To preface, let it be known that SouthPole does give a 1 tab 'addon' to anyone who posts a review on Reddit. Yes I will be collecting this but it isn't the primary motive for this review. This was my very first time ordering on a DNM and taking any illicit drug period, so I'd like to share my experience.
Details | |
_Vendor: | [SouthPole LSD] |
_Market: | [Alphabay] |
_Product: | [3 x '115ug LSD tabs] |
_Shipped from: | [Canada] |
_Shipped to: | [USA] |
_Required FE: | [No] |
_Vacuum Sealed: | [No, no real need] |
_Decoy: | [Yes] |
_Handwriting: | [No] |
Rating | |
_Communication: | [10] / 10 |
_Stealth: | [8] / 10 |
_Shipping time: | [8] / 10 |
_Price value: | [9] / 10 |
_Aesthetics: | [8] / 10 |
_Weight: | [10] / 10 |
_Quality: | [10] / 10 |
_Transaction: | [9] / 10 |
_Vendor: | [8] / 10 |
_Drug: | [10] / 10 |
TOTAL SCORE: | [90] / 100 |
I want to start from the begining in the hope that it might be helpful for anyone lurking, worried about trying DNM for the first time. Included is a bit of a trip report.
Recently I found myself interested in the concept of recreational drugs. After I did a lot of reading I said fuck it I'll buy some LSD (I already knew about the existence of DNMs, although I hadn't known SR was gone). Googling quickly got me to this sub and /r/DarkNetMarketNoobs, where I had learned the basics of TAILS and other important aspects of OPSEC. Again, naively googling around, I came to know Alphabay and signed up; up to this point all of this had taken place in the same day.
That weekend I hit up LBC and purchased .1 BTC by sending someone a picture of an Amazon gift card (the quickest, non cash-deposit method I came across, I haven't used this method since), without meta data. After that I, for some reason 'self-tumbled' my .1 BTC by swishing them around through 6 of my electrum addresses before putting them in Alphabay.
Not having a lot of coins, I was pretty much looking for the cheapest LSD from a vendor with any sort of real stats that didn't require FE. I settled on Southpole (free shipping was a plus) and got 3 hits for just under $17 USD, PGP'd address, and felt nervous as fuck when I clicked order. I continued feeling nervous as fuck checking every 6 hours until it was marked as shipped, which I should add, took over 48 hours, which felt way too long. At that point I knew I was playing the waiting game. Eight days after being marked shipped I had the letter in the mail. While the LSD was hidden very well inside, I took points off of stealth for the overall external appearence, which was lacking. I need not go into details but the letter looked sketchy as fuck: If I lined up 10 random peices of any kind of junk/real letters and asked you to guess which one had drugs in it, I guarantee you'd only need once guess.
I was able to take 1 hit that evening. Again here I should mention I had never done any illicit drugs before, or even abused legal/prescribed drugs (except trying DXM once). This first experience was lack-luster to say the least, I would guess that the tab was underdosed or I was just unlucky with how it was layed. There was definitely a mood lift and if I stared at anything for a few seconds I'd see lines move around swimingly. Other than that there was no detectable change in headspace outside of NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP, good god this was one thing about LSD I had read about that I was skeptical of. After not tripping hard at all 4 hours later I just wanted to go to bed but was wide awake for another 3-4 hours.
Now, while I should have controlled myself I couldn't help but take the other two tabs just 4 days later late evening. This time I was truly tripping hard, and I wasn't dissapointed at all. I was watching youtube videos during the come-up and thought I would feel something around the hour mark of dosing but felt little different and maybe lines on the wall were moving? I couldn't tell. The next 20 minutes or so were spent munching on some pretzels listening to music until I had to go to the bathroom. On the way the paint lines on the walls were shifting some and I had thought that again I was in for a letdown of a trip, and that my lingering tolerance would make it lack-luster.
I was wrong.
In the bathroom I looked in the mirror and BAM the wrinkles in my shirt were flowing, moving. I was wearing a waterfall of grey that started at the collar around my neck and flowed down to my waist, I was wondering why I didn't feel wet. I must have stared at this and at my floating face for at least 5 minutes with my penis hanging out (I peed in the sink, this is normal for me). At this point I knew I was in for a ride.
