Paranoia or more than coincidences?

Okay, I'll start from the beginning of dnms for me. I've always known about bmr way before I ever knew of sr back in the day and all the other stuff that came with the tor network. I've always lurked the darknet before sr gained huge attraction. I liked seeing the archives of porn the darknet gave me haha.

Well anyways, got a job at this place. And a new guy comes in and befriends me right away. Tells me about the dnms (sr). So ended up trying and got some. Used to use money grams to get coins and id leave the receipts in the car. The same guy introduced me got into my car and somehow notice the moneygram docs and grabbed it and closely looked at them. I had alot of things on my floor but he decided to grab the moneygrams as if he knew what they were and just put them down.

Copped some stuff here and there and he asked me for some too and I'd get it for him. Then he asked if he could use my drop as well and I declined him. Seemed like a really cool dude, i liked him. Then he started becoming a little unethical and violent toward me. So I slowly try to distance myself from him because he was becoming a little strange and it frightened me.

Long story short, he goes missing. No one hears from this guy ever again. Total MIA.

Fast forward, got another job and i noticed the employees started talking about things that were huge influences or things i can relate to in the strangest ways. So I noticed the employees there were asking me alot of things and questions too. There was this employee that they had surgery and was on heavy painmeds that were very strong and produced huge highs. It sounded like glorification of the substance. I responded very neutral and this kinda freaked me out because I love painmeds and it's awesome. I thought it was nothing at first as well. Then some time pass and employee brings up the same topic about painmeds but except, it was with other employees around this time and empl was shunning pain meds and that parent died from overdose and that parent got them online (dnms). This time the perspective was not glorifying but speaking only negative things of painmeds and that they are given to someone else. I thought this was really strange.. Now at this moment i felt like this person was trying to fish me. I don't understand how someone switches like that so fast. I was so tempted to ask if I can get some but the situation seem too strange for me to take that leap of faith.

then i notice other employees talking about something that I have huge relations to but it was like they knew about my online porn activity or something. And I always watch porn on clearnet. I thought this was strange too but i felt this strange feeling that they knew about it. Now it really sketched me out because I never talk about pornography or women like that to new people I've met. Nor do i give off that that's what I talk about.

Then a new guy is hired and he befriends me super quickly as well. Seem like a genuine nice guy but like 1st week of being there, he asked me if I needed weed and just to let him know. This sketched me the fuck out too. He even showed me the weed and everything and it was some reggie. He would tell me that he pushes zips. I also notice that some of them would ask where I live too and stuff even when my information was already recorded in documents. It's like they knew i moved too as well which I did.

I'm not sure what to believe but be careful to who you talk to. It's not my nature to reveal my identity to anyone I don't trust nor about the things i do. I really feel like there are people who's just out there to get us or entrap. I know this could just all be a coincidence but it's so odd to even believe it's just is.

be safe and smart friends~


Comments


[1 Points] Theeconomist1:

This is sort of confusing and dont' know what to make of it. You work in an unique environment where drug use is talked about pretty openly. I think you've come across the fact that most people like porn (so I wouldn't take that as anything) and many people like pain meds.

Do you think someone is following you or something? It seems you weren't involved in the DNMs before the first guy introduced you, so why would you have even been of interest to LE in the first place?

I doubt there are companies full of people that are undercover looking to bust you. You just know weird people. And people will change their opinions to suit their audience. I wouldn't read much into it. Many people will say what they think their audience wants to hear - so in one instance they cna love pain meds, and in another hate them.


[1 Points] Vendor_ElfMachine:

You're probably not that special, right? However if it turns out they're all actually undercover agents, then I think they deserve to catch you because that's a lot of effort they're going through.

BTW really great read, OP. Does anyone know of any books similar to this?


[1 Points] None:

Maybe take a couple day break from drugs, specifically pot and meth and anything else that could cause such extreme paranoia


[1 Points] Aluminum_Foil_Hat:

Do you work in a restaurant?