnt know me, he knows I used to dick his girl down very recently while he was still unknown to me, so why the fuck would he go out of his way to help me? He just needed an IN to get that $1400 and the subs however he could, I also have alot of very nice elctronics of all types nice tvs shit like that. SO call it what you will but there no way im letting this douche try and rob me so I texted him back and let him know that I was fine, I took a sub earlier anyways when you didtn call back all fuckin day and im good on the H thanks anyways. so about 5 mins late the girl calls shes like u dont want it anymoerr?? and i siad yeah im good shes like your sure?? Why not?? and basically confirming my suspicions and all I can think about is how pissed off I am that she can let this dude whos shes know for like a week talk her into pulling that shit on me. I was enraged and vowed that I wouldnt associate with her anymore that fuckin cunt. I had a feeling this wasnt the end of it though and I was going to be super pissed if she showed up at my house because hse knows where I live he doesnt and I wqanna keep it that way.so that night i hid Aall my shit besides things I vcouldnt hide like big screen tvs and was ready for wgarever may or may not happen that night. Well sure enough around 11 pm things start happening noises of people in my bushes trying to get doors unlocked etc abd at this point im so spun I cant tll whats real abd whats fake. the whole night I fended them off though with various different situations. they started to get really fucking angry becaue they coukdbt get in and I could hear him pretty much yelling "SHIT this motherfucker" and then stomping off somewhere im assuming they had a car parcked somewhere near my houaw so I sat on my bed the rest of the night stereotypical tweekeer style staring though one tiny crack of my basically fully closed so no one could easily see me lookling like that tweeker we all know and love. I hsvernt talked to her since. Well see how all the plays out. so man I hope this is an entertaining read, its taken me WAY longer then i thought it would to write it

So now I am at home just trying to eat and drink mad orange juice just trying to regain stamina as ive been up 4 days and feeling pretty fuckin beat up and exhausted and knowing i was almost certainly going to be trying to pull off the dumb cluelses sober kid look off while having been so spun I couldnt properally figure out how to sit on my couch without immediately rolling off just a few hours before so aroubd 5 I get the dreaded knock and it was weird because at this point I had alreadt accepted the fact that I am about to be really haviing to pull \this deny shit for them to actually buy it, but I felt like I could do it, i had a weird inner calmness about what was abput to happen. So i open the door and am surprised to see the managers wife with a piece of mail that is very clearly the LSD pack from the return label. my heart kind of sank a little. there was also a black pixkup truck parked near my driveway ready to drive at any given moment. she hands its to me and said something like were you expecting that? And I said actually no not at all I have no idea what it could be, it seemeed like she knew something because she went into things about my child and how she hopes im not using drrugs and she said points toward the truck and says I wonder what they are doing just sitting there they have been rherfe hte whi9le time ive been out here im lik yeah, i know, its strange, just knowing after I close me door he will be making his prescent known so she keeps talking to me for awhke she akinda seemed like she wasnt gonna see me for awhile which I thought for sure was the case as well so finally i walk inside throw the letter on my dinging room table with some other mail and basically waoit for them to come get me. I alreayd knew I wasnt going to open it ujust because my whol story was going to be deniy til i die. I deleted everhythinmg that culd connect me to it so I was gonna tell them my plan was goibng takking it into the post office with a note to return to sender because I must have gotten somoen elses mail by accident because I wasnt expecting anything Keep iin mind i would never be that dumb it was just what I was gonna say as to why I didbt open it. bevause openiong someone elses mail is a felony officer, you think i want to risk that? so after about 5 minutes I get pounding on the door, alright lets do this. open up the door and its by buddy bringing me a huge bottle of apple juice because he had calemed me out of frreakout and jurr popped in with a jug of apple juice it was very surreal almost seemed like this wasnt really happening. that letter sat on my table for about 5 hous until I FINALLY just said fuck it, i ho[e they dont have those censors that know when the letter opens, I heard som,ewhere they are the size of a cxredit card so that was a huge fear. I oppened the pack abd there my half sheet plu 10 tabs of indian rose. So I deleited EVERYTHING i kind of made a promise with a highly spititiual being (not a demon, however they mimic them perfectly to the point where you cant tell the differrence and thats why i said after that night i didnt know up from down my mind was warped to fuck from the shit i saw and heard) so anyways I plan to still come to the sub, I love this place I always love refrsehing the page hoping for a comment reply. Hope some people read though the whole thing I know its written pretty shitty with paragraph breaks in all the wronng place but man I just had qute a fuckin week and I havent slept in what seems like forevert and I cant beleive I am free right now with my only order that I was ever "robbed" from using the markets. so now ive got a 100% success rate which is mindblowing to me. anyways hope everyones stays safe. I dont know what to make of alll the cops showing up in my story its make no sense. I think I am good at this poiint though right??? am I fucked?


