Being a vendor is so lonely :(

Literally the only person that knows I sell drugs is myself. I can't tell anybody this shit if I want to be secure as possible, but it's so weird. I have a part time job that know one knows about. I've been in some crazy fucking situations that I can never tell at parties. It kind of sucks, really.

It's kind of fun to allude to being a vendor sometimes, even if it's a bad habit. Like if someone sees I have a $100 bill in my wallet, it's fun to joke that I got it dealing drugs...which is true.

The worst is when I spend a full day doing things that could potentially give me life in prison, then I come home to my SO and she asks me how my day was, and I say "Eh it was fine, did a lot of work, busy at the office, etc". She has NO IDEA how much weight I just fucking moved. If I was just a regular person and my SO was a successful drug dealer and I never knew about, I'd probably have a god damn stroke.

Vendors, gimme your thoughts. Who do you tell your crazy stories to? What shit has gone down that you've never gotten to tell anyone for OPSEC reasons?


Comments


[10 Points] AlpraKing:

I feel you bro. Once I was chilling with a friend who had no clue what I do and there's this guy who rings at my door to bring me owed money (around 75k) I had completely forgot about. I pick up the pack and bring it downstair where my cash counting machine is and dump it on the ground to start counting it like it was peanuts, then my buddy looks at the cash with those big O.O eyes and I tell him "Don't ask, you wouldn't believe me anyway. No one ever does"


[11 Points] None:

Buy a dog!!!!!!!


[8 Points] 180K:

Never tell anyone IRL. You have friends and support here and in other forums. You're not alone.


[7 Points] purpletastesgood:

Tell me about it man... I'm in the same boat as you. I'm clearing about 5k per week and I can't tell ANYONE. I buy nice things but need to tell my friends that my freelancing job is doing really well.

I have to sneak around dropping off shipments and cashing in bitcoin, setting up holding companies and shit. My girlfriend is getting suspicious. I feel bad lying to her all the time but I don't have much of a choice.

I used to drop subtle hints like you do but now I entertain myself by acting really stupid when drugs come up in conversation. "what's an eight ball? whats molly? etc". That's how I entertain myself.

I think we need a place to vent sometimes. Just make sure it's a safe place. I like this sub reddit actually. Stay safe, don't fuck up. Remember, we won't be doing this forever. There's light at the end of the tunnel.


[6 Points] None:

Iv got a £18,000 Rolex watch that I wear. Everyone who sees it and looks at it tells me its fake and I go along with it. Ah the pain!


[5 Points] None:

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What is this?


[4 Points] ravendarkh0lme:

It's a tough gig. It's lonely, you miss out on fun things on the weekend when you're back ordered. But what's funner than all that? Sitting on your bed smoking a joint, and counting more cash then all your friends make in a month combined. It's a lonely gig, but if you have an end plan you'll be able to enjoy the fruits of your labor.

Be safe and tell no one. I made the mistake of telling my exgf what I did. She never threatened me with it or anything. But I realized that was an unnecessary risk telling her. Your gf will always be happy if you tell them nothing and just occasionally buy them something shiny.

Who do I talk to about all this? OG's who've been there don't that. Learn from their mistakes. Be a sponge and soak up knowledge and what not.


[3 Points] adderallFAST:

1 other who does my drops and my "wife" i have the marriage license / certificate and if im arrested my lawyer will mail it in.

once was using a gpen at a party and a friend of a friend asked if i ever used a DNM and i responded with confusion and asked him to explain it and said it sounded like a scam :)


[3 Points] CookyDough:

Boohoo. You'll have to wipe away those lonely tear drops with hundred dollar bills.


[2 Points] YeOldeShoppe2:

I don't subscribe to the absolute doctrine of "you cannot reveal to anyone IRL what you do ever." What if you have a very close personal friend who happens to be a Senator? Just saying. Never say never. Some relationships could give you a unique advantage and keep you out of a cell. But yeah, probably best not to be bringing it up at parties.


[1 Points] SLOPSEC:

kingpins movin more weight than sumos


[1 Points] hulkedbenzoboss-dnm:

My wife knows what I do. The majority of what I do anyway, she's cool with it.


[1 Points] None:

I know your pain :)


[1 Points] DoubleHappiness_AB:

Feel free to talk to other vendors such as myself. We can be valuable resources to each other.


[1 Points] PierceArrow02:

Totally get your point on at least wanting to clue SOMEONE in at some perfect time and everything, but you're exactly right as far as wanting to stay safe. Take solace in the fact though that being that you do this, and according to your post move a fairly significant amount of weight...realize you must be good at the double life otherwise someone would've figured you out by now, someone close to you I mean, as no random person you've met twice or see twice a year should really have a clue or you'd be the exact opposite and horrible at what you do lol. Anyway, yeah....take comfort in that, its like your James Bond side only....different hahaha


[1 Points] GreenMatters:

My employees know a few stories; other than that, family & friends don't know sh*t about how much I make a year nor what I do on my computer...


[-4 Points] Devoid_:

Be honest with your SO, you could drastically fuck his/her life up in a heart beat. She needs to know how to deal with police and what to say if your in an adult relationship. If it's just some chick then fuck it, bitches will throw you under the bus