Hey everybody,
This is by far my favorite subreddit in the multiverse and in the past, all you criminals have shown me nothing but love:
https://www.reddit.com/r/DarkNetMarkets/comments/3bbj9q/habit_kick_update/ https://www.reddit.com/r/DarkNetMarkets/comments/3ed7ke/another_update_on_my_current_habit/
That love has a gone a long, long way. Since your responses felt so genuine to me (they may not have been; whatever) I always felt responsible for keeping up with putting my best foot forward FOR YOU GUYS! Anyways, since its September, I'm back up at school. Been clean since the summer, minus one or two missteps. Feeling great, just sticking to herbs. I even stopped drinking! However; life has obviously felt something to be desired now that H has stepped out of my life (or i have stepped out from under it). Long story short, it feels like social anxiety with, maybe, a hint of real anxiety; however I dont succomb to panic attacks or anything like that. What happens (pretty much all the time now) is I feel crazy anxious about what other people think of me. ALL THE TIME. I cant help it. I used to be such an extrovert, but now I am showing more introverted characteristics than ever before in my life.
Not sure what else to do (and frankly, not wanting to go see a real doctor to be put on xanax) I figure drugs are probably the answer, but I just traded away one addiction. I want to try something that will help me with issue, that will help return the carefree attitude I had all the time, before H use and during; I feel like I cant get the most out of my life if im terrified to talk to strangers, or go to events/parties for fear of stupid social circumstances. Ive heard a little bit about etizolam, im curious about the effects of that (short and long). Any and all input would be much appreciated.
You guys are nothing but the best group of internet users out there; and have the best community I've ever had the privilege of being a part of. Thank you all so much!
I dont think this is sourcing, please correct me if I need to reword anything, mods! Stay awesome!!
edit: almost forgot to say shout the fuck out to Agora for being real to the end! Thankfully, them leaving due to whatever security issue, SupremeSmoke going down, and Sosa going direct only, I am essentially out of dope vendors! So thanks for that too!!!
Some herbs I'd highly recommend investigating:
Milky Oat/Oatstraw (Aveena sativa)
Damiana (Turnera diffusa)
Blue Vervain (Verbena hastata)
Ashwagandha (Withania somnifera)
Eleuthero (Eleutherococcus senticosus)
Lemon Balm (Melissa officianalis)
Holy Basil (Ocimum tenuiflorum)
Skullcap and Baikal Skullcap (Scutellaria spp.)
All of these are pretty damn safe and well-tolerated, and they can be immensely helpful. I'm familiar with all of them (I'm an herbalist) - feel free to check in if you have any questions. I'm confident that these, either individually or in combination, could probably go a long way to helping with your social anxiety.
This comment does not constitute medical advice and is intended for educational purposes only. Always consult your doctor before starting any herb or supplement regimen, most especially if you're pregnant or nursing, and inform them of any other medicines you may be using. Don't sue me.
I sincerely wish you all the best, and I'm confident that you can be more well! So proud of you for kicking, and looking forward to hearing much more from you in the future.