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[53 Points] None:

TL;DR

I'd suggest reading the whole thing. Sure, you may not like wading through all his syntax and grammar garbage, but the whole post is peppered with gems like

I wrote a super long diatrible about it on a youtube vid and that was badcially when I was in tgere presesnce becuase at that pint I rebellwed againt them becasue the evil and torture of it all didnt sit right with me at all. but anyways, super trippy, I wll never forget it, I got right with God, well as right as you can spun out on meth, it was made clear to me that under the influence of meth miracles or anything from god cannoy break through it.

And, coincidentally:

i dont have IRL dealers anymore at all

Edit: http://archive.is/NKmtQ


[49 Points] Dontcarepayme:

First off there's no way you're done with the DNM life. And judging by this meth fueled rant you aren't putting the pipe down either. I read 3/4 of most of your posts LOL'D at the getting spun part. Get some sleep OP


[34 Points] laroncantlaugh:

why do people who take bars get shit on in this sub but meth is acceptable though. this is worse than any bartard thing i've ever read. u sound like a complete fucktard.


[33 Points] xenomorph_Larvae:

hahahaha

tl;dr

So the whole night I am smoking shard after shard just getting spun done and one one


[32 Points] psylent-green:

Jesus fucking christ reading this almost made me tweak. Sounds like you had some major delusions, maybe lay off the meth.


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[18 Points] Lucyintehsky:

meth.. not enen once


[17 Points] ControlledDel1very:

I'm tweakin right now and holy fuck are you paranoid haha


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[9 Points] LostSomewhereInSpace:

It's taken me like 20 minutes to even get close to half way through with this. This must have taken you foreeevvvveeerrr to write.


[9 Points] BadYin6:

Jesus christ, made it half way, I can't do it, brb, getting my mental stamina back. Wild ride.


[8 Points] Dirty_Socks:

I am upvoting this simply because I don't think I've ever seen a wall so big. Holy shit dude, you should take a break from the everything.

Though tbh it sounds like you're maybe not fucked. Tho I'm gonna go ahead and say that your address is burned like the last ashes of a desperate stoner's bowl.


[5 Points] bunch0fpussies:

if by fucked, you mean batshit insane, then yes, you are fucked.


[7 Points] AThrowawayAsshole:

Jesus Christ son, slow down. You're not supposed to take all the drugs at once.


[6 Points] None:

I was confused as to why this was so long. Then I read he was smoking meth. (Not that I'm judging.)


[4 Points] None:

Its amazing how many posts there is of this nature on r/stims and r/mdma. Its as if people are completely ignorant to the side effects of certain drugs.


[5 Points] phishthrowaway072013:

do you do anything with your life but drugs?


[6 Points] sdfhgdhjbdafcadv:

What vendor do you get your meth from?


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[3 Points] basedhubie:

This shit is 15 pages single spaced. 6500 words. Meth is a hell of a drug, children.


[3 Points] spyderonthewall:

Lulz I enjoyed reading that for the first 15 minutes. Could not finish though. You're spun dude. Must've been some good shit.


[3 Points] Intothekhole:

I read half of it then gave up lol


[3 Points] nopierdete:

Fun read, do stick around but you're still a dirty dick for robbing that lady. Do some good in the world to repay.