The entire trip the headspace was very strange and I still can't think of a great way to describe it. It felt like my head and brain was inflated 10% more than normal and as such I couldn't think too hard about any one thing for a long time which sometimes felt uncomfortable. I kept moving from thought to thought. Sometimes this made me anxious as I wanted to remain calm and just feel steady. This was especially troublesome around hour 4 or 5 because I didn't know how long I was going to be this way. I was able to recall from my reading of LSD that reminding oneself that the effects are of just the drug and that it's temporary can help. I was doing this but I remember having my tinfoil hat on and thinking OH GOD I'VE NEVER TRIPPED BEFORE, WHAT IF IT'S ALL BULLSHIT AND I'M LIKE THIS FOREVER? HOW DO I KNOW ALL THE STORIES AREN'T LIES; I'VE NEVER HAD A 'COMEDOWN' BEFORE, WHAT IF IT DOESN'T HAPPEN?
This was the closest aspect I had to experiencing a 'bad trip', the rest of the time I enjoyed the headspace and enjoyed specifically thinking about certain things and examining how the 'tone' of my attitude was toward them when they came to mind. Does this make sense?
Anyway...I didn't take notes or anything during the trip because I was restless and couldn't take the time to write, so I'll just recall in as close to true order as I can some of the things I did.
Before going upstairs I played with a Newton's Cradle. PSA: newton's cradles are an amazing trip toy, no further words needed. After, I went to my bedroom and laid in my bed without shorts on (not normal for me) and had the urge to rub one out (interestingly, I guess?, nothing felt different here). After cleaning up I picked up a painting off my wall and began studying it closely. The dabs of paint flowed into oneanother and the colors were mixing. I also saw faces everywhere in the painting, no matter what it was my brain perceived a face, it was weird.
I went to /r/LSD and clicked around on some of the sidebar links on fun things to do while tripping. The plink game: http://labs.dinahmoe.com/plink/ was definitely fun as shit. I was laughing my ass off touching around on my laptop screen making sick beats with these other dudes. That was one hella fun 20 minutes, no joke. At some point I went and watched a LOT of cinemasins and music video sins youtube videos. Everything on the screen flowed and melted into one another but I found every single line funny. I was laughing at references I didn't get. Watching these also was very good, I should add, at taking my attention away from some of the anxious thoughts I wrote about above. Music wasn't doing this very well for me.
Eventually I went downstairs and played with my ferrets, which was a very bonding experience. I have several of them. After waking each one of them up I giggled the fuck out of seeing them yawn. Every yawn = uncontrollable chuckling/giggling. They felt amazing and the spots in their coats were like looking into a lava lamp. One started licking my hand and we were instantly the bestest friends EVER.
After this I snacked on a few strawberries, a kiwi, and more pretzels. There was a lot of fun experiencing these flavors and textures, like I was feeling them for the first time, feeling every detail. Walking outside I sat down on my driveway leaning against my car. I felt very attached to my car and all of a sudden was filled with strong feelings of appreciation for all it does for me. We've been through a lot together and it's been fixed up many a time. We've always been there for one another. It's a car that looks like a bug, but its a strong bug, I have a strong bug friend, that's nice.
Laying down now, looking up at the sky was fucking surreal. The moon seemed like it was a whole in blackness that is the sky and had the thought that this is what the sky would look like if Atlas hammered a peg and yanked it out. Half the sky was overcastish while the other half was clear. I was going back and forth between looking at the clouds move (which I could stop with a single thought, let them go, and sometimes make them speed up super fast), and to the other half, where I saw several stars with different colored dots of light ping ponging between them. It was all very beautiful.
Anyway, that's all the stuff that's worth mentioning. I definitely had a BLAST of a time and can't wait to order some more and do this again. The possibilities of changing set/setting astound me; maybe I'll walk to the park, wear different clothes, play tic tac toe with myself, day/night, who knows?
Well that's it. Keep on truckin' people.
Is the review bonus an ongoing thing?