Help.. I relapsed after coming out of rehab being 7 months sober, what do I do?

I was 7 months sober, I found some very good coke which I lost ages ago and in stead of throwing it away or selling it to friends I decided "I can have one little line, just to see how good it actually was" and I needed up sniffing about 0.4g of high purity cocaine. I am asking help here because I have been a member here for about 2 years (posting on burner account) and you guys are fantastic. I came out of rehab and felt great and still did up until today. I feel like I have let myself down deeply and also my family, I don't know what to do I am so confused :(:( cocaine was a big problem for me, even up until before I sniffed this I always said I loved the taste of it. I need advice I was in such a dark place before and really can't afford to go back there :(


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[25 Points] Derrick4Real:

This is going to sound corny...but here it goes...

Many of us have done what you did. Relapse is part of recovery my friend.

What you need to think about and remember going forward is...how bad do you feel right now about your slip?

It stings like a mufuckka doesn't it. Shame, regret, disappointment, hopelessness.

If you slipped up once and didn't go on a run, don't let it set you back. Acknowledge it, remember how you feel about it, and use that memory as a staunch reminder of how you don't want to ever feel again!

7 months clean is excellent progress. 1 slip up is a minor setback. Shake it off and forge ahead using the 7 months of clean time you have under your belt.


[13 Points] RIP_Meth_9000:

OP...do not let anyone tell you that you are powerless over cocaine!!! cocaine is nothing but an inert object that has NO FUCKING power unless you give it power!!! It has no brain & if you leave it laying on the table & walk away until next week, it will still be there when you return!!!

You are not powerless over it!!!! But you do need to find help it seems, but do not let a bunch of people in a freaking meeting tell you that you have no power!!! The hardest thing we ever do as humans is start what we see as the impossible!!! Is it impossible to walk away from cocaine...hell no!!!!

You have power & are stronger than you realize my friend :-)

http://lifering.org/addicts-are-not-powerless/


[3 Points] ohwaitshit:

Don't use this relapse as an excuse to continue using , jjust take it as a lesson. Use it as a lesson that even if you've been clean for a while, even a tiny bit - is bad news.

I did the same thing with opiates. I had a problem , I quit and 6 months later decided I would try the 2 day rule thing on the weekend. Was back up on my original dosage by Monday. The next time I quit I told myself I was powerless over this drug and any amount, even the tiniest would ruin me.

It was funny because 4-5 years after I got into a car accident and in the ER told them not to give me any opiates. The nurse said "oh are you in recovery?" - that was the first time it hit me. I was like "shit...ii guess I am"


[2 Points] killedforapepsi:

Relapses happen, I wouldn't worry about it too much. Just keep clean :))


[2 Points] None:

"The night of the fight you might feel a slight sting. That's pride fuckin' with you. Fuck pride! Pride only hurts, it never helps. You fight through that shit."

--Marcellus Wallace


[1 Points] CaptSkrimshaw:

just let it be a lapse not a relapse and move on. you live with what youve done or it kills you go forward.


[1 Points] CuriousTA123:

Stay strong buddy! You have people rooting for you! BTW, 7 months is pretty damn good!!


[-7 Points] None:

You need to change your thinking. Drugs are for fun have some self control and live a regular life. Only excuse for continuing an addiction is if you are an opioid user. Don't post here it makes the DNMs look bad. Addicts have unlimited supply on the DNM and can't control themselves. Shut it down.