I was raided and arrested for trying to purchase poison from AlphaBay

Hey. A few years back I got arrested and sent to a YOI for a couple of months and a police cell for three days before that. It was due to attempting a purchase on a deep web marketplace. It was on the news a lot. If anyone has any questions concerning the experience I'd be happy to answer. Below are a few links referring to my case.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2956869/Teenage-boy-girl-16-arrested-suspicion-terror-offences-police-raids-homes.html

https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/teenagers-aged-16-terrorism-arrests-8661010

https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/two-teenagers-arrested-suspicion-terrorism-8666253

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/terrorism-in-the-uk/11417349/Anti-terror-police-arrest-boy-and-girl-of-16.html


Comments


[90 Points] AnalBabe420:

Well the links were nearly worthless.

Tell the story yourself. All ears


[33 Points] ThrowAwayExpect1234:

Don't take anything I say the wrong way cause none of this is an attack or shit talk

Have you got pussy? Your outlook and priorities change a lot when you start getting ass on the regular. I'm not talking about being in a relationship. Just sayin. Fuckin hoes heals souls

Wheres your dad at? Idk what your relationship is like wit your parents and who is or isn't around. But if your pops or some male figure is around regularly that isn't your friend then kick it wit em. Not saying someone abusive I just mean like your old man or uncle for example.

If not then the alternative is jump online for the next step

Get you some beer and have a brew wit your old man/chatroom/forum etc

Next pick three sports. Two team and one not team.

What major sports team is your area? That's your team now. You don't get to pick or choose. You live there you be loyal

Get your beers ( 4 is enough ) and start wit the oldest championship you can find for your teams. Don't go further than mid-70s tho Id say even the oldest 1980s is a better start.

Drink n talk shit wit whoever

You're a man. But you're a teen bro. Emotions right now to you ain't what they gone be later. It's part of the process and it sucks nobody was there to set you straight.

Somebody was supposed to tell you that as men there are 3 things we love

They are Pussy. / Ass. / Titties. / Mouth. / Fuckemallbruh but you're too young for attachments Party. / Drugs. / Dranks. / Celebrating. / Playing. / Competing. / Winning. /

Start there

I see you're smart but you aren't aware. It's cool you can take information and use it. But those "degenerates" understand loyalty among other things much better than you do. It ain't always about goin against the grain. Be aware of shit man cause right now you're a dumb smart guy

Manhood is all brotherhood. Sports she is always a good foot into the door of any connection. So is beer n other shit The bitches you hittin is a measure of the fun y'all getting into

N suchthings


[12 Points] YPG-Got-Raqqa:

Fucking British police taking care to warn the community that they may experience anxiety with the arrests happening while American police shoot your fucking dog for being in the next yard over during an arrest.


[7 Points] AnalBabe420:

Also what was the plan? How did you get caught (like undercover purchase or what), what was the poison, etc etc etc. Many many questions


[5 Points] FeatsOfStrength:

Can you give more of a description of the type of people you were incarcerated with?

In the past when I went through a phase of ordering lots online, what happened to you and how i couldn't deal with people in prison was a constant source of worry. Great AMA though, you don't usually hear anything from the people on the receiving end of these kind of stories unless you know them in person.


[6 Points] Nixons_Man_Boobs:

This is one of the best threads I’ve ever read. So many layers of raw emotion, human psychology, and societal interaction in this little niche of Reddit. I am pleased I came across this.


[4 Points] old-faithful:

Damn, thats one hell of a story dude. I can tell by your writing that you've got a brain on you. But, I just can't comprehend the extent to which your mind is pressured by depression and anxiety. I know a few people who have gone through similair mental health issues. Unlike you though, they seemed to me to be more on the side of accepting death (evident through insane drug use which only would compound their sumbission to dying), rather than be actively seeking it like you did. Im wondering if thoughts of being clean and well ever arise through the madness. Have you ever had a thought give you the feeling of a will to change ? What is the most recent happy moment you can remmeber without drugs? How was your depression and anxiety while you were in YOI? Sorry if i seem probing, but im also dealing with depression and anxiety, also trying to move past an unfaithful and manipulative ex. She was the only thing that seemed to fix my fucked impulses and depression. After finding out about all the shit she did over the years, I can't even tell you how fast my world-view changed. There seems to be little hope for anything real and pure, true and fufilling in this world unless you get high and ignore this feeling of hopelessness and trust paranioa.

The thing is though, my sober mind is not always consumed by these feelings. In moments of compassion and love, from something even as simple as helping someone pick up what they dropped and getting a smile and thanks back, those negative feelings do not exist. They are not even on the periphery. Sometimes after a moment like this I stop and think about what just happened, only to then find myself grinning without even knowing it.


[3 Points] Thx002:

Poison pffttt today all you need is some sprinkled carfentanyl in your tongue


[2 Points] Letsplayer56789:

Wow it's not often that stories like these are posted. Awesome story tho, hope your not suicidal anymore!


[2 Points] RoundBuytossaway:

This is the best thread I have read on here in a LONG LONG time

Thanks


[2 Points] CamsGraphics:

I truly hope you’re in a better place now, I remember seeing this story somewhere and it was skewed around to make you seem like a bit of a psychopath.

I’m glad I read this, keep on keeping on, life finds a way


[2 Points] TankerBuzz:

I hope you are out of that dark patch now. But shit man... you dont have to fuck with your mums head so much. Show a bit of respect and kill yourself in a forest like the Japanese do... Also the UK still has a lot of guns on farms. Their are a lot off fool proof methods if you do them correctly. Im glad you didnt however. Things will get better, but imo you have to stay sober if you want happiness in the long term. Stimulants/barbituates are just band-aids, rip that fucker off and face life head on. Whats the worse that could happen? you have already been through hell, so it will be a walk in the park


[2 Points] at_eternitys_gate:

You can count yourself lucky you didn't receive anything. I tried to kill myself with ricin, which is closely related to abrin, and survived (albeit with significant agony for several days).

There is no perfect suicide method. Even ricin/abrin are not invariably lethal (a lot depends on how much you ingest, and how), although there's not much a hospital can do for treatment outside of supportive care.


[2 Points] SpeedStepper:

shit happens


[1 Points] throwaways141:

Rad story was a good read, also suicide may seem a good idea for a few months/years but ultimately your outlook on life will change you just have to get past that dark spot in your life


[1 Points] Ketsa:

The day I want to suicide, I pull the trigger on a 9mm...


[1 Points] screwplease:

I bet you wont do that again.


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[1 Points] ShortbreadFreshener:

I got suspended for two weeks from my university due to this thread lmao.


[1 Points] Unclebartardjr:

I'm sorry how can you attempt that many times at suicide and fail to the point of trying to get poison off the darknet? Obviously you didn't wanna die... I knew people that killed themself and they got it done first try so this was sad and kinda funny


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