[1 Points] Medacali:

Fucking tweaker lmfao get off the DN rookie.


[3 Points] ElementalKr3w:

God Damn with your story telling abilities I'm sure the police are dying to have you on their team. Rofl


[3 Points] huzibizi:

If this post was a human, i would hug it then shoot it in the face


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[2 Points] LostSomewhereInSpace:

Can't believe I just read through that whole thing, but holy fuck that is a crazy story. I'd be paranoid as shit in all of those situations too lol. Shit, after all that I'd definitely assume you're good. If nothing else just lay low for a while on packs. Glad to hear nothing bad happened though.


[2 Points] Goypride:

Brilliant


[2 Points] wtfdidijustread2:

I've tried to read that 4 times now, I've given up. Dude, go to sleep.


[2 Points] AThrowawayAsshole:

So, over/under on an overdose within a week?


[2 Points] clawsmail:

TL;DR


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[2 Points] AndThenHeSays4:

yep. meth.


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[2 Points] lovelylittlegangster:

I just went out. There was a police car parked on the other side of the road with "dog unit" on the side. I thought of this thread and laughed at what OP would have done in my place :D


[2 Points] drugfreekid:

OP WROTE 6519 WORDS IN ADDITION TO A 134 WORD SENTENCE!

I got a lady from Maine to overnight me 8 crisp benjamins just because I showed her a picture I found on google images of a legit like it was taken from a digital camera pile of at least 700-850 OC 80s.....fucked up I know but it was WAY to easy I put a post saying I had them next thin I know this lady is offereing me cash in the mail for as many as i have i could have said wayy more so before you call me the worst name we can be called here just know i might have saved her life from a oxy ovcerdose did you ever stop and think about that? some call me Topix Scammer I feel Human life provider has a little nicer ring to it.


[2 Points] None:

Any ways long story short

I lol'd


[2 Points] FoxyDioxy:

Hate to be that ass hole, but consider proof reading!


[2 Points] DarkKnight_1111:

I can never figure out How to make Paragraphs look decent on Reddit. I need to try and sleep, hopefuly some people will read it even though it looks like the dude who wrote it hadnt slept iin 4 days and had the worst chemically burned tounge I think any human could ever fathom. Eating anything at this point is litterally some of the worst agnony I have ever felt. Im not sure why its so bad honesstly what causes that? Is it from burning it? becuae there wre a few bowls that my depth perception was non existent and I vouldt properly smoke and burned it once or twice and got that nasty nasty burn taste


[1 Points] dvrknvt:

Damn son I need a ball of meth and some bars to even begin to decipher this let alone read the whole post.


[1 Points] DextroShade:

Meth is one helluva drug, apparently.


[1 Points] None:

What. The. Fuck. Chill out with the meth bro, holy shit. I think you are gucci though tbh man...


[1 Points] draginator:

Well damn, that was a read. Uhh, I think you are fine if you dump everything.


[1 Points] BornSinnersDNM:

My fucking head hurts from reading this run on sentence the length of a fucking book. lol.


[1 Points] DecentDWilly:

wtf, I am never doing meth


[1 Points] None:

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[1 Points] 710soldier:

This post reminds me of every time i've ever hung out with my tweaker friends and a cop rolls by the spot


[1 Points] sswweeddrrff:

/u/vendor_bbmc , Watch... And learn!


[1 Points] None:

Once I started noticing the 'so' at the beginning of near every paragraph I stopped reading and started skimming down the page counting them off.


[1 Points] coffeencreme:

Jesus. I really want to try and help you OP but for the love of god can someone give me a TLDR?


[1 Points] ImBillBraskyAMA:

TL;DR


[1 Points] None:

tl;dr


[1 Points] otistoole:

I don't think I like you. I also feel like you deserve to have bad things happen to you.


[1 Points] None:

am I fucked?

In more ways than one my man. In many, many ways more than one.


