How many of you picked up a habit because of the DNMs?

How many of you have picked up a hard drug habit due to the ability to buy drugs online with no connections? I'd used opiates here and there before the DNMs, whenever I could steal them out of medicine cabinets or had a surgery I could milk a scrip from. The ability to order heroin online with no connections or social interaction really kickstarted my habit, though, and I got high for a long time solely on dope I bought through SR2 or Evo. After that I figured things out on my own, and moved to buying in person because I could call someone at any time and not have to be sick waiting on a pack that might never show up.

In rehab people used to joke that you could instantly tell who was using the internet to get drugs or research chems because they were too anxious or awkward to do it in person. I got sniffed out pretty fast, and there was one other kid who was addicted to synthetic cannabanoids and had really bad panic disorder. I guess it's becoming a lot more common for people who are basically shutins to go through rehab now, from what the staff told me.

I've thought about writing a short article about it; the trifecta of mental illness, internet addiction, and substance addiction made possible via the internet. I always thought about how confusing it would've been for my parents if they found me dead of an overdose. How can my son be a drug addict if he never leaves the house?


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[75 Points] throwitwaywaywayaway:

I kicked a heavy opiate addiction that I'd had since I was about 14 thanks to the darknet.

I never went to needles, but I took high doses every single day for the first decade of my adult life and quite frankly never saw myself getting off them -- or living past 30, for that matter.

I'm staunchly atheist and I don't like listening to self-pity, so NA was a terrible fit for me. Being able to buy suboxone, gabapentin, and clonidine without anyone knowing made it possible to have the struggle to get clean become something entirely personal instead of something that everyone else was aware of and trying to insert themselves into.

After 3 months without opiates I bought "liquid psilocybin" from TripWithScience and figured out that I might have the ability to parse through my history of addiction and come out a happy person after all.

A couple months after that experience I bought LSD for the first time and had what I consider an absolutely life changing breakthrough and probably one of the the most significant moments of my life so far.

The last 18 months or so have been the absolute happiest of my life and for the first time since I was 11, I have had no need for antidepressants and no desire to do opiates, alcohol, or other drugs that I used to use to mask the pain of daily drudgery.

People around me really like me and I'm finally able to accept that and appreciate all the wonderful things in my life today even if it was often a painful road to get here.

Drug availability can certainly feed addictions, but freedom is the only answer to the mental prison of a heavy habit. I'm convinced that being able to choose when/where/how/why you want to get clean is the key to not just achieving a clear mind but finally being able to enjoy it.

None of this would have been possible for me without the markets and it seriously pains me that such breakthroughs are out of reach for most people who need them simply because of our backwards laws and need to punish those who are already hurting.


[27 Points] ForLol_Serious:

I'm addicted to ordering drugs.


[15 Points] bobbiggs69:

I think most of us picked up the DNM because of a habit.


[12 Points] SamuelEdwardKonkinIV:

Just the habit of spending waaay to much time on reddit.


[8 Points] None:

Coke thanks to selling bars ! Fuck it tho


[7 Points] DatMaxFreak:

Meth. I'd dabbled with it a few times a decade ago, but never had a connect and never bought my own. I just did it with friends. Then along come the DNMs and I think to myself: that shit used to be pretty fun. Give it a try again. So I ordered .2 g and it arrived in two solid crystals. I did a 15 mg line and buzzed all night. Worked on some code, made some music, and felt great the next day. Not even a headache. Next weekend: same thing. Next weekend, I take a break but I find myself constantly tempted by it.

The weekend after that, I celebrate my sobriety by doing it Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. The weekend flew by and next thing I knew, it was 4:00 am on Monday morning and I had to work. But I was still geeking hard. So I said fuck it and called out from work and did it all day Monday. But then Tuesday came like an evil bastard and I had to stop. Hellllooooooo comedown. I felt like shit. Fatigued, cloudy head, back pain. If you've never had a bad come down from speed, it's hard to explain but it's fucking awful. But it only lasted a few days and by the time Friday came around I was already thinking "that wasn't so bad. Maybe this time just do it tonight because it's Friday and then you'll have the weekend to recover."

This seemed like sound advice until Saturday morning rolls around and I'm still tweaking. Two choices: suffer through the day all tired and shit while the speed slowly wears off, or just do a little to get me through the day. Well, meth has legs and if you don't time that shit right, then you'll find yourself unable to sleep. But that's ok because you can just stay up and do more.

There's something extra insidious to me about a drug that both gives you energy and takes it away. Tiredness becomes a trigger. And you quickly find that the intense focus you used to get gives way to a euphoric spaciness. It's easy to get so high on meth that you don't actually want to do anything except jerk off and do more meth.

It took me a couple of years, but I am now almost 100% stim free. I keep some Armodafinil around just in case, and I drink plenty of caffeine, but that's it. Any time the little crackhead voice in my head starts whispering about meth, the other voices brutally shame him. He's much much quieter now, but I don't think he'll ever be gone. And yes, this sub is absolutely a trigger.

It's funny: I've noticed that opiate addicts fully admit how awful opiates are. How destructive they've been and how difficult they are to quit. And most simply resign themselves to managing the risks. Meth addicts on the other hand are in complete denial that meth is harmful. They figure since their teeth didn't immediately fall out, that all the propaganda is a lie and meth is harmless as baby powder. It's just the cuts, man. Or impurities leftover from a bad cook. If you get the REAL shit, the good voodoo black magic shit that BBMC makes, you can mainline it every day for weeks and not even get a headache. And it's definitely not addictive. People like meth_9000 have been doing it for decades and they're not hooked! Fucking evil drug, man.


