To all the people here, I will say I am sorry now.
I fell a need to vent, and because this is the area that I look to, please allow me to vent, and ask questions:
I come here looking on feed back for cannabis.
I started using cannabis a year ago...after 42 years around the sun, and retiring from the US Military....
Why I use....well, I tried killing myself and my family a number of times because of the shit the VA gave me. Do I blame them? (No, I actually believe that where I am, the personal I deal with are actually looking out for my best interest). That's beside the point My issue: I found something that actually brings me back to what I would consider normal (pre deployment).
I got this way via a lot of research and the darknet. Where I live cannabis is illegal in all forms. I thought I had an "IN"....but..doom on me, the "market" crumbles. And "life" as I know it goes back to being shit...I have about "that much" to get by. And I don't know how to find what I was using to survive.
I really hate sounding like the "whooooooo-ist me" but.....I've been drunk...way, way, way too fucking much to try and deal I am right now
[Where I live, I can't find the quality of Meds I was ordering]
So, after the self pity party.....I am asking...where should I go, who should I go through.
I would like to get back to "normal", which I know is pretty much impossible in my current state.
I was ordering via SR1 ( I know old as hell, and busted), ordered via sheep, ordered via TMP, algora, and CR)
Now, I am completely lost. The truly sad part of the my situation is, I live in a very, very liberal area....and I cannot find the same cannabis that I could order via the darknet.
So, where are people going for help?
Suck it up and do some research. You've been in this a while- multiple markets- find a new one. You know why I'm using this tone, and you know that you can handle this- look at all you've been through, some fucking jackoff Cur called a shitty play and it fucked your op, but we don't stop, we get the job done.
Adapt and survive.