ITS OVER FOR ME. GOODBYE EVERYONE. ILL EXPLKAIN BRIEFLY

Yes, still going to rehab planks just got delayed due to funding but our travel date is set but we've heard from friends back home its been taking up to a month to get into treatment, and were we are going we Dont know anyone so we were gonna send some on ahead. I knew it was a bad idea but your responses confirmed it and scared us to death ESPECIALLY about ing anything with us, I just thought it was a wicked normal thing you all do all the time amnamnd someone would give me a simple step by step, in see now I'm not prepared to do this so preflight well do what we can and then tough it out. Maybe some friends back home. Anyways thanks for the advice and pointing out that it's a def nono we leave in two weeks and thats it for me forever. Not even pot. I've had my fun. Imndone. Thx again. Just gonna nut up and do it.


Comments


[29 Points] drewlaflare:

Wut m8


[14 Points] None:

ewrgbertgbertgb


[7 Points] chuudtheblowfish:

Good luck man! It's good what you're doing. I've been there and it really helped me as a human being. Sure I still have my fun, but it made me a way more responsible father and husband in the long run bro. GL


[4 Points] None:

Good luck bro!


[3 Points] None:

You can do it. Every step you take is a stronger one ahead. It's scary as shit, but once you go your first 24 hours without drugs its a fucking beautiful thing (Regardless of being in the throes of withdrawl). You got this. I wish you the best.


[3 Points] None:

I'm happy that you're getting clean! Do it for your family! Get clean and start a future with your girl! We are all rooting for you man. You can do it!


[3 Points] Iamxanninballecter:

Really wasn't expecting all the love and encouragement. And yes I may or may not have been on the tard side of the bar last night.

There was a good six months where I really enjoyed myself here everyday in my downtime. Also, I made some really nice friends, I'm not gonna say anyone by name just out of respect for not being attached to such a trainwreck. Lol but seriously you know who you are, love you guys.

Love all you guys. I just want to say thank you for the respect. I used to tell you guys all about the drugs I did, so i figured id share what happened because of it and over time i did. so I was just going to delete my account and go, but a part of me felt it was wrong to not say bye, but to tell the story of being one of those guys who can't do stuff like bars or Oxys and just leave it there. I wish I could've but the Friday turned into the weekend turned into everyday.

And it fucked my life up, I have a family and at my age if I nut up and just do this one thing now. My kids are still young enough where they won't even remember, plus I just can't live like this anymore. Some of y'all know what an oxy/sub/benzo daily habit is like. Its fucking brutal. You can't live a normal life and I'm pretty good at the lifestyle but in the end turns out I really wasn't at all, I was a joke. A sad one.

Its fucking brutal and I'm over it. So I'm gonna leave it there. If anything KIDS AND THE YOUNGINS DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT take the same drug more then three days in a row recreationally. And learn from my dumbass. I'm scared to death, I've been doing this for a good bit of my life. I'm just going into it looking at it like the pain I'm going to feel, the withdrawal, anxiety and who knows what else. Uncharted territory for me. I'm looking at that pain as like a right of passage or more like a penance I have to pay for all the time I did the wrong thing so that I can be a man and give my family a life worth living. They're very beautiful, my family. Its time to stop playing the boy and Jon snow this bitch and let the man be born.

Thank you all again. For your time and all the times you made me laugh and gave me an escape. When I'm out I'll make a new account prob banana boy something and let y'all know how it all turned out.

Pray for me.

-Lecter a.k.a banana boy


[2 Points] SomethingLe:

I hope you make it, proud to say I'm one of the non drug addicted people in my family. But it's almost as hard to see them suffer and I'm just waiting for that phone call.


[2 Points] KingHonky:

After reading this post, I think rehab may be a good option.


[2 Points] None:

Does anyone here speak bartard?


[-16 Points] None:

no one cares u have narcissism to think anyone give a shit