Final Update (Thor)/Thank You/Vendor Review (KarmaSyndicate)/Vendor Inquiry/Discussion/My head is a mess

first, i apologize again for the untimely update. it's been another weird couple of days. i would have liked to respond to everyone (and that WAS the plan) but this seemed more efficient. i mostly wanted to say thank you so much to all the people that showed support. it's really touching to know that such a "shady" subreddit could be so supportive. it meant more to me than you could possibly know.

i'd also like to address a few comments/questions. Thor was a husky/shepherd cross. i'm not comfortable posting a picture of him (OPSEC). a big guy. we called him "The Destroyer" with good reason. hahaha. this is why i believed a small envelope could have been eaten without a trace. i can't seriously be the only person with a dog that ate all their shit, right? lol. but i totally get the nature of this subreddit and understand why some people had negative shit to say/thought i was making it up. it's cool. we're still good. ;)

i also wanted to give a shout out to KarmaSyndicate for the excellent tab that helped us all get through the tough time. i left the pack on the table because i snagged some MDA off him for some friends because there is literally NO other way to find it where i am. he was nice enough to throw in a ten strip for me to try. super cool guy. check him out.

this is where it gets a bit dicey. while i was lurking and reading all of your comments a couple days ago there was a post about microdosing as well. i'd never really thought of doing it but after our experience at the lake i started to think that maybe it could help me get to a better place in my life. so yesterday i decided to try it out, get all lovey, and respond to all your comments!

we had finished the ten strip that we had but my buddy (skillsaw) had a couple left over from a festival so he hooked me up. my logic was that it had been so close to the last time i tripped i should probably double the dose. i was aiming for around the 20ug mark. so i figured random festival acid was probably pretty weak (80ug?) and a quarter tab would do me just right. wrong. i dunno if it was the lay or what but it felt closer to 40ug. you know that feeling just before you come up, palms are sweaty, getting a little anxious? yeah. that. but ALL day. just constantly on the edge of "tripping" but never getting there. it was not great.

i would like to keep doing this but with KarmaSyndicate fucked with the strike, i'm at a loss. so now I am DELICATELY trying to find out what your experiences with LSD vendors FOR THE PURPOSE OF MICROSDOSING are. MODS - PLEASE GIVE ME WARNING AND I WILL EDIT THIS POST IF IT BREAKS THE RULES. i am mostly wondering about the consistency of their sheets. i do not want to have a strange experience like with the last hit. price/shipping is irrelevant as 1 hit should last days and days. this is likely a one off order. hopefully it will be allowed if we keep the discussion away from anything too specific. :)

anyway, like i siad, my head is a mess. what a fucking weird week. but i want you all to know how grateful i am. much love for all of you!!! :D

P.S. extra big shoutout to u/deepestvoice. he said, "I'm just saying some kids are going to be playing on the river when a dead half burned dog floats up to them." solid fucking point, man. we were not thinking. at all. we're headed back out this weekend with a raft and trolling motor. the last thing i need on my conscious is a traumatized kid. so, thank you. for real. :)


Comments


[1 Points] Lucid_Enemy:

Honestly it feels like you plan on microdosing to get over your loss my personal opinion while studys have shown LSD to help with depression I for one do not feel it should be the main line defense against depression and trauma I do however see the benefit as well as the creative power it can help you attain... maybe see if you can go out find some joy in your life before you embark on this since as you've noticed mistakes can happen and being alone and in a uncomfortable trip can be more traumatising and put you deeper into depression.... I think I saw a vendor who was running a trial on microdosing tabs a few weeks back I don't remember who it was but definitely something to check on


[1 Points] Zathras_listens:

You have to cut the tabs into like 8-10 pieces when micro-dosing. I normally just cut the tiniest sliver, almost the smallest you could be able to cut with scissors.


[1 Points] None:

There is or was a vendor on dhl that sells vials of micro dosed liquid. Can remember his name though


[1 Points] helpslipfrank:

hey man, yeah microsdosing does can actually be a bit of a tool in making your own reality, but it's a bit more work than just taking your medicine. Detailed journaling, and reflection are needed, (at least in my camels' eyes) to get the most out of it. And cycle, like 1 on 3 off; and take a subactive dose. happy trails :)