[7 Points] None:

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[9 Points] None:

I have in my hands more LSD that I really have any use for. And I want more! Am I too deep already?


[6 Points] None:

The DNM's showed me that the only drug I could ever see myself having a serious fuckin' problem with is Ketamine. I think I spent around $1000 on k in a month and a half.


[4 Points] Tune-chi:

I got a taste of opiate addiction and what withdrawals feel like and it was an good experience. It made me aware there are some things I shouldn't fuck with. Everyone thinks I'll try this once and that will be it. I'm stronger willed than that guy so I won't go down that road. Sometimes you do slip down that slope.


[2 Points] DexOyama:

I thought I had picked up a bad habit but there hasnt been anything that has stuck I mean weed but I get that irl. Xanax is nice half a bar and few beers before bed and I sleep like a baby but I dont do it every day out of fear of becoming addicted to it.


[1 Points] twigburst:

I picked up an opioid/benzo addiction from online consultations 15 years ago. Wasn't DNM, but it was mail order drugs off the internet.


[3 Points] LordDongler:

I smoke way more weed now than I would have otherwise, but that's just because it's so cheap

Edit: and all the cheap acid I could have ever hoped for


[2 Points] None:

BENZO POWDER

holy fuck, that shits cheap nigga


[2 Points] xansllcureya:

The markets really turned me onto Xans.


[2 Points] sound_effect1999:

I like the thrill of ordering and having the drugs come from the post man as much as the drugs themselves. It's a rush knowing the the delivery guy is dropping off a pack, or walking into a post office and picking up a pack in person. That one is the kicker, makes your balls swell to an enormous size picking that shit up in person and waltzing right out of the post office with a gram of H.


[2 Points] justaniceyoungman:

Long story short: Like most, I started with some pills from somebody else's prescription. Found out about the markets and started ordering loads of Tramadol. Kept climbing the opiate ladder (with a bad Xanax addiction in between) and ended my drug use (and vending career) with Acetyl Fentanyl. I am now almost a month clean.


[2 Points] minionmayhem88:

Alcohol was always my thing. Drugs never were. I had done ecstasy, ketamine, and even some meth twice when I was younger, but it never "stuck" with me. It was always alcohol that was my downfall.

Fast forward a decade. I discover the DNM trying to look for Naltrexone which is said to be a semi-cure for alcoholism when used a certain way.

Fast forward two more years. I got the Naltrexone and I have cut my alcohol consumption by approximately 90-95%. I got my life back. In the meantime, I realized that I have a ton of friends who are always looking for MDMA, so buy some and started dealing.

Fast forward another year. Alcohol addiction almost gone. Making a decent profit selling MDMA to my friends at twice the price I buy it for on here.

Haven't dared to even try to buy any other drugs like coke, meth, etc.... they're just too "dangerous" and I like where I am in life at the moment.

If you were to ask me honestly straight to my face, I would say the DMN has been a very very positive influence in my life all around. No complaints.


[1 Points] topknotch89:

not any i didnt already.now i just have quality options.


[1 Points] DetIskallaTrollblod:

That's something I didn't even think about. I don't really do anything that you can get easily hooked on (like, feasibly it's possible, enough people do, but I've never really felt that way about a substance cause I get bored of a substance if I do it too often) but I am on the DNMs because my last dealer was my ex and they stole $350 from me. All my other drug friends are too flaky to depend on and they only even have weed. I'm too much of a shut-in to make more connections. So here I am.


[1 Points] TrynaCatchTheBeat:

I haven't gotten addicted to anything, but my overuse of the DNMs got me kicked out of school. However, that hasn't stopped me from using them, so that's probably not good.


[1 Points] bacondev:

I'm always worry about this when I tell people about the darknet markets. I know that any habits that they develop due to easy access to drugs through the darknet markets, but I still feel like it would be partly my fault, which would make me feel like shit if it was a (negatively) life-changing habit.


[1 Points] safjssfsdfsdjkf:

you have to be pretty damn rich to sustain a decent habit off the DNMs. I've had street connect for $160 CDN so like $100 USD right now grams that are a 6.5/10 when the best DNM dope (flavourstop, goodfellers etc) might be a 7-8/10. from delivery lines that run 7 days a week from 10am till midnite. DNMs are convenient but far too expensive and relying on the postal service sucks. It's best to just supplement your daily habit with it and not rely on them entirely. If you are an addict you NEED IRL connects or else you need to be really on the ball about making sure you are recieving orders consistently.


[1 Points] dirty_deeds_DDC:

I don't know how safe it is to blame DNM for your habit honestly. You were already of a mindset that made it okay to steal from people's medicine cabinets. That should have let you know right there that you are one of those addictive personality types.


[1 Points] defiancetime:

im addicted to flipping packs =/


[1 Points] Molly-Cyrus:

Now I'm a big fat liar.


[1 Points] RIP_Meth_9000:

TBH.....Had the meth & midget hooker addiction a long time now....Bahahahahaha!!!!!!!


[1 Points] None:

I've picked up a habit of ordering shit I don't need cause the price is so good lol. Besides that I only order shit I was doing long before the markets came around.


[0 Points] Juicecoder:

Nope


[-8 Points] clo3o5:

Just cause you have access to something doesn't mean you should try it you fucking junkie.