Thankful

I cannot be more thankful for DNMs and to Ross for getting it all started.

I turned to DNMs a couple of years ago out of desperation. At the time, I was in the middle of my research to earn a PhD. As the case with many PIs, my thesis adviser was unable to renew several of his grants, from which my salary is paid. Eventually it got to the point where it was either pay me or pay for basic lab supplies. I was crushed when he told me that I had to find my own funding to continue my research or end it with a MS. For those unfamiliar with the current state of research funding in the United States, research grants are becoming more difficult to get even for well established and respected researchers. It's become increasingly more difficult for young scientists to enter academia because the amount of grants awarded isn't what it once was.

Since middle school, becoming a research scientist was a dream of mine and earning a PhD was the best way to put me in position to get there. I applied for every grant I could find, but only got one that didn't cover nearly enough of what I needed. I thought of working an extra job but I had no time as I was already in the lab 16-18 hours a day. I also thought of working for a couple of years and return later to complete my PhD, but when I return, my work may be already been completed by another research group. I don't have family with the money to help. I didn't know what to do...I was desperate and depressed. This is when I turned to vending on a DNM. It was slow at first, but things picked up soon enough. I fulfilled orders at a nearby cafe while an experiments were running and shipped my product with other outgoing mail from my lab. I had a philosophy of being honest and professional to all of my customers (even the ones who may not have deserved it) and shipped out every day. I wasn't a big vendor or the most well known, but I always sold out before restocking.

It allowed me to pay for the basic necessities while working to complete my doctorate. I was never in it to become rich or to scratch an itch to do something "bad". In fact, I made just enough to get by and I always had a level of discomfort with the whole thing. All I wanted was to be able to pay for food and rent and be able to accomplish one of the biggest life goals. And I am. Because of what Ross started, I'll be defending my thesis in the not-too-distant future and have already received job offers in the private sector.

What's happened to Ross pains me immensely. I would not be in the position I am right now without him and what he started. For that, I am thankful.


Comments


[32 Points] None:

Ross is sitting in jail so we could buy stuff sitting comfy in front of the computer. This is the type of posts I like to see more often. Nowdays the DNM is getting filled with paid shills and DDOS attacks.


[5 Points] young_k:

I guess we can start saying what we are thankful for too then?

I am thankful for my health, as bad as it is, it could be worse. Family, Friends, and new opportunities. Specifically, I am also thankful for the community and those that help me learn every day here. It may be viewed as a black-market, but that does not mean there aren't good people throughout.

I may not have as long and elaborate thesis/post as you, but by all means this is definitely a time to be reflecting on this sort of thing, and how lucky we are to live in a time like this.

Here's hoping Ross's holidays are "okay" and his appeal is at least granted.


[2 Points] IllegalWeedAccount:

I'm thankful for a place to sell my weed that isn't craigslist, because that's depressing as fuck.

No one wants to turn up to a street deal anyway, so to have people trying to persuade you to let him suck you off instead of pay you, is just grim.

I don't sell a lot, I'd say around a pound every coupla months, sometimes less, but it keeps me and mine just about alive.

At a time when I'm getting turned down for jobs in tesco, the dark net markets are a fucking godsend indeed.


[1 Points] None:

Family


[1 Points] Throughawayup:

Out of curiosity are you a chemist? I understand if you don't want to reveal that detail.

That's depressing to read as this affects me as well :( I'm glad you got where you needed to be though.

I totally sold lsd as an undergrad in real life (sourced from dnm) and without having that ability I would not have been able to eat. Even with what money I made I still barely got by. It was fun at first but quickly turned into a nightmare of dealing with annoying/stupid customers and getting ripped off by "friends." It was a shitty and never ending job and I'm glad it's over.


[1 Points] Pelican_Vendor:

Happy you made it out of here. I think the hardest part for most vendors is the fact that I will have to quit. This is no job you can do for 5+ years well not in my book.


[1 Points] octomarvel:

I'm thankful to Al Gore for making the intertubes.

Such a truthful convenience.

=)


[1 Points] shillsshillsgoaway:

Thankful for honest and professional vendors and Ross. http://freeross.org/


[1 Points] y_s_l_:

I'm thankful for the luxurious lifestyle I'm now able to live because of the DNMs


[1 Points] None:

tldr; i'm thankful for ma drugs


[1 Points] PiffCrew420:

Gotta love DNMs, I've known about them since SR1 but couldn't get my head round PGP, Bitcoins etc, so just had a friend who did know how to use all that stuff to order my smoke for me, but he moved away so I had to either give up that source of good hash or learn how to do all this myself, it took a little while to figure it all out and piece it together, but as long as the DNMs are around I will never purchase my stash from a street dealer ever again.

Great post man.


[1 Points] Kaptcho:

Plot twist: Your name is Ralf Heim, we all know what you discovered in your PhD dissertation.

Anyways, I am happy you found a way to finance your studies.


[1 Points] bodevelho:

the drugs you sold as a vendor, you made them yourself in the lab? or you just bought them from someone else?


[1 Points] MrCrappy57:

I like seeing this. I also agree that Ross should not have life in prison. I'm not sure how to feel about the DNMs. It's allowed me to try everything I've wanted to try and realize that I don't like most drugs. However, I have spent way too much money and jeopardized a lot.

As for this sub, it seems toxic to me. Some good folks here but lots of drama, trolling, and just negative stuff. The early days of SR1 were a kind of honeymoon, it seems. I'd like to see a more positive community.


[1 Points] None:

Just like Heisenberg, eh? I'm glad the dnm has done you well...


[1 Points] BobArctor_007:

This sounds similar to my story. Best of luck in your future endeavors.


[1 Points] fezzic573:

I am eternally thankful for my beloved family and friends. I am also thankful for the community here and what has been built on the shoulders of brave men and women before us. I am thankful that pecause of so many pioneers and troubadours, I can sit here with dmt, mdma, lsd and plentiful dank nuggets, awaiting a transcendant holiday season. I am thankful for life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. As shitty as this world (or at least the people who live in it) can be sometimes, I am thankful that my tiny little corner of it is beautiful and filled with light and love and smiling faces.


[1 Points] Vendor_BBMC:

What was your vendor name, and what did you sell?

Any legit former vendor will have no problem giving those details. i was just surprised not to see them.


[1 Points] fun4dayz:

Thanks for posting this. Idk why but it really touched me and brings me feelings of hope for our community.


[0 Points] None:

whos is ross an what happened to ross?