[1 Points] CapnKrump_2:

I was thinking about trying a little meth to lose weight, but after reading this I'm never touching the stuff. Add another name to your list of lives saved OP.


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[1 Points] None:

tldr: teenager that can't handle his drugs.

This is barely even a story by the loosest of definitions.


[1 Points] Hardcorish:

I'm not sure what's more impressive: the fact that you wrote that much or the fact that I read it all.


[1 Points] None:

oh lord. I'm going to go out on a limb and say you have the beginnings of psychosis. I'm not sure if it's schizophrenic or what because you are on a drug but I want to caution you that I think your marbles have been mixed up and you need to reset the modem. I'm fucking serious, you are traveling down a dark path here and I noticed many similar things between yourself and I. I can trip without the slightest provocation but meth and I wow! I would fucking hallucinate little men, like elves and nobody else could see them. They notice me notice them though and that's what made THAT SHIT REAL. edit: dis what I mean yo. You need a break, come back when you feel better ;) http://www.minddisorders.com/Py-Z/Substance-induced-psychotic-disorder.html


[1 Points] 2pac-alypse:

yes your fucked. wanker


[1 Points] None:

Holy living shit, have you though about segmenting that into pages and selling it for a small, sweet neat profit?

This video is my go to in these instances as I believe it is relevant.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7TyJgTh-hM

Fucking Gene Hackman hey? Cannot believe he retired, they should force him to make more movies, it is for the greater good.

Probably laying in a hammock located in some non descript mansion somewhere in the Florida Keys with a pound of cocaine & a notebook reading my comments thinking "fuck me, if I respond to this, it will give the game away"

This post will probably give him pause, reflecting on his life's achievements before taking a bump from a hand crafted, custom made device that allows him the ability to imbibe without drawing too much attention from others (Apart from the pound of coke and the fact he is Gene fucking Hackman of course)


[1 Points] topknotch89:

i made it through 3 paragraphs. i tried


[1 Points] issizz:

HOLY FUCKING WALL OF TEXT BATMAN


[1 Points] Color_Black:

Meth is a helluva drug. No judgement, seriously, but OP - get some sleep bro. I read half, and will get to the rest in a bit. But the part about ".. right before psychosis.." - you might be there, now. Sleep it off. If you're posting here you're fine for the time being. We're all here to help.. but jesus fuck, get some rest.

I almost feel like I'd have been able to read the entire thing in one go without my mind spinning if this was a torrented ePub.

To your final question - the answer is almost always "probably not." But comedown, take something (a xanax or ambien or smoke some bud) and sleep it off. Then come back to this thread - by then the crank would have worn off and a lot of the wise posts re-assuring you you're not fucked will make much more sense.


[1 Points] None:

this shit is sooo meth lmao


[1 Points] DexOyama:

HOLY FUCK wall of text man shit can someone give a TL;DR


[1 Points] lilboatbitch:

Dope read


[1 Points] BarSimpson:

God damn.

Not one fucking PERIOD in the entire thing.

I read all this shit, though. You're good though bro. Chill out


[1 Points] ChrisWegro:

That, my friend, was a roller coaster.


[1 Points] ohpee8:

You are insane. You were never in trouble with any cops. You didnt fend off any attempted robbery (no, pulling your blinds up and down then unlocking and relocking your door three times won't thwart any robbers plans, you were just spun outta your gourd). I like how tweakers always think theyre pulling some clever shit to keep the baddies at bay. You need some help, man. Granted, this was 3 months ago, so maybe you got help. I really hope you did.


[0 Points] None:

I just read this whole fucking thing.

A true masterpiece in my opinion.

I've been where you were- it ain't no fucking game and the worst part is that i still am unsure of what was real or in my head.

One clue might be when you heard 5-0 talking to each other outside ur spot about "the wrong one" or the wrong apt number...

Most likely that was an auditory hallucination that your brain decided to perfectly fuel your schizo narrative.

Only happened to me once- that full on blast off into outer space but i wouldnt know the feeling of not being able to trust my senses AND my